Down again, fixing to do
Added 2023-04-02 22:40:08 +0000 UTCSorry guys, Easter is next week and I feel I have done nothing even though I did so much recently.
I have some medical stuff to fix, but I feel I let you all down.
Honestly, ALL 2022 was harsh,Sept,November and Dec 2022 was painful and busy. 2023,Jan was impossible, Feb I was barely able to get myself together for one live stream, March I cleaned a few things up and started stuff …
but I hit a wall last Tuesday when I had to go to auto repair and between walking in cold,windy rain and some nasty "routine" ALARM at the shop … my ears have been ringing with any sound. All sound hurts, i'm dizzy, it might relate to jaw issues and the whole vascular thing,but that triggered it.
I have to investigate ALL these, asap.
But I did so much work in the meantime, like bunnysuit pattern improve and new leotards! I have better fingernails for my characters, I got more makeup for "normal skin" stuff. I have a couple gifts to open but I can't live so I'm just gonna do it. I'm very tired very fast into the day so I can barely help my partner for her needs. I get headaches from getting sad and soupy drippy.
You guys mean everything to me, nevermind even money, but to be there for you/me guys to remind me/you that we matter.
I'm supposed to be the tough one but I can't do it unless I get some medical help and fix stuff. I still have implants with no crowns/teeth...temporary crowns on 2 since summer 2019 😞 I need to take care of vericose veins in my leg before they rip and I bleed out. They still won't get me anywhere with the POTS (post osterial tachecardia syndrome) which I've suffered 20years, the "post covid" hit me but also during SARS , I'm still putting up since 2011-2019 getting sick every year to the point of gasping for air evwry morning for weeks. I need a genetics test for EDS to confirm stuff and simply know - which way to go.
I'm struggling and the pandemic destroyed us both at home just after things already started to crush us in 2019. I'm stuck with what I have and still what I need. April is FULL of doc appointments now. I can only update stuff here with what I did recently but didnt get to cut yet, which was fun, but I had to keep moving. So bare with, I still have the xmas tree up...I pulled an all nighter photoshoot the day before that nasty car repair trip/ alarm day, I was doing ok all things considered 😢
Thanks for reading guys, I'll be back soon somehow, it's all been fast and recent.
Comments
That's really rough, I think we all understand you're fighting a massive uphill climb, and can only cheer you on and try to make it easier. As for the ringing thing, not to play Internet Doc, but is there a chance it could be a jaw infection? Another artist I follow reported one this weekend, and the symptoms and circumstances line up with what I had /sometimes have, like the painful ears (and for a while strong sound sensitivity). So I'm hoping to get checked, but my dentist is slow and overbooked.
Setsune Wave
2023-04-03 02:04:35 +0000 UTC
