A panicked Niall is looking for Hati
I shouldn’t have said that.
I don’t know what I said but if it made you leave, I shouldn’t have said that.
Sure, I don’t know for certain that you left back for the North. It’s just this nagging feeling in my stomach, something that refuses to leave. Besides, if you didn’t leave, that’s even worse. Either you left willingly because you don’t care about getting caught anymore. Or something took you.
Tightness...
2024-12-27 12:01:30 +0000 UTC
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Hi there! The seasonal flu caught up with me, which unfortunately means the smut’s release will have to wait till next week. Thank you so much for your understanding and patience! I'm cursing my luck, but I'm still hopeful I can deliver the update this month, despite losing precious working hours.
Thank you again!
2024-12-14 16:07:54 +0000 UTC
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A worried Marcus is looking for Hati
Why do I expect you to act like a normal, fully functioning adult? Running away like a child in the night, forcing me to look for you like a panicked father after his firstborn. Forcing your fellow soldiers to look for you despite the potential punishments they will get for your actions.
Freezing water splashes into my boot and I can’t help but wonder: Why am I here anyway? I could just let the others find out that you’re g...
2024-11-30 20:42:06 +0000 UTC
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An assortment of snippets from the next update without context:
Besides, the meaning of the gift makes me frown in puzzlement. He gives me jewelry for giving him a handjob?
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“Quinn, you’re getting on my nerves.”
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"And, to be honest, the thought of burning someone alive is a… I…” They shift uncomfortably.
"You felt bad for them?"
"Don't sound so surprised."
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“I understand you did what you had to.”
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"You're...
2024-11-24 15:26:15 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
So, I grossly underestimated the time it takes to code and write a set of scenes that will have this amount of variation. I thought that this wouldn’t be the case until Saturnalia but of course, everyone is already referencing the bath scenes because so much happened there. Quinn is giving their (unsolicited) opinion and the whole RO gang appears to have their say about things. I thought this was going to be another 20k update but I’m already at 25k and I wager there...
2024-11-22 07:14:29 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
I’m still working on the next update. The progress has felt a little more like walking through mud this time but that's a creative process for you. I will do my absolute best to push it out by next weekend. I'm a little worried that I'll finish the text by then and not the code but we'll see. I’m imagining myself in a Rocky montage right about now. I’ll keep you posted.
Despite the occasional mud, it’s been super refreshing to write every ROs’ scenes for ...
2024-11-12 18:04:00 +0000 UTC
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Tinsae sees something wrong with Hati’s head
It aches my heart to see you peacefully soak in the water like it’s something you’ve yearned for a lifetime. You look like a tired old soldier despite your age. There’s an immeasurable weight on your shoulders; the weight of the dead. And the tired hatred that gnaws at your very being. To lose everyone you hold dear in such a violent manner is a tale as old as time. I’ve seen its effects before, I’ve seen how it destroys ...
2024-10-30 19:38:24 +0000 UTC
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Things that ended up being cut:
Hati thinking that Paios is coming onto them:
“Would you mind indulging an old man’s wish?”
[[Indulging an old man's wish? Is he coming onto me?]]
He’s old. Older than my father. He’s not bad to look at but…
Before I can ponder on the thought further, Paios stops me: “Please, it’s nothing of the sort. I just wanted to know what you think of my Lord.”
“Oh… Alright.” That makes more sense.
2024-10-22 09:50:58 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
So, good news! We’re officially out of the baths! (Hati doesn’t bathe in Quinn’s scenes and every other route proceeds to their scene so it doesn’t count.) Can’t tell you how happy I am about that. The bath scenes were super necessary for the relationship and character development but oh boy if they were a long process to write.
So… Yay! Yay for me, yay for you, yay for Hati for finally getting bathed.
I’ve been working on the next update and I’m aiming t...
2024-10-21 10:54:15 +0000 UTC
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Working swiftly on the next update, Quinn's got some answers to give (if you haven't, please read Niall's or Tinsae's scenes, they provide more Quinn info for now).
“Was it the Twins who gave you the blessing?”
They give me an unreadable smile. “You think it was someone else? Someone making a fool out of me?”
“Twins wouldn’t do this to you. They wouldn’t infect you with a disease that kills you. They wouldn’t ask for blood in return.”
They sigh. ...
2024-10-10 08:41:20 +0000 UTC
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Snippets from the upcoming update:
“Did you think that I would jump at the opportunity and join forces with Camilla?”
She visibly shudders at the thought. “Please don’t even joke about that."
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“The Twins,” she starts, “they demanded the branding of faith?” she says as she almost absentmindedly touches my tattoo. And her touch causes a jolt of pain to flash through me. It’s like a scorching sun burning my flesh.
<...
2024-09-30 14:54:00 +0000 UTC
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Hello there!
Good news! The Tinsae update is almost done! (It’s already 20k words long but I need to write and code a few more pivotal scenes.) I wager it will be out next week. In the meantime, I released the promised Marcus encore scenes (4k words). They’re quite dramatic so that’s great.
Anyway, why is it such good news that it’s almost done and not that it’s actually done?
Well.
As some of you know, I experienced a major burnout over a year ago. And for a...
2024-09-29 20:08:31 +0000 UTC
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Niall shoots down Hati's advances (Niall's POV)
“You look devious,” I say with my throat tightening. You do. It’s an all too familiar look that I’ve grown used to. You want my body. And I would gladly give it to you to help you. It might make you feel better. You just learned that your friend is a mass murderer, I could help to distract you.
Just another way I could help.
The degenerate hunger in your gaze doesn’t shy me away, it’s not the reason I find ...
2024-09-28 19:23:52 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
The flu didn't get to me that bad and I've been writing away. I released the Niall smut (with LT vibes) yesterday and I can fully focus on the update. (This month's chosen RO for the smut is Quinn, which will be interesting.)
I'm making good progress with the update 🙏 It's been super interesting to write Tinsae's scenes. I thought that Tinsae's scenes would follow a similar pattern to Niall but she surprised me. Everyone's been surprising me and that's fun! S...
2024-09-16 14:31:10 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
I will have to keep this short and sweet this time because there’s not much else to say than ‘I’m writing!’ and ‘I’m also getting a fever!’ so.
The update came and went and I’m focusing on Tinsae’s (and Marcus’s encore) scenes now. There's a hefty draft done already so I'm hopeful that I'll get something out soon. First, I need to finish Niall’s smut that’s overdue. Unfortunately, my family is going through a flu now so that’s not great but I...
2024-09-08 18:55:32 +0000 UTC
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Quinn's POV, talking with the cookie shop grandmother about Hati
Mouse.
Two. Three.
Squeaking, crawling. Scratching. Gnawing.
I release my knees from the hug and shield my ears. Why are they so loud? Is it the hard wooden floor amplifying their ungodly sounds?
Do they resent life in this godsforsaken town, too?
“Or do you want to drive me insane?” I ask the empty mill room. The critters don’t answer.
I smack my head to make it sto...
2024-08-30 10:09:54 +0000 UTC
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Different Hatis fighting back the tears (behind a choice ofc). My face when I realized that I still have a few emotional scenes left to write (they always take the most care to write T_T). Well at least it's always fun to experiment with Hatis with different personalities.
fire
I grimace at the tears, try to threaten them to stay away. But it’s in vain, they’re already falling down my cheeks.
“Hati,” he starts, ready to grab me into his w...
2024-08-21 08:24:26 +0000 UTC
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I realized I haven't shared a blooper in a while. I found this one in my files and I have no idea when I would even use this one. I mean, I have an idea when it might be fitting but I doubt Marcus would act like this. I mean, yes, he can be dramatic but it's a bit much.
So, it's just a depressed and pouty little Marcus. Perhaps a high school AU scenario where he refuses to go to school? 😅
“Marcus, you need to get up,” I say in frustration. He lies beneath the sh...
2024-08-19 11:44:10 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
Working my butt off on the update! I wished to get it out this weekend but realistically it isn't doable, there's still too much playtesting and finetuning to do. So, next week! Also, unfortunately, I will leave the Marcus drama for the next month's update, otherwise we'll be here till the end of the month or something. I plan on releasing it next month along with Tinsae's scenes. It will be a challenge but I'm trying to stop myself from editing too much and just steam ahead. ...
2024-08-17 08:19:17 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
Sorry about missing last week's rambling. I realized that around half of my ramblings are mostly me saying 'still writing!'. I thought that maybe I should start rambling biweekly, so I have more to say.
Basically, this is me coming here to say, 'Still writing!'. Lol but I am.
I just released the fluffy Marcus smut. It was a fun one to write, it takes place further in the future. It was actually super interesting to explore Marcus when his walls are more down. As...
2024-08-02 12:09:57 +0000 UTC
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Marcus steps into the pool with the obviously murderous Hati
I shouldn’t step into the water.
But I know I won’t listen to myself.
You’re peering at me like a crocodile from the shallow waters. Am I the unsuspecting prey?
I chuckle at the thought.
Don’t tell me that you’re trying to look more approachable with that smile. It just manages to make you look more deranged than usual. Hatred in your gaze is burning holes in my tunic. It...
2024-07-30 20:52:56 +0000 UTC
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Awkward Hati and Niall pondering on their options.
[[“You can join the bath if you want to…” The thought is awkward.]]
It feels awkward that he’s there fully clothed while I’m naked here. However, the thought of him entering the pool naked feels even more awkward.
And he seems to share the sentiment, since he gives me a quick lookover.
“Are you quite sure? I’d have to get naked.”
“You can’t keep your tunic on?”
...
2024-07-30 16:31:14 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
So, I’ve been writing. I didn’t get to the coding part just yet this week but I'm getting there next week.
Both Niall and Marcus have surprised me during this update. But that’s one of the good things about being a plotter with major pantser tendencies (writing IFs forced me to start plotting more lol but I’m still a pantser at heart); I can let the characters surprise me and go from there. For example, Marcus was supposed to just have a quick pouty meeting with...
2024-07-21 15:31:27 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
I've been working hard on the Niall update and I finally managed to release the last month's Camilla smut. It turned out pretty good, even if I was overly ambitious with providing both sub and dom routes for Hati (who can be either male or female). It was a lot. Won't probably do that again unless I hate myself in the future, too (jk). This month's smut RO is Marcus whose fluff smut scenario won the poll. It will definitely take place in the future, he's not the fluffiest of g...
2024-07-14 14:00:21 +0000 UTC
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Unfortunately, no Camilla’s cucking yet! Next week! Other than that, things are going well. My writing schedule is great, I have a daily writing goal I’m managing to hit every day and I’m aiming to get the next update out as quickly as I can. The end of this month, early next? Not sure but I’m doing my best and focusing on writing. I’m drafting Quinn’s and Tinsae’s scenes as I go, too, so the process with those will hopefully be even swifter.
Some rambling about the branch...
2024-07-05 11:13:26 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
So, I've been writing Niall's scenes and working on the smut, and the other Patreon benefits. I will give a longer progress report next week. Hopefully I've finished the smut by then.
I'm just basically popping in here to say that things are progressing steadily.
As always, thank you so much for being here!
2024-06-30 18:30:46 +0000 UTC
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Working on Niall's solo scenes, woop. The confused vs determined Hati variables are quite prominent in Niall's and Tinsae's scenes since they're not going to be as happy with the thought of Hati getting their revenge as the others. And they want to help the one who's quite confused.
He frowns. “I’m not afraid of you. I'm afraid for you. And with you."
He seems to reconsider his words. “I mean… Sometimes I...
2024-06-28 20:34:41 +0000 UTC
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Quinn is watching Marcus and Hati leave Niall's villa
The wind is cold and it’s making me shiver.
And that, in turn, makes me grimace.
There was a time when cold was my second nature, when it didn’t gnaw at my bones and pierce my flesh. Now, however, when my body is frail and dying, it bites me harder.
I wonder sometimes.
If it was all worth it.
Of course it was.
It would’ve been easier to just lie down and die. Wait for ...
2024-06-28 08:11:43 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
Sorry about missing the last week’s rambling. I wanted to post this when I finish the Tinsae smut but it got longer and I got frustrated but here we are, it's now released. Yay! Fam’s summer vacation has messed up my schedule. Thankfully, things will return to normal next week.
I will draft out different scenes this week (like Camilla's up coming smut and Niall's bath scenes) and release polls and such but I can't write as much as I usually do. It's my semi vacation...
2024-06-17 10:38:24 +0000 UTC
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Hi there!
I finished writing and fixing the Marcus update. There should be like 5-10k words worth of new text (it's an estimate, partly because the code actually works now and things show up lol) and a lot of edits. However, there's still a few coding errors popping up now that I'm playtesting so I can't probably release this today, definitely not in this state. I'm aiming to release it this weekend. Also, Tinsae smut will be out next week.
I've had a less than savory week so thi...
2024-06-07 10:54:42 +0000 UTC
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