I pursed my lips and steepled my fingers, eyes narrowing at the screen in front of me. Something had led me to the forum, a tug at my ego, I’m sure. Even if I wasn’t the most involved, I still cared enough about what people thought of my work. Well, to some degree at least.
“What’s with the face?” Alex, who had just entered the living room, asked me before walking over and pressing a kiss to my head.
“A disappointment,” I spoke sourly, as if each word left a dirty ta...
2019-01-21 17:43:17 +0000 UTC
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This. Fucking. Chapter.
It's been a damn project over this last week getting this thing ready to post today -- edits and re-edits and plenty of arguments with my editor -- but I'm pretty damn happy with the final project that I have for y'all.
I'll be honest, I initially had more that I wanted to say beyond this but really, you should just read. It's one of those chapters where a flowery intro would only spoil the impact.
2019-01-18 11:03:45 +0000 UTC
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“Okay, but seriously, why do you have a torn up pair of sneakers that are damn near identical to Jackson’s?”
The question had been burning in my mind for the last hour or so at least. Ever since my conversation -- I used that term quite loosely -- with Jackson had ended earlier and I began my walk home, it had been stewing. Sure, it was a strange thing for me to get hung up on but it was the damn sneakers. How could I not think about it?
“I was unaw...
2019-01-16 11:06:43 +0000 UTC
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“So you don’t want to do it and I don’t want to do it but we still want one?” Rebecca asked, her voice dry and exhausted.
Emily nodded. “Sounds about right.”
Rebecca exhaled through her nose roughly and pulled Emily’s head into her chest. “That leaves us at a bit of a stand still, my dear.”
“It would appear so,” Emily grumbled, her brows furrowed in concentration.
Evie wasn’t exactly sure what her friends were talking about, she had only walked ...
2019-01-10 19:16:52 +0000 UTC
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I'm kind of pissed off about some things and I really need to talk about them because I've been putting it off for some time.
I need people to understand what Patreon is first though. Patreon is not a marketplace. Patreon is not Amazon. Patreon is not Ebay or Goodreads or Barnes and Noble or anything like that. This is a place that as a creator I can ask people to support my work and in return, I give them thank you gifts for believing and supporting my art.
You see this is ...
2019-01-07 20:42:25 +0000 UTC
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Man, I am SO fucking jazzed for this story! Seriously, I've had the most fun getting into these characters and telling their story. I sincerely hope that y'all are even half as excited as I am to get into the next chapter of this. I cannot express this enough haha.
I also want to take a second to thank my amazing and wonderful editor that made this chapter so, so much better than anything I've done in awhile. Quite awhile. You're kind of incredible and you're ...
2019-01-05 03:46:34 +0000 UTC
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It wasn’t like I wasn’t thankful for them. It was a nice gesture after all. I just wasn’t one to go out and party. Or drink at bars. Or really do much of anything social. Social wasn’t my thing.
Rebecca noticed my apprehension, annoyingly perceptive as always, and bumped her shoulder with mine before chuckling, “Are you going to be like this all night, Amanda?”
“It crossed my mind,” I muttered and chewed on the straw in my mouth.
“I’ve missed you...
2019-01-02 15:36:17 +0000 UTC
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“Okay, so, you want me to hit you with this,” Katie held up the pool noodle in her hand with speculation, “because it’ll help me feel better?”
“It’s not about feeling better, it’s about, you know, getting all that pent up aggression out,” I sighed and tapped the pool noodle in my own hand against my thigh.
“What pent up aggression?” Katie asked. I let out an exaggerated exhale toward the sun in response.
The two of us had been facing each other in my pa...
2019-01-01 01:49:50 +0000 UTC
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Love.
For someone as analytical as myself, it has always been the hardest concept to accept and understand. Not that I had never felt the emotion of love before, of course. I had loved my mother for caring and nurturing me, I loved my brothers even though they were idiots – because they were my idiots – and I loved my dad because… well, mostly because I was obligated too. I’ve just never been able to understand it in the usual sense people expected; the romantic side of things.<...
2018-12-30 00:58:40 +0000 UTC
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“Okay,” I sighed. “Okay, I packed up early. I’m on my way home.”
“Really!” Katie’s excited screech was so loud I had to pull the phone away from my ear with a wince. “Oh my God, finally!”
“It’s only been like, four days,” I chuckled as I changed lanes toward my exit. “And it’s not like I was even gone! We had lunch on Tuesday!”
“Well… Yeah….” Katie's voice went low and coy, forcing me to tune in and listen intently. “But I’ve misse...
2018-12-07 13:22:41 +0000 UTC
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I’ve always loved flying. There’s something about lifting off the ground, feeling yourself leave the earth in a way that no human was ever intended to, that has fascinated me since my first flight as a child. As much as I loved the takeoff, however, my favorite part was being so high up that you could see everything in a way that you never could before; surveying a silent world like an uninvolved overlord. There was a serene calm to that for me.
It was so serene that Jules ended up ...
2018-12-05 10:38:03 +0000 UTC
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Alright guys, sorry about last weeks weird schedule. I was sick as a dog but I still wanted to put something out, even if the days were all wonky. Back to normal this week though. Which leads me to what I've brought y'all.
I'm doing something a bit different here. As I believe I've mentioned before - maybe? - I've been feeling a little stagnant on some of my current projects, and I've honestly been wanting to write something like this for awhile, especially in regards to spotlighting a side ch...
2018-12-03 19:49:07 +0000 UTC
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“C’mon, it’ll be fun,” I said playfully and tugged on Zoe’s hands.
“No it won’t. It’ll be dirty and messy and… ugh. No. Nope.”
Zoe rolled her eyes and frowned but she was also letting me drag her along – literally – so there must have been some merit to my plan in that big, logical brain of hers. Either that or she was just going soft on me. Probably both, I mused, smiling at the thought.
“But Bear,” I cooed, looking up at her inte...
2018-11-29 10:47:47 +0000 UTC
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Well… shit. I thought to myself as my eyes darted first to my mom and then to my mama before I uttered a nervous chuckle that was matched with a grin of the same nature. The looks that they both sported, a color of upset shaded in with a little bit of pissed off, told me that my usual charm would not help me wiggle out of this one.
“Lil, I’m going to give you the chance to explain your end of this but first you need to know how disappointed we both are in you,” Mom s...
2018-11-28 01:46:35 +0000 UTC
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Jocelyn Edwards had only been at Zendex Media for a total of twelve days when she first had the, well, pleasure of meeting Rebecca Knox.
When the brunette first walked into the receptionist area that she was manning, Jocelyn knew that there was a certain intensity about the woman that instantly set her on edge. If she were being honest, it reminded her of the aura that all the mean girls she went to school with once had. There was a way about her, a confidence and superiority t...
2018-11-14 18:52:36 +0000 UTC
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I breezed into the garage with an angry huff, not even so much as a hello or a nod in Iggy’s direction as I went. Just as I expected, I found my best friend underneath of a car; ratty ass Converse on like usual and those feet waving around in an unconscious manner. Swear to God, Jax, I’m gonna burn those fucking things one day.
“I’ve got a bone to pick with you, fucker,” I growled and crossed my arms, taking the stance with him. It really only worked when he ...
2018-11-12 21:20:24 +0000 UTC
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So from now on Friday will be my day to post new chapters and extra content like character/story breakdowns so keep a lookout! Also, Fridays will be early access days for my Jesse tier patrons and above and on Monday I'll make the content accessible to the lower tiers.
Pretty sure that's all for today's updates. Enjoy the chapter and happy reading!
2018-11-09 22:48:13 +0000 UTC
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Evie knew it wouldn’t last. She deluded herself in thinking that Oliver would end up being the one for her, even if she knew deep in her heart of hearts that nothing lasts. That’s the whole point of the game of life, right? Make it count while it’s there but knowing that all good things fade away eventually.
“Another?” the bartender asked with a nod towards Evie’s empty shot glass.
“Yeah,” she muttered. “Make it a double.”
“You got it.”
Evie sig...
2018-11-07 14:03:17 +0000 UTC
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I knew from the moment I walked in the door that things were not good. There were bits of fluff and scraps of something – I didn’t know, I didn’t want to know – lined along the foyer and hallway. As I ventured further into the living room it only got worse. So much worse.
“That fucking dog,” I growled under my breath as I eyed the destruction.
Jules had convinced me that getting a dog would be a good idea. It would be something that we could raise ...
2018-11-06 01:14:16 +0000 UTC
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“Argh!”
I heard the exclamation from all the way down the hall in the kitchen. Someone just hit a wall… I mused to myself and smiled a little, despite my wife’s clear struggle. I grinned a little more as the term wife crossed my mind briefly. Still so fresh, so new and so, so wonderful.
I contemplated whether I should head back and check on her or not when I heard a low groan and then the unmistakable thump of skull meeting hardwood. With a low chuckle an...
2018-11-02 17:05:38 +0000 UTC
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Ah, my favorite holiday. The time of year where everything is all dress up and spooky stuff and pretty fall colors. Honestly, who doesn't love Halloween? So, in honor of my favorite holiday I have another fun romp with Emily and Rebecca, exclusively for all of you lovely Patrons.
There are some other things to discuss though, like always. I've got some important changes that I'm about to make to Patreon, such as adjusting my tiers and the benefits included, along with sticking to a posti...
2018-10-31 18:48:51 +0000 UTC
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Okay guys, update time!
Back with another installment of Focus, we're almost to the halfway point so things are really starting to get going now. I still have some thoughts for Sweet Tooth and there's at least another chapter or two of that to get out but honestly I'm really, well focused on my current story right now.
With some of the problems that I've had with my former host site, Literotica, I may be changing up some things in regards to tier rewards and making the stories more avail...
2018-10-20 18:10:31 +0000 UTC
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Woo! Finally feeling like I'm back on track boys and girls!
Okay, so of course the most important thing to talk about is Focus being updated fucking finally. I know, I've been horrible at this. Shame really since I had such a hot start but oh, well. Getting things done now.
So this one was tough. I had the same problem when I was writing the fifth chapter for TNT actually. I just got into this mind numbing block that I could not push past no matter what. It was mostly just the m...
2018-09-27 17:34:05 +0000 UTC
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So, I have been very absent lately as most of you have been able to tell. First and foremost, I am not done writing and I'm not going anywhere. I know that I've literally ghosted between Patreon and Twitter but I'm still here.
Actually, at this moment I'm packing for my upcoming move in a few days across the country. Kind of a new life starting sort of thing. It's why I've been so lax about posting on here lately, just a lot of life stuff that's been killing my creative flow.
So...
2018-09-17 14:53:39 +0000 UTC
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This most recent chapter of Focus has been a bit... tough to finish. Between my life - chaos - my work - chaos - and me - absolute chaos - things have a bit slow moving lately. Hopefully though, I'm at the beginning of a whole new start where I can find a solid rhythm again. Which means with any luck, I will be getting you the chapter in just a few days time at most.
So after the last few posts, I feel like I just need to start really spilling out what my thoughts are behind what I'm working o...
2018-09-02 14:00:19 +0000 UTC
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I just want to say a few things, which you can choose or choose not to read before you skip to the bottom to tear into that new chapter.
My work -- this work -- is really a secret part of my life, and as such, there's not many people I can talk to about what I'm working on or what I'm thinking about or whatever. So when I have a moment of revelation like I did earlier it's kind of a bummer when there's no one to share it with. Then I figured, well, you people pay me to write fo...
2018-08-24 18:02:13 +0000 UTC
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Man, I really cannot contain my excitement when I have something to share. I wanted to wait until next week to put this out but then I was thinking that I started a bit slow so maybe I should just put out more content. Besides, it's been exactly one week since I posted the first chapter of Focus so this seems appropriate.
Just don't get some kind of high standard for me over here. My muse still sucks and I'm prone to low productivity from time to time. Let's just consider this my catch u...
2018-08-22 14:12:50 +0000 UTC
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Wow. Okay. It's been a week guys. So, I'm sorry for my absence and lack of response to questions and such. So, let me just go through some stuff and then I'll give you a present. Sound good?
So, AMA. This has been a lot harder to plan than I thought. So here is my solution that will hopefully appease everyone. I'm going to open up the AMA text channel tomorrow at midnight my time (PST. If you need to know how that equates to your time, 2018-08-21 22:02:05 +0000 UTC
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About the AMA, I don't want anyone to lose out on what they've earned so I refuse to let anyone forgo a reward that they actually want. Besides, I really want the opportunity to connect with you guys. So, it may be a bit complicated to figure out but we'll do it one way or another! Uh, that came out wrong...
Anyways! It would be super helpful if I knew where people were and how I could best plan this thing. As mentioned before, I am a mythical creature that survives less on sleep and mor...
2018-08-16 05:28:20 +0000 UTC
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Well, here's your poll winner, Focus. If I didn't mention it before, Focus will be told from a dual narrative perspective, which means that if you don't like the voice of this chapter you might enjoy the next more.
Well, I'll for go any further ado and let you just get to it.
Happy reading!
2018-08-16 05:11:22 +0000 UTC
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