durani

meal (reward)

eat your veggies!

speaking of veggies, im planning on making a delicious "pasticho de berenjena" (eggplant lasagna). im still not sure if im going to make it vegan but fr all i want to is to eat vegetables.

tomorrow i gotta wake up real early to arrive at school at 8am. i will bring with me that one trippy project i've been working on for weeks on end that looks like a magical orb made of cardboard. let's hope the judges like my entry.

render wip

clearly you don't own an air fryer

MORE WIPS BC IT'S NEVER ENOUGH

i'm in a constant state of "should i go lineart or painting on this" 

low res art dump

low res art dump

messy doodles that don't take longer than 15 minutes to do and help me restore my humanity

will share cuz i told you i couldn't keep you guys holding for long lol we'll get back to "regular"schedule in a week or so.

my grades? school? well we're soon closing the semester. i've really good grades and i'm keeping that scholarship safe :)

Update

I will be oficially pausing my Patreon for July. I believe I cannot draw or produce anything substancial this month for a bunch of reasons and I apologize for the lack of content for now. I need to focus on my health for I've been having certain problems lately I don't feel comfortable discussing. Plus, school is still a thing until the first week of August and I can't afford to drop my grades bellow 16, gotta hold to that scholarship I got!!

I promise I'll come back with good stuff next month though! Can't leave you guys on hold for long! Thank you again <3

Grooming!

yes, the poll result, yes.

i want to make this drawing into an acrylic stand honestly. it looks perfect for it and it'll look awesome in my mom's office. you know she's really proud of what i make.

not sure if this is going to be the last drawing of the month. it'll depend on how much time i've in the following 3 days. if not, i'll finish that one spicy beach bathroom request (you know who you are).

i think i managed to deliver all that i owe for this month. which i did not expect but i did anyways.

patron request

he's waiting patiently for his man to give him what he wants. just look at his face. so soft...

second ver with a plug, cuz that's sexy. YES THAT'S A HEART TATTOO BTW THAT'S SEXY TOO

request wip

he need some milk

two wips

two WONKY wips (no hands)

cuz homework time

i don't want to go to school next week. i don't want people staring at me. why can't they stare at my art instead.

a trio (REWARD)

yeah he's going to get his butt prolapsed

where's riven??

he's grooming me into making vi a futa. god.

im finishing this one today and making another one but without vi. it's gonna be about the lads using a fleshlight together.

not feeling like drawing the pride thing yet. the smut ideas are too fresh in my mind to ignore.

JUNE DISCLAIMER

hey! long while since i did a text post.

anyways i'll try to keep it brief as i'm in the middle of the cube situation (for those unfamiliar with what i've been posting on twitter, it's homework related. i have  to deliver 32 pvc cubic designs for tuesday and it's very tedious).

as you might know, i am studying design at a very important institute here where i live. it has been very demanding and time absorbing so i haven't been able to post as much content as i desire (so many ideas, so little time...)

the thing here is that it's only 5 weeks left until the end of the semester, which means that:

1. I will be awfully busy in during the end of this month, even more than I already am. Final projects are near and it is excruciatingly important for me to get them done in a timely manner.
2. I won't be able to post as many things, and if i do try to pump content, it will be sketches and drafts, nothing too polished.
3. At the end of the semester, I might have vacations, which means I will be able to compensate for the lack of content.

If I don't happen to provide the rewards in certain tiers during June, I will not charge you for this month. I have heard there is a way to stop the charging in this website in certain conditions and i only find it fair to do so if i don't give you what i promised. It is only fair, as it's part of my own personal policy to be responsible for these types of losses.

Regarding future rewards, I am considering working on merch for the forseeable future, if the prequisites are met. What I am saying here is that the highest merch will get the chance of claiming part of this merch as a reward by preordering it for free (it will be customizable).

That's it for now, I will continue with the cube ordeal. So far i've done 18, which is good. Gotta make 7 for today and 6 for tomorrow. Wish me luck!

a dairy

have tits.

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a diary

today was a shitty day, but i know it was because i am awesome and some people can't stand my awesomeness so they need to belittle me in order to feel better about themselves

no, fr i looked at myself in the mirror and i felt like if i was apolo's lost child

very pretty, very handsome.

Upside down (reward)

many versions! For all tastes! 

Sett's muscles look like buns. Definitely a treat. 

COWS (wip)

very stupid, very fun

wip

wip that asset

it'll have coom

wip

whatever this is gonna be im finishing it tomorrow.

god i sketch like shit

i am enough

FUCK YEAH I FINISHED IT ON TIME BEFORE JUNE STARTS AHHHH AHAHAHAH fuck me (not literally please i am monogamous)

wip of the comic poll winner

i GOT to finish this today. there is no more chance. even if it looks sketchy ahh. perfectionism hitting hard but... i need to administrate time properly.

big eyed aphelios. in a very personal comic about... personal stuff...

ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR YESTERDAY I SPERGED OUT SO BAD I SWEAR TO GOD IM SO ASHAMED oh my god my head simply won't shake it off i'm so childish

in all honesty i never act like this over anything. never. i always keep my cool even with sensible topics such as politics. this is the first time in a long time i hyperfixate and become hypersensible over a topic (settphel). last time it happened was when i got a hyperfixation on my little pony as a 9-10yo, age regression ??? i've not turned 20 yet, my brain isnt fully developed but bro... i gotta have some common sense

last time i mention this i just needed to vent it out

Pool Party Sett

SETT SMUT

SETT SMUT

im not 100% happy with the result but i gotta give myself a break, havent had it easy this week.

besides school, some unhealed trauma decided to torment me and i had to talk to my mom and the therapist to see if i can take legal actions on... uh, yeah, anyways, i'll be uploading the timelapse/speedpaint of this one in the following hours and make the drawing public either tomorrow or on sunday.

don't worry about me, i'm doing awesome. plus, my teachers think that im "groundbreaking", so my ego is above the clouds thanks to that lol

beach man wip

no shit i fought with my mom over the drawing cuz she said i was hiding stuff from her. i love my mom but now i hate her. planning on behaving like a brat for the following hours so she can feel sorry about her stupid son

screenshot wip

what??? im finally transitioning to csp?? how come?

no but fr my painterly style is going to be a little different as i get used to the program

wip

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breathe (process gif)

i don't feel hungry and i don't know why. i still try to eat but food isn't as enjoyable anymore. perhaps i'm becoming god? or mr robotto?

breathe

yeah, breathe for once lol or else you'll become hurt like phel here

he did not breathe

can this be considered a vent? i mean i really didn't feel like venting but it's expressing how tired i am so like i guess it's a vent???

sunny and aphelios, the projections of emotional tu rm o il

aphel wip

something im working on to relieve stress and fight fatigue :D

kids????

I find comfort in drawing careless children living a happy life, having silly adventures, selfless crushes and eternal optimism. Its reminiscing of how much I miss my own childhood and how badly it hurts me to have it taken away from me so quickly. 

I drew a lot, but these two are the ones I finished. There is one draft that's very very fluff and it's about child sett hugging his mom with a "don't dare to hurt my momma" look in his face. I may finish it later. Maybe it could have a painterly style instead of the simpler one. Who knows. I gotta take care of some things for now. 

transmasc impreg

hhh ehhmpreg incoming??? 

no but like I'm not into mpreg that shit is so weird but like... I don't mind experimenting... Its just that the commitment of designing a child for this couple is too much for me to handle. Not because I can't but because it scares me a little knowing the full extent of my personal bond with the ship. Idk I gotta think about that. 

Impregnation is really nice either ways. Like the concept of it is nice but having to deal with pregnancy is a turnoff.

The anatomy is utter shit but like my head doesn't really care about that right now. I'm that burned out. 

drawing cravings instead of

cummaa

perhaps I will draw the cummaa later. my brain is mush. I didn't had the motivation to finish the last wip so hey we may aswell have sett lusting for some glucose

quality content.

Late night stuff (wip)

Your boyfriend comes late from work and finds out that you fell asleep on bed seminaked. The rest of the story is something only we know

this is all consentual. moon man likes it he's just drowsy. 

vent???? storytime???? idk but it's not necessary to read the whole thing so dw

so uh, remember my last post? where i talked about making new friends? well, that didn't age well.

if you saw all the weird shit i vented about on twitter, you must be at least somewhat aware of what happened. yesterday i cried so hard i don't remember doing so in a long time. i felt so humilliated, ashamed and desesperated. my mom even had to come to my room and help me calm down while she listened to one of my classmates say lies about me in the middle of art history class.

i have asperger syndrome. my mind is very logical and literal. i tend to come off as rude for being honest, as i lack empathy for others. i too lack most social skills neurotypicals have. i don't go along well with passive agressive statements, i don't understand indirects, and i am easily overwhelmed, despite having developed the ability of bottling up things and concealing my feelings.

i had to mention this in the class, after the exposition group decided to expose me. someone later told me that they noticed my voice break multiple times and that i sounded anxious. that's what happened basically. after i had said what i had to say, i muted my mic and began screaming. legit mental breakdown. i had never done something like that before, not in front of people who are mere aquaintances. as i kept crying, i overheard the teacher talking about my condition, how aspergers tend to grow certain resistence over the years after dealing with social rejection/bullying/abuse, defending me for who i am and lowkey scolding my study group.

shit went down for me so having a lot of my followers supporting me on twitter was the most soothing thing for me. i know i did things wrong but this time i didnt feel like i was alone, unlike many times in the past. my mom spoiled me yesterday to make me feel better and helped me with some stuff. i know that she had it rough too, seeing me in such a state, but her staying strong for me was the best thing she could do. even a classmate sent me a message saying that she was hurt too by the way i was treated, cuz she has her own disorders aswell and has experienced similar things in the past. the solidarity is something i am absolutely grateful for having... 

today im feeling much better but im still ashamed of everything. gladly, my inspiration returned and i can spend my two day break from school in tranquility with my comfort ship.