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Part 3 from my "second chance" story! (Rosebud Photo)

Is this what the whole photoshoot is going to be like? I agonized… sitting there naked in this stranger’s apartment…..

“Ok, we are ready to start!” He pronounced. I had thought we started what seemed like hours ago (but was honestly, probably just 10 or 15 minutes). He sat about 5 feet away from where I was sitting, and started taking photos. He reminded me to be in my own world, smell the flower, think about things that make me smile, enjoy the high heels and stockin...

My second chance ...continued! (Rosebud Photo)

“Should I take off this robe now?” I needed confirmation that it was time for me to get naked… 16 years later, the model I am now would have just walked on set naked, but I was still unsure of myself.

“Yes, hand it here,” my skinny white arm stretched out with the white terrycloth textured robe at the end of it, he took the robe out of my hands and hung it back up in the bathroom for a moment.

“Oh, I almost forgot to put on some background music,” the photographer st...

My second chance at nude modeling... (Rosebud Photography)

“Try on these heels” The photographer handed me a box that still had price tags on it.

I came to this place to pose nude for this man, and I had no reason to hesitate. This time was different. There was no hustled pile of paperwork and no mansplaining of what “opportunities” I shouldn’t miss out on… We discussed over email about exactly what we were going to shoot. I was not being drooled over, nor hovered over.

I sat on the white stool on the living room’s edge, my ...

I needed the money... but...

“By the way”, he stammered, humbly hunched over a large flopping black folder, “If you’d ever want to do photos like this in my studio…” he gestured while opening to the first page, “…I’ll pay you $125 per hour.”

The black floppy folder contained pretty pictures of young ladies like myself, but naked, in romantic gestures such as holding a rose, or reclining on a fluffy pillow. Tasteful…  I confirmed to myself. We had just finished shooting fashion in...

1st Photoshoot story (ending!) (Photo by Matthew Cousins)

Continuing this story from where I left off the day before yesterday! If you missed the first two segments, scroll back on my posts a little :) 

     “Um… No thanks…” I politely declined, while listening to the familiar dial tone of his AOL connection booting... he then  started showing me videos of women s*cking his d*ck.

“This girl is only 18 and makes $10,000 a month! You’re just as pretty as her, you could be making the same if yo...

(1st Photoshoot continued...) Photo by J-Lin

(First photoshoot story continued...)      I crossed myself, and did as I was told. I didn't want to upset him further... soon I was fully naked in front of this strange angry man... "Wow, you're a natural!" his tone shifted from Hyde back to an enthusiastic Jekyll... "You're even BETTER nude than with clothes on! You're doing so great! I think you're ready for an EROTIC shoot!" 

     "What's erotic mean?" My naive little...

Story of my first shoot... (Photo by Masha)

     “Why don’t you come over and we will see if you make the cut?” The photographer stated, after hearing me express my insecurities. I was so nervous because I knew that models had to be at least 5’9 with perfect skin… I already had stretch marks and I am only 5’2… certainly I would be turned away at the front door… Despite everything in my fiber telling me I wasn’t good enough, I still drove myself there to do my first photo shoot ever. We agreed ...

VIDEO of Me and Erin Divine <3 w/ Photoshoot Ninja

I had the pleasure of posing together with this sexy-positive soul, Erin Divine!! This is our 20 minute behind the scenes posing video.  This was my first time meeting Erin, she is such a sweetheart! She is also so fit and beautiful, with a good sense of humor. It was so fun posing nude with her! Enjoy watching us interact :) 

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I may appear innocent... (pic by Fotoarcade)

I may appear innocent... but I am a bit of a sinner 😈

*Kristy

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Religious Trauma Syndrome (pic by Fotoarcade)

According to Wikipedia: "The development of Religious Trauma Syndrome can be compared to the development of Complex PTSD, defined as a psychological disorder that can develop in response to prolonged, repeated experience of interpersonal trauma in a context in which the individual has little or no chance of escape. Symptoms of RTS are a natural response to the perceived existence of a ...

Indulge in LUST! It's ok

It's ok to be hot, and it's ok to feel lust, we are humans, we are naughty animals. Let's love it!!

*Kristy

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My first emergency contraception... (Pic: K J Photography)

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“Do you have insurance?” Hell, I barely knew what insurance even was… I had a lot to learn, as a barely 16 year old who didn’t even know who Nirvana was, or even what cunnilingus was. Fortunately, I knew what pregnancy was, and I knew I was at risk.

My dad could never find out what happened last night… fortunately, there was a Planned Paren...

How I lost my virginity. (pic + self portrait)

“I freaking HATE my dad!” His angsty 17 year old voice felt harsh to my ears over the house phone. My first crush was a boy from church - the bad boy (obviously!) I heard he stole a car and flipped it once. I heard he smoked weed.

My need for the outside world and my apparent attraction to dark hair made me so boy crazy over him. Wednesday night youth group, Friday night “skate church”, Sunday night choir, and in the springtime during our church’s grandiose Play reh...

NSFW Photo of the Day (self portrait)

They call this Artist's Point or something like that :) 

*Kristy

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Old Poetry (image by Bunny Luna)

Poem from Nov 2003:

I was young, innocent

A virgin to cruelty and

Emotional toil. 

Under a homely roof

Living like all was bliss. 

But I did not realize

This life was fake. 

My friend, the spike 

And I were close. 

People would always say, 

“Look how great they get along!

How sweet! Those two!”

The days grew long. 

I began to fatigue. 

Then I noticed...

Forced Brainwashing (pic by Dark Arts)

   Without going too much into detail... my youth was very challenging after I decided I wanted freedom from my strict environment. When your bounds are all psychological, it's harder to understand them, which makes it like a mental torture... If I were literally tied up, at least I would have been able to understand what was happening. I suppose I can apply this anguish similarly to other relationships in life where I was being emotionally, intellectually, financially, or sexu...

Never enough.... (pic: Alvarado)

 “I can’t BELIEVE how many of you in this class forgot to bring your bibles to chapel last Friday!” Our balding bible teacher’s forehead and ears burned bright red with rage. “How could you FORGET? Is God NOT NUMBER ONE in your life? The first commandment says to ‘have no other gods before me’, RAISE YOUR HAND if you think you’re ‘good enough’ to get into heaven if you couldn’t even remember to bring your own bible to chapel?!” 

    ...

A poem about being overly controlled... (pic: Julian Wilde)

A Poem I wrote in Oct 2003, when I was 15: 

A small bright light

At the end of a tunnel

Like a star

It shines promisingly. 

Taunting me…

I want it so bad!

It’s call is so strong…

But this darkness I’m in

Holds me back. 

I have to endure it. 

“Patience is a virtue”

So I wait

And watch the light. 

It flickers and glimmers. 

(Poem I wrote because I was DY...

I couldn't feel the spirit. (pic: Cam Attree)

You know that feeling you get when nothing obviously wrong is happening in front of your eyes, yet you feel uneasy? How certain can you be about your own thoughts and feelings though… when you’re only 13? At such a young age… does one’s “gut feeling” have any merit? How does one know what the world consists of when they’re heavily monitored from witnessing the outside world? No public TV, no secular music, only people we are allowed to interact with go to the same church / schoo...

My secret guitar fetish... (pic: Jebediah)

What soothes your soul? And what is your trauma trigger? I have a theory that my fetish for the sound of an acoustic guitar stems from my early childhood: On the good nights, my younger sisters and I were put to bed, and fell asleep to the soothing sound of my dad’s bar chords echoing from down the hall, while he led his bible study or practiced Jesus music. On the bad nights, it was hard to fall asleep because we had to listen to my father yelling at my mother. I couldn’t imagine what my...

I was "bound" by religion... (Pic: Fotoarcade)

It might be a bit odd for me to be writing about this here on Patreon... but I truly hope to get a closer connection with you here. I encourage you to reply in the comments below...

I grew up just like any other kid... not allowed to watch public TV... put to work for my dad... sheltered and strictly controlled... that's normal, right? There were a lot of rules in the house: what not to say, how to reject a marketing call on the phone, how to perform our morning routines in sequence wi...

A re-introduction to me... (Pic: Sensual Soul)

Starting today, I am going to be telling you my story… the story of where I came from… it’s going to be kinda cringe at times, but you just might find some things in my story that you can relate to… at least I hope so… Of course I will also be sharing my regular hott and spicy content all the time too :)
(Photo by Sensual Soul)

*Kristy

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NSFW Photo of the Day by Carolyn Jean

There was a complex backstory to this photo shoot.... maybe I will make a youtube video about it... anyway this was a beautiful day at the nude beach in seattle with my creative friend Carolyn Jean <3 

*Kristy

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NSFW Photo of the Day by Shutterbug Studio

Sorry I can't get to the phone right now, I am stuck in the washing machine!

*Kristy

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NSFW Photo of the Day by Justine Marie

Gosh I love hardwood floors... 

*Kristy

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NSFW Photo of the Day by Daniel Chase

One of my favorite shoots of all time. There is a video now ripped to every pRN website that was stolen from my youtube of the behind the scenes of me posing with this snake, it's easy to find by searching "Kristy Jessica posing with giant snake" - if you have a moment it's worth the look!

*Kristy

NSFW Photo of the Day by Colin Jenkins

Always bending, always trying, I have recently had some trouble staying quite so flexible, but I am just being extra hard on myself. I can be a pretzel for a photographer any time <3 

*Kristy

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NSFW Photo of the Day by Henry Vance

The sensualities I sometimes fantasize about give me the thrills... are you ever a bit shocked by your own naughty dreams?

*Kristy

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Majestic Mountaintop Photos by ShaunTia

Meeting up with ShaunTia is always a magical excursion :) She is such an amazing talented artist. She was a full time traveling model before I even started modeling, she does model still but not nearly as much as “back in the day”. She’s known for her posing videos back when, and she is just so majestic… OBVS I am a HUGE fan… and have been for a long time. She became a super talented photographer and has had her work published in Playboy and many other publications. ANYWAY enough of...

NSFW Photo of the Day by FotoArcade

I'm not so great at bending over and taking it but I'll do everything I can to please you <3

*Kristy

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