Sxy stretching 4/6
A lot of times I think the world would be a better place without me in it. Yesterday, , in this moment, I didn't feel that way. I felt kind of happy.
2023-05-03 03:08:11 +0000 UTC View Post
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Stretching 3/6
Vimeo won't let me upload more than 10 minutes at a time… kind of frustrated but here we goOoo
2023-05-03 00:05:44 +0000 UTC View Post
Transfer for "" nighttime routine
So because I don't have full-time 24 hour care, I have to go to bed or at least transfer at 6 PM. That's because we do a lot of stretching and range of motion with my legs that is impossible to do in the chair.
I also eat dinner around seven, and sometimes go on the ventilator early if I'm having trouble breathing or if I'm trying to sing… I can't really sing on the diaphragm PACER.
This is just part one, I made it available to all my patrons but the other parts are for...
2023-05-02 16:31:36 +0000 UTC View PostUploading videos tonight!
Made a day in the life today of my nighttime routine and stretching. I'm a little goofy after smoking a joint outside in the warm sunshine. Thank goodness it's warm again! My body actually feels good as opposed to being so sore and achy all winter.
These videos will be revealing but not explicit, you'll have to wait for the weekend because my Saturday night caregiver can help me with my vibrator etc.
I'm just uploading all these now so they should post tomorrow!
Lov...
2023-05-02 05:28:44 +0000 UTC View PostTGIT: thank God it's tiddies
What do you want to see more of?
2023-04-28 19:23:38 +0000 UTC View Post
Did I get a boob job?
Or could it be a three dollar push-up bra I found on SHEIN.
2023-04-28 04:13:24 +0000 UTC View PostFishnet, Jean and flannel
There are shorts built into this mini skirt… it is NOT a diaper… sorry to disappoint… ha ha. Obviously, with a catheter I don't have any accidents involving urine, and thankfully I don't yet have any problems with leakage, hopefully I never will. People have asked to see the bowel program on camera, which is probably not going to happen because there's no easy way to get the exact angle of my caregiver sticking their finger up my ass, in a very unromantic way.* I hope this BLATANTLY...
2023-04-20 05:38:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Slut without a cause
I tried on the darkness for you.
You said, I looked beautiful in Black.
I wanted so much to embody that, slip away from the day and become even one of your nightmares just to be a part of your dreams.
I ask you not to lose me, like I am your motorcycle keys or sewing machine bobbins.
You don't get it, because to you I'm like a little piece of gold you found and keep in your pocket to rub for good luck.
I feel calm ...
2023-04-20 04:38:07 +0000 UTC View PostFeelings of lust on Lexapro
When you just want to be taken, tied up, and taught a lesson…
But you're a quadriplegic and you live with your parents and you're eating lexapro every night.
2023-04-20 03:54:08 +0000 UTC View PostSome singing on the ventilator part two
Watch part one first!
Thank God for Lexapro.
I love you all.
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2023-04-20 03:41:03 +0000 UTC View PostSome singing on the ventilator part one
Check out part two even though it's only three minutes! I'm about to post a photo shoot I did tonight… my caregiver tonight is kinda conservative so nothing to explicit you might have to wait for Sunday for that.
I don't know why I thought antidepressants would make me lose my sex drive. Those lyrics from grease keep popping up in my head…
”ya better shape up, cause I need a man“
He he
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2023-04-20 03:39:05 +0000 UTC View PostUpdate on mental and physical health
A little update is the sun!
2023-04-19 04:17:21 +0000 UTC View PostScandalous reminder!
I do one on one FaceTime calls 15 to 30 minutes with any and all of my scandalous members! In the outfit of your choice, I sent three options from cute to bondage or casual. We can talk about anything for up to 30 minutes! Reoccurring as much as you like per week.* one each week. There is no additional cost per call, as long as you were already subscribed to scandalous .
If you recently subscribed, make sure to scroll ALLL the way down to not miss my earlier content, which is ve...
2023-04-18 01:22:52 +0000 UTC View PostVaping for anxietyS sake
I haven't had much to say lately, because I feel sad… but I did start taking an antidepressant and I think it's helping.
I'm realizing that my path in a lot of ways it's just going to be different from others. My emotions run really deep, and my version of polyamory requires emotional connection… body and soul are not up for one night stands or Situationships. It's sad to me sometimes, making a really good connection but then realizing I'm way too emotionally invested, and all the othe...
Ultrasound
I'll make a video today going into what this was for and what my results are
2023-04-13 16:05:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Sneak peek of the ERIGO and unsettling News
I was going to update everybody about my recent doctor appointment, which was stressful and scary for me, and which I have been still processing. Tomorrow I have a follow up appointment. It's an ultrasound for a strange lump in my right breast. I wanted to do a video explaining it, but it's been more difficult to talk about then I anticipated. I'm getting emotional just writing this. It's not cancer I'm afraid of, or even surgery, it's the thought of being left alone in a hospital again. ...
2023-04-11 03:30:04 +0000 UTC View PostUpper extremity Machine and expenses
Each session using a machine like this, excluding the FES bike for my legs, is $85. Having equipment like this in my home is impossible right now, but going to therapy multiple times a week like this it's also impossible because I can't afford to be doing this every week. There's no way to tell if I would see improvement in function and movement if I was able to access this equipment more affordably.
My recent health concerns have me not eating enough and not being able to sleep very we...
2023-04-08 19:17:28 +0000 UTC View PostI got a facial… not that kind of facial;)
This helped my face so much.!
I had another appointment this week about something more serious. You might as well be informed sooner or later thank you… It has to deal with a major part of my health. I'll be posting a video about it soon. Going into more detail. I'm pretty scared.
I'm also starting a new medication to help with my suicidal thoughts and depression.
The special made me feel a little better for a second though* facial
2023-04-07 03:26:54 +0000 UTC View PostThoughts at 2 AM
Hold on… is this the only Time of day I will be able to coherently, or mostly coherently be able to express things??
2023-04-01 16:35:34 +0000 UTC View PostWork out sesh
So excited to be back at the Craig Hospital outpatient gym… this machine at the beginning of the video stimulateS all my different leg muscles with electrodes. It felt really good to move around in an upright position and I was able to "" walk for 30 minutes without fatiguing or having any problems with my blood pressure. I did take a blood pressure medication to keep it high for when I stood up. There's a tendency for people with paralysis to have low blood pressure because we don't have c...
2023-03-31 18:48:10 +0000 UTC View PostBig dreams
Trying to shift my mindset from if I can to when I can
2023-03-29 02:32:42 +0000 UTC View PostYou know you want to
Because deep down inside, you're wondering what disabled pussy feels like
2023-03-26 05:20:56 +0000 UTC View PostBetter off as a dominatrix
Because I'm really fucking good telling people exactly what to do with me
2023-03-26 05:14:45 +0000 UTC View PostIf you can't love me for my heart, Love me for my ass
They say that babies die for lack of touch sometimes. I am a Bbygirl and I'm dying…
2023-03-26 04:36:47 +0000 UTC View PostThe Unfolding
I want to see how it all unfoldS
Sooner or later when the dice is rolled
It's a strange Sensation , wanting to live
After you've given all you could give
After the silence in the pain you can't speak of
After the sadness in another world
I hope you understand, I whisper into the deep
Unknown
When I panic in my sleep, when I cry for a home
I hope you don't leave, at the end of the Road, because everything leaves
And I know th...
2023-03-24 04:03:07 +0000 UTC View Post