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Scripts for this week's comics!

Idk if anyone's interested but I thought I'd share this part of my process with you :3 I write all of my comics in Google Keep. I like doing this because it means that if I'm out and about and I have an idea, I can just tap it into my phone and I can still access it from my computer.

I'll usually write an idea down for a comic if I'm feeling a certain way. So today I've been trying to get back on top of my shit after kind of falling off the wagon for the last month and so that's going t...

Three Steps Forward (And Two Steps Back)

Oops I meant to post this on Sunday! 

Sever Our Connection

I may have gone a bit overboard with this one... but I also like it >:3

(holy moly my internet has been so bad lately. This took like an hour to upload and several ties.... Fate had indeed severed my connection..... my internet connection skdfsgfjhkgfsfs)

Future

...yeah ;;

Future (WIP)

wuh woh...

Sever Our Connection (WIP)

yum yum trauma :3 

Three Steps Forward (WIP)

Will the search for balance ever end xD

Autism Be Like.... (WIP)

I've been trying to make a comic like this for MONTHS and every time, I can never bring it to completion. 

I don't know if I'll finish this one either.... even just typing out the text bubbles has me shaking. This kind of scenario hurts me *so much*. I've come to expect this from my family, it's been going on for my entire life and while it hurts, I've kind of accepted it, but like.... the rules lawyering thing absolutely cuts me like a knife because it comes from my friends

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Round Robin Collab!

I'm doing a round robin collab with my good friends Shona (@iwanttobeahydra) and Pina (@adhd_alien) :3 I'm pretty proud of this lineart! It took me a while but it provided me with some Much Needed fun. It's not often that I get to draw just for the heck of it these days and I feel like my soul really needed it LOL

Anyway I'm uploading Shona's sketch too so you can see what it looks like :> We'll probably post the whole collab on Twitter or somewhere at some point so watch out for tha...

I Still Know Who I am

Haha oof I definitely do not have the artistic skill required to bring this idea to life.... I just have no idea how to draw backgrounds and I'm a bit bummed about it but I'm glad I still did the thing :3

This is kind of a vague comic about a lot of things... Everything feels super uncertain right now. Covid is making it basically impossible to plan for the future and on top of that, I'm also discovering more about autism and wondering how much of my personality is ME or how much of it ...

I Still Know Who I Am (WIP)

Proud of Myself

MmmmMMMmmm I'm not always able to feel this way about myself but it's nice when it happens! I try and remember that I'm just out here doing my best and that's good enough :3 The fact that I haven't given up yet is something to be proud of in and of itself tbh!!!

I'm Worried About You

wuh woh, sounds like an RSD reaction to me! This happened to me last week and it destroyed me for the rest of the day but I'm OK now! <3

For those who don't know, RSD sounds for Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and it's something neurodivergent people experience a Lot. Everyone experiences it a little bit though!

Phone Wallpapers!

A couple of people on Twitter have asked me if I could make the Lavender Clouds cover into a wallpaper and I thought it'd make a cool Patreon reward so, enjoy :3

There are two sizes, a 9:16 standard phone sized version (although most phones are different so idk how standard that really is lol) and the regular version :> 

Edit: I hit post without attaching the second file oops ;;;; It should be there now :>

I'm Worried About You (WIP)

I think I will change some of the writing here before I finish this haha. Idk if this is true for anyone else but as soon as an external person (i.e. someone other than me) expresses concern for me, it feels like an arrow to the heart. This is Definitely an RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria) thing and I know the other person is just trying to show they care but hoo boy, it hurts.

Sometimes I'm like, is this a me thing...... is it a general mental health thing....... or is this an autis...

It Was Me! (Dumb joke comic)

Idk if this is funny or not but it was funny to me xD Also I will never finish this

World Mental Health Day (WIP)

I realised yesterday that today would be World Mental Health Day and I was kind of like oh shit, I wish I'd made something, but I decided I was fine with not rushing something out. However, this morning I felt compelled to make this...... I don't know if I'll be able to ink it in time and if not I'll just post the sketch haha, I think that would be tonally appropriate xD

Oh No

It always takes me at least a month to accept when I'm in a proper depressive episode. *stares at all the dirty dishes and garbage in my room* hm..... I should have seen it sooner xD

The good news is that I my depression spells don't tend to feel like the end of the world anymore. I'm more prepared to deal with it than I ever have been before so I'm pretty sure I can live with this. I'm just having a bit of a stressful time right now lol and I needed a vent drawing to make myself feel b...

How Can I Make This Easier?

Rewarding Myself

Lavender Clouds

Oof this was tight but I finished it in time! I'll be posting this one publicly today but I still wanted to show everyone here a couple of hours in advance :3 

Lavender Clouds (WIP)

SO UM ;;;; for reasons that will become clear tomorrow if all goes well, I found myself in a position where I really needed to think of a title for this comic collection that I've been making... 

I've been calling it 'mood' for the longest time because that's the title I went with when I did a small print-run of it last year. But back then, my comics were a bit more depression memey diary comics and a bit less melancholic and I hadn't really found my voice yet. So for a while now, ...

Proud of Who I've Become (WIP)

Whoa what's this?! Positivity???? xD

I suddenly felt really at peace with myself and I wanted to make this while the moment lasts haha 

How Can I Make This Easier For Myself? (WIP)

I try to ask myself a lot of questions when I need to ground myself.

How am I feeling right now?
Why do I feel this way?
Can I work out the root cause of this feeling?
What do I need to feel better?
Is there anything I can do for myself right now to make this better?
How will I avoid this next time?

It helps a lot, especially if I write it down in the exact moment I'm feeling something :>

Rewarding Myself (WIP)

This has been a Big problem for me over the last month haha. Having fun is so vital to good mental health but sometimes I'm just too tired to do anything. At the end of a long day, sometimes I can't bear the thought of having to give any mental energy to anything, including the thing I was looking forward to :<

I find this comes in cycles though and if I'm going through a period like this, usually it's because of work stress or something like that. Soon, I'm going to be able to get...

Important Changes to the $7 Tier (Poll)

Hello everyone! This is going to be a bit awkward and difficult for me to write but I really need to talk to you all about the sketch rewards that are a part of the $7 tier. This is also going to be a really long and wordy update and I'm so sorry about that but please bear with me!

I think it's probably been pretty clear to everyone that I've been struggling with the sketch rewards for a while now and what I'm about to say has really been a long time coming. With 48 patrons i...

Music Commission

Despite saying very clearly to myself that I want music to remain my hobby that I don't want to monetise..... I ended up doing a music commission. This one was a lot of fun to work on, especially because the client already had an idea of what the melody should be which is the thing I struggle the most with :> 

I've sent this for feedback so I may yet have to change some of it and I might adjust some of the levels but here it is for now! Enjoy!

This is technically the secon...

Darkward (COMPLETE!)

Holy Moly this sure was a crunch but it is done! This is *so* not like what I usually work on but because of that it was a really good learning experience.

I hope the finished thing looks ok haha, I can tell the parts where I was clearly rushing but I hope it isn't too obvious to anyone else. It's hard for me because usually I put 1000% of my effort into everything I draw but there's kind of an unofficial rule in comics that you're only supposed to draw with 60% of your act...

Important Update!

Hey everyone!

I just wanted to say I'm sorry for not uploading any new comics last week, I've been back-to-back working on 2 client comics while dealing with moving back home and still grieving for and being pretty depressed about my dog's death and I haven't really had the time/energy to work on anything outside of my client obligations

I also cannot apologise enough for being behind with everyone's Patreon sketches. I've been trying to figure out when I can actually g...

Darkward: Character Designs

Hoo boy I am pretty behind on this project but if everything goes to plan, I should be able to finish this comic by Thursday!