Health update

Hello my lovely patrons. It's been a while since I've updated anything and I swear it's due to a valid reason. 

I almost died... ok no, but it sure felt like it.

I was hospitalized for almost a week and just 2 nights ago I was discharged. 

The reason for such en extreme situation was due to severe head pain, if any of you ever had a migraine, multiply that x10.

They gave me really strong meds but it wouldn't help. So they did 2 cat scans to see what was going on in my head, fortunately,  nothing life threatening was detected,  like a tumor or stroke but the pain was still there. All the tests in the book were done, including a spinal tap (lumbar puncture) to check and analyze my cerebral juices (ew) it was the most horrible experience of my life, even having local anesthetic,  it felt horrible and I almost had a panic attack just even before they started. 

Viruses, bacteria and fungus were negative. The only thing that did came back was that the cerebral fluid had very high pressure,  so they directed me to a neurologist which I just came back from. 

The diagnosis ? Craneal hypertension. 

So I'm taking a ton of meds for the pain, pressure, even antidepressants that will keep me "happy" because all this was in part to my very serious emotional reaction to Biscuit's passing. 

Minimal efforts like going to the bathroom or going up the stairs trigger pain, emotional reactions like getting depressed or angry trigger pain, so I've been ordered absolute rest.

I'll see how the meds work for the next 3 weeks, right now the pain is under control and I wish I could go back to work but I don't want  go against doctor's orders.

Which leaves me with a huge weight on my shoulders because I'm failing all of you with our current project and I feel really bad because I want your contributions to matter and feel like it's worth it, but if you can wait a bit while I get my rest in these next days,  we'll get right back to work..

I already have the fishnet stockings video at 80% I just needed to film myself and finish editing the tutorial. 

So I hope i can keep your support this month. ❤🙏