Passion Dump of an Autist

Update 🤧🥴

I always like to keep everyone informed on the schedule. I have fallen ill with a nasty cold/flu which has left me very lethargic for the last week.

I’m taking care of myself and excited to be able to start recording again (I’m so bored just resting tbh).

I’m hoping to do the LFL music videos asap, but unfortunately it will be based on when I’m able to recover. My plan was to try to get through it today tbh, but I woke up feeling just as awful. Just know it will be done...

Tier 2 December Requests - Laufey, Ethel Cain, Madison Beer and Conan Gray

So happy to hear more from Ethel Cain and hear for the first time Laufey, Madison Beer and Conan Gray! Thanks for amazing requests, guys! :)

LANA DEL REY - Lust for Life - Full Album Reaction

This is a long one, my friends so buckle in. 3 hours and 40 mins later, I've fully experienced this beautiful album for the first time. We do research and go on little side quests...it's a great time! I hope you enjoy. :)

LFL still processing after 8 hours

It’s coming folks! I left it to upload and process overnight and usually when I wake up it’s good to go. I guess it’s taking a bit longer with the longer runtime (makes sense). I’ll post as soon as it is ready…it’s close so hoping in the next few hours.

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Lust for Life ✅

Almost 4 hours later and I’m done my Lust For Life reaction! lol, Patreon subs: you’re getting your money’s worth with this one! 😭🥴😂

WHAT A FRICKIN JOURNEY!!!!!

Should be up tomorrow morning (my time) ❤️

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

I just wanted to come on here and say thank you for allowing me to do what I do. Your support has made my dreams come true and I’m so grateful for that! I hope everyone has a beautiful holidays filled with so much love and joy. ❤️🎄🧑‍🎄

LANA DEL REY - Honeymoon Live Performances Reaction

How are we already here? Nerding out to her lives again before we go into deep research/analysis mode. Enjoy! :)

LANA DEL REY - Honeymoon Music Videos Reaction

Took 2 days with some lost footage, but we finally got it done! The videos were an absolute TREAT! :)

Honeymoon Music Videos coming…but the worst thing happened.

Hi guys! Not sure how this happened but about 30 mins in the middle of my reaction, the mic and face cam did not record. So I captured my “High by the beach” reaction and the last half of “Music to watch boys to”. I lost all of my reaction to Freak. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

So apparently I said something that the universe would just not allow to be public! God knows I tried… lol

So tomorrow I’m gonna re-record my reaction to those 2 lost and I’ll h...

LANA DEL REY - Honeymoon - Full Uncut Reaction

Is this my new fav?!!! What a listening experience!

Honeymoon Coming!

Hey guys! Just wanted to keep you informed. The last 2 days have been a little strange personally, so in order to give the reaction the energy I want to it’s just delayed by a day or two. The reaction will be up this week, just more near midweek! Hope everyone can understand!! Should be either tomorrow or next day. 🖤🖤🖤

LANA DEL REY - Cruel World - Deep Dive Video Essay - Early Access

I take 3 different perspectives that you could take to interpret this amazing song from ULTRAVIOLENCE.

Tier 2 - November Requests - Marina and Fiona Apple

Man, you guys got me again with these tracks! Such amazing songs, but super emotional for me. :p

LANA DEL REY - 'Cruel World' Song Breakdown - Video Transcript

I went on a bit of a side quest here. I am still doing my ULTRAVIOLENCE wrap-up essay, but as I was exploring 'Cruel World', I found I had a lot to say just on this song alone, so I wrote a separate essay. So here is the Video transcript if you wanted to peek. If not, I'm going to do a raw edit for Patreon that should be out in the next few days ahead of YouTube!

I hope everyone is having a great week! :)

Content Update - Nov. 27, 2024

Update for my community (emphasis on Lana Project):

Thanks so much for understanding while I haven’t been well and trying to get back on track with videos.

But I’m feeling great and have officially gotten my motivation back with this new announcement from Lana.

It’s a tall order but I believe in myself and I’m officially racing to get all albums done before this comes out. I wrote out a schedule for myself with a few weeks to spare...

LANA DEL REY - Ultraviolence Live Performances Reaction

WOW! She has some AMAZING performances in this period! :)

LADY GAGA - The Fame - Full Album Reaction

Man, this was SO much fun and super nostalgic. I've certainly been missing out!

LANA DEL REY - Ultraviolence Music Videos Full Reaction

We breakdown these three iconic videos (West Coast, Shades of Cool and Ultraviolence)!

HALSEY - The Great Impersonator

This was super heavy, but also truly an enjoyable listen! :)

LADY GAGA - Disease (Song & Music Video) - Reaction

Watching this was an EXPERIENCE!!!

LANA DEL REY - Ultraviolence Deluxe Reaction

And we have another hour of enjoying more Ultraviolence tracks! :)

My Lana Loves:

First of all, welcome to all new members! I’m making an educated guess you’ve joined the party from my UV post! 🖤🖤🖤

I just had an idea. I had SO much fun doing the live on YouTube this weekend, just getting to chat with you all and fangirl over Lana together.

It really made me feel a sense of community and I don’t want to wait until the end of UV again.

For my research for this last essay, I went through all the interviews and articles that were put out for ...

LANA DEL REY - Ultraviolence - Full Album Reaction

Well, it's here. A full 2.5 hour reaction to the standard edition. What an amazing listening experience. I've now listened to it 3 times and I have even more to say....already starting my research for this one!

LANA DEL REY - Born To Die - Wrap-up Video Essay EARLY ACCESS

This took me weeks and I'm not sorry bout it! 🤷‍♀️ We discuss the themes of Born to Die, including Paradise and connect ALL the dots!

Patreon Exclusive - LANA - Born To Die Video Essay Transcript

For those of you who want a peek before the video comes out, I've attached my transcript for you to read through, if you want!

I do recommend watching the video first, but certainly to each their own!

It's in transcript format, so strange to read, but it's so I can read a teleprompter!

Born to Die Essay Topic Preview 👀

As I’m writing this I’m getting so excited to share this video with you guys.

I wanted to give a little topic preview just for you guys on here to get us excited.

I’ve compiled 5 categories of freedom that I believe Lana details in these albums (Born to Die and Paradise)

1. Freedom in Escapism

2. Freedom in Power

3. Freedom in Identity Seeking/Forming

4. Freedom in Religion, its deconstruction, and Rebellion

5. Freedom in Love and Loyalty

We are FINALLY back on track with the Lana Journey

Hey guys! Thanks so much for your patience while I took a little time to rest. I was starting to get to the “burnout” point and I wanted to remedy that before it became a problem.

But the last few days I’ve been working on the wrap-up essay and I’m now at the final scripting stage so I’m hopeful that we can resume my plan this weekend of dropping the video on Saturday and streaming live on Sunday.

For Patreon early access, I’ll be uploading the PDF version of the scr...

Update on Wellness ❤️‍🩹

Especially for my Lana Supporters:

As many of you know I’ve gone on a little mini-break to make sure I don’t burn out while writing my Born to Die essay to finish off this amazing part of Lana’s discography. But after a few days of rest I’m feeling so much better to continue on the journey (maybe not so intense this time).

Here’s proof I’m balancing self-care and my passions. Some relaxing skincare, on the couch, listening to some more Lana and ...

Lana BTD Wrap-up Delayed! 😭

I wanted to be transparent here before anywhere else. As this structure I’m doing for this last video for BTD is new to me I underestimated how long this would take me.

The good news is: it’s taking me a long time because I’m having fun with it and really immersing myself in writing this script for the video.

The bad news is: I’ve been pushing myself a little too much outside my limits and I now need to listen to my body and give myself more time. Between this and my da...

Born to Die Essay Process

This is taking me FOREVER! But it’s SO fun. Can’t wait to share with you guys. ❤️❤️❤️