where i've been

Hello, everyone! So... it's been a little while and I feel like I owe you guys an explanation on where I've been.

So, first off, if I'm totally honest, my mental health is pretty shot right now. I'm not going to therapy at the moment because money is tight and it is really taking its toll on me. Honestly, I'm struggling. Even the simple things like cooking or taking a shower are getting really hard to do. I've struggled with my mental health for years now and this is just another low period for me.

Second, my house semi-flooded. Basically, there was an issue with my shower. This led to a ton of water leaking and getting my bathroom soaked. It was bad. It sucked to fix and clean up everything.

Third, my friend was in a really bad accident. He is one of my childhood best friends and was hit while riding his motorcycle. Finding this out was devastating for me. I'm so grateful he's still alive, but he's in the hospital now. I went to travel to go visit him and his mother.

And finally, my body confidence has tanked. I don't even know why it's so low right now, nothing special happened, but I feel like crap about my body. I like being chubby, it feels so much better than being skinny, but the shape right now is just making me feel bad. Getting bigger has lowkey always been a struggle for me even while doing content like this because I spent so much of my life trying to be as skinny as I could be.

Also, in terms of posting on Instagram or Twitter, I completely honestly just forget. I'm not on them very often and sometimes I genuinely just forget I have to post on them. Like, I'll hop on Instagram for maybe two minutes, like a few posts, and then not open the app again for days. Which is really just my bad, I'm trying to get better about posting on it, but I'm just so horrible at it.

Also, on a lighter note, I've managed to recover some old YouTube videos which I will be slowly posting on my YouTube channel again!

I'm sorry this whole post is so long but I felt like you all deserved an explanation. Thank you if you've read this far. Thank you so much for supporting me and my content. I honestly love posting for you. Thank you for everything and I will see you in the next post. <3<3