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Currently working on a chapter titled "Roth declares himself." I already have one dozen drafts of different topics and scenarios and finally settled on a version I feel is the most poignant. I feel like the deeper we get into the series, the more unhinged and volatile Roth becomes and he even acknowledges that in this scene. It's edgy, shocking (to me, at least), heartbreaking and coated in a layer of agonizing desire. 

I don't know how many times I've walked away during these conversations. They're absolutely devastating and emotionally draining. There's something about this couple that just rips my heart out. They're both trying, but sometimes even that doesn't seem like it's enough. I really think if it wasn't for Roth's bullheaded, uncompromising nature, this wouldn't work. He really becomes the driving force in working through things she doesn't feel is worth the heartache. I think it's because he doesn't mind the pain while most would just surrender and walk away from so much turmoil. He's been evolving so much and revealing shit even I didn't know. He has to be one of the most closed off characters I've ever written. I've been writing a lot of his POV on the side as I go through these scenes because he plays everything so close to his chest. But as we progress, to get through to Jasmine, he opens up more than I ever imagined and it's so gratifying. 

I'm spending November writing book 4 (tentatively titled, Bitter Sins). I'm trying to get through as much of this book as I can so when I start edits on Bitter Confessions in December, I can add foreshadowing and make sure they're cohesive. I'll be editing in Dec/Jan (book 3) and the manuscript will be in my editors hands on Feb. 1. Estimated return date is March 11 for her to do a thorough edit on 120k words. I'll set a preorder date at some point for end of March, but will hopefully publish closer to mid-March. I'll be posting chapters on here leading up to the release, but won't be posting the whole book because of book pirates. We'll figure out those details once we're in the new year. For now, I'm just focused on writing book 4 and enjoying the ever-evolving relationship of this couple that has kept me on my toes for almost half a million words!