I changed the title. I know these kind of stories are sometimes a guilty pleasure for many of us, and I wonder if people would be more likely hold a paperback in their hands if it didn't say, 'Confessions of a Feedee' on the cover? I don't know... let me know if that's a thing :)
Chapter 15
The next morning, I dragged myself out of bed way too early, already regretting every single decision that had led me to this point. My body felt heavy, slu...
2025-02-10 20:37:36 +0000 UTC
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Chapter 13
Lumen Field Event Center was alive. The place buzzed with laughter, music, and just the right amount of chaos to make it feel electric. Google had gone all out—transforming the space into a Halloween wonderland so over-the-top it could’ve been ripped straight from a Hollywood set. Thousands of employees and their families from all the campuses in the Puget Sound area filled the space, their costumes as flashy as the decor. It was a mad...
2025-02-08 03:20:35 +0000 UTC
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Chapter 12
The next morning, the crisp late-October chill wrapped around the city, the skies stretched in a moody gray blanket over the Google campus. Pulling into the parking garage, I already felt the weight of the day pressing on me. Sliding out of my Jetta wasn’t exactly a moment of grace—I hoisted myself up, paused to catch my breath, took a few quick puffs on my vape, and finally made my way to the elevators.
Let’s be real: I wasn’t strutt...
2025-02-01 22:01:47 +0000 UTC
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Chapter 10
I should’ve panicked. Maybe I should’ve seen it coming—the tight waistbands, thighs rubbing together more and more each week. But I didn’t.
The applause and tips were flat-out addictive, and pairing sugar with wine every night sent me into a dreamy haze that made Cel Monroe feel downright unstoppable.
Suddenly, it was all about more jiggle, more ass, more feasts, more luscious indulgence. And honestly? Who was I to say no? Espe...
2025-02-01 00:13:25 +0000 UTC
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The Secret Life of Cel Monroe
by Jolene Dubois (2025)
Chapter 8
The next morning, I woke up on a mission. This apartment was going to look as fabulous as I knew it could. Before I’d even finished my first iced mocha, my online cart was packed to the brim with kitchen gadgets, throw pillows, and decorative trinkets that could make Martha Stewart jealous. Groceries? Ordered those too—wine, cheesecake, the essentials—because my brand-new fridge...
2025-01-31 00:48:00 +0000 UTC
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Chapter 5
It’s not that I hate men. If anything, I adore them—find them fascinating in all their messy, complicated glory. Like I said, I usually get along better with guys than with other women. It’s just that, when they get too close, they tend to get clingy, controlling, or downright possessive, and that’s always felt like a chokehold on my freedom. Still, I like to think I’m better at drawing lines now than I was back in the day.
That Frid...
2025-01-18 01:15:50 +0000 UTC
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Here is a new story for a change of pace. I will be doing a video for Chapter 25 of The Weight of Love coming soon and I will add a few little upgrades to Chapter 26-27 as well to help tie it all together as one long story. I could possibly do Chapter 19 and 22 as well if there is a demand for it. I hope you enjoy this new story :) Thank you!
Chapter 1
I don’t think I’ll ever forget the look on Tanner’s face when I told him it was...
2025-01-17 20:51:42 +0000 UTC
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Length - 32:17
A Thanksgiving to remember...
2025-01-01 13:00:15 +0000 UTC
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I Hope everyone has a nice Thanksgiving. I am very thankful for all of you :)
It's November of 2022 and a lot has happened since Mike proposed in March. Not wanting to waste time, they were married in the summer and were able to put enough money down to purchase a one story house in Kirkland, just across the lake from the city. With covid-19 mostly in the rearview mirror, people started traveling normally again and Mike and Autumn decided to host Thanksgiving in their new home. But ...
2024-11-28 00:38:21 +0000 UTC
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A behind the scenes look into how The Weight of Love is made, for anyone curious. I use Adobe Premiere Pro as you can see from the screenshots above. The pink slides are the images, and the green slides are the audio, and the timeline moves from left to right. The audio is a combination of different sounds, most of them I purchase on I-tunes for whatever the episode needs and then stack them on top of each other and adjust the volume until I hopefully get the desired effect. :)
2024-11-22 22:11:34 +0000 UTC
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With the Canadian border opening briefly in the Fall of 2020, Mike took Autumn on a wine cruise to Victoria B.C. and a long weekend stay at the historic Empress Hotel to celebrate her 28th birthday, and here is a snapshot. Lots of room service and afternoon tea and scones :)
More videos coming soon :)
2024-11-16 18:24:29 +0000 UTC
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If you've read the book or watched this series from the beginning, you might remember that Autumn took a semester abroad in college. Here is a snapshot, from 2013, (Autumn age 20).
2024-11-03 03:36:02 +0000 UTC
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Pictures say 10000 words....
Preview of things to come :) Happy Halloween everyone! Thank you so much for being a part of this and helping me create this series!
2024-10-31 19:25:58 +0000 UTC
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This includes a never before seen weigh in from August of 2021, Autumn so stuffed with cake that she struggles to stand up long enough for Mike to get an accurate reading....
2024-10-30 18:54:08 +0000 UTC
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To help keep things organized, I am reposting the most up to date versions of all The Weight of Love videos I have so far. Hopefully this makes it easy to watch and follow along in the timeline of the story especially for new members that may not know where to start :)
Quotes:
"Are you doing the low carb thing?" - Justine
"I'm not even joking, I seriously can't get up." - Autumn
"We're dependent on each other, ma...
2024-10-30 18:50:22 +0000 UTC
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Quotes:
"She's always on a diet, and she's no fun anymore, ever since Derek broke up with her." -Sydney
"You can lay here with me but I have a feeling you won't be able to keep your hands under control. You'll end up turning me on and I won't get any beauty rest." - Autumn
Notes:
-She sleeps in, gets up to eat brunch, then takes a nap. A typical weekend morning for Autumn in 2023.
...
2024-10-30 18:47:21 +0000 UTC
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Quotes:
"How dare you come up here empty-handed. I told you I was starving." - Autumn
"Did you get some crepes or french fries or anything?" - Mike
Notes:
-The cake stuffing scene happened in late August of 2021, taking place shortly after they returned home from the grocery store in chapter 15.
-Mike is very nervous about Autumn's work trip. The whole feedee thing had cooled off a...
2024-10-30 18:40:49 +0000 UTC
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Quotes:
"I want to get, bigger." -Autumn
"Come on babe, you got to finish that bacon so I can take your plate and get you some ice cream." - Mike
Notes:
From 4th of July night in 2021 to the end of a very fattening summer for Autumn. This was an interesting period in the covid-19 timeline, people were getting vaccinated, first and second shot and then boosters, cases were going down and the...
2024-10-30 18:37:55 +0000 UTC
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Quotes:
What the hell is going on with Autumn? She got fucking huge!" - Ryan
Notes:
Katrina did an amazing job with Patty's voice, and made her personality come through really well. :)
Music:
"Grown Up Christmas List" Amy Grant (1992)
"Breath of Heaven" Amy Grant (1992)
"Paradise" Bruce Springsteen (2002)
"Power to Belie...
2024-10-30 18:35:28 +0000 UTC
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(Episode 6) Chapter 11
Quotes:
"Feed me." - Autumn
Notes:
Spent some extra time on posing Autumn eating and chewing in this episode and was happy with how it turned out, just took a lot of rendering. :)
The movie that's on after "New Scandinavian Cooking", is "Priceless", from 2006 with Audrey Tautou and Gad Elmaleh, one of Autumn's favorite movies, although she seems more interest...
2024-10-30 18:00:53 +0000 UTC
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(Episode 5) Chapter 10
Quotes:
"I liked it when you fed me." - Autumn
"I could tell." - Mike
"Why was that so hot?" - Autumn
Notes:
Just another one of those hot, late summer nights during a pandemic....
-This was a very pivotal episode and shows the spark that ignites a major shift in Autumn's mindset, and her attitude towards food and her body.<...
2024-10-30 17:52:01 +0000 UTC
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Notes:
Really enjoyed making this episode. It was fun getting Mike and Autumn out of their apartment and into the forest. This was the first episode with a conversation in a car while driving. Had a hard time with the lighting at first, especially with Sydney, and each render took hours but by the time I finished I learned how to do it better for future driving sequences. I also loved doing the Twin Peaks parody stuff and references. It was amazing how well...
2024-10-30 17:49:25 +0000 UTC
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(Episode 3) Chapter 7
Quotes:
"I really need to get my butt in gear before it gets any bigger." - Autumn
Notes:
-This is the first episode in Autumn and Mike's spacious new apartment in Seattle's Belltown neighborhood, just north of downtown. They make the move from Capitol Hill between chapters 6 and 7.
-Autumn always felt that she looked much lighter than she actually was, (her weig...
2024-10-30 17:46:35 +0000 UTC
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To help keep things organized, I am reposting the most up to date versions of all The Weight of Love videos I have so far. Hopefully this makes it easy to watch and follow along in the timeline of the story. :)
(Episode 2) Chapters 5 - 6
Notes:
-This episode cements Autumn and Mike as a serious couple, and perhaps Autumn as a bit of a foodie.
-Before Sunset homage, quick clip of Ethan Hawk and Julie Delpy. Falli...
2024-10-30 17:44:18 +0000 UTC
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To help keep things organized, I am reposting the most up to date versions of all The Weight of Love videos I have so far. Hopefully this makes it easy to watch and follow along in the timeline of the story, especially for new members that may not know where to start :)
(Episode 1) Chapters 1 - 4
Quotes:
"End is near, the plague in comin'!" - Mystical Homeless Man
"Hey you're like really hot." - Catcaller #2...
2024-10-30 17:41:19 +0000 UTC
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Autumn getting reacquainted with THC...
All images from the Chapter 11 video :)
2024-10-23 18:09:29 +0000 UTC
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Autumn and Mike, staying in for the evening....
Most days and evenings Autumn likes to order something on Doordash, but Mike is a good cook and tonight it's angel hair pasta with lots of extra virgin olive oil, Italian sausage, parmesan and ricotta cheese... December 2020)
All images from the Chapter 11 video of The Weight of Love
2024-10-10 19:59:51 +0000 UTC
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Ooof... Autumn pats her taught belly...
this shot was excluded from the chapter 16 video, but thought I'd post it here :)
very, very full...
2024-10-07 22:45:00 +0000 UTC
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Did anyone else start taking edibles during the covid years?
Highlighting a few of the images from the chapter 11 video. Autumn is getting more and more comfortable with a few extra curves....
Music:
Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Judy Garland, 1944)
Blade Runner Love Theme (Vangelis, 1982)
2024-10-04 22:12:23 +0000 UTC
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...the whole cake... :)
2024-10-03 23:51:50 +0000 UTC
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