Sunday Morning
Estella Rolls posts
Playing with the pump
Pink toes, pink shoes.
I think it's time for something new, right? Let me know ... A scenario? a test? new shoes?
2019-08-06 17:13:35 +0000 UTC View PostContrast
Sometimes being paralyzed I a real struggle. No.. Wait.. It always is.
It's always a struggle but sometimes I can live with it, some days I accept it.
I drag my body out of bed, shower, get dressed, make breakfast and feel tired just when getting ready for the day.
Some days, I feel good, I feel like I am doing allright... even If I have to roll everywhere in my wheelchair and people stare at me or do the opposite, and ignore me like I'm not worth anything.
Mini
Wihout noticing Estella lost some blood while she hit something without knowing. Her little toe started bleeding because the nail came off. But she had no clue because she doesn’t feel anything below her waist. Also not her legs of her feet. After a while drops of blood were on the floor and that’s when she noticed something was wrong. That also happens when being paraplegic...
2019-07-25 15:16:57 +0000 UTC View Post
Sauna P.2.
Estella and her friend go into the sauna. They take off their robes again and enter the room. Estella rolls in first and picks a spot. Her friend puts down a towel to protect her skin and Estella transfers to a high bench. Her friend rolls out Estellas' wheelchair and Estella tries to get comfortable. They are the only one in the room at that moment. Estella puts her legs up one by one and puts the towel underneath to avoid spasms from the warm wood of the bench. Her friend poures some water ...
2019-07-13 19:11:51 +0000 UTC View PostSauna P.1.
Estella grabbed a bag and put her bathrobe and slipper in it. She got picked up by a friend and her friend puts her wheelchair in the trunk of the car after she made a transfer to the carseat. They drive to a spa and park the car. They enter the spa and they check in at the desk. Estella rolls over the carpet at the entrance to the door of the spa while her friend holds both of their bags. People are walking in and out to a door but behind that door are stairs. As her friend open the door, Es...
2019-07-12 13:18:15 +0000 UTC View Post
Reality
I can’t feel my skin when I burn myself. I can’t feel the warm hand when someone lays a hand on my knee. I can’t feel if my socks are not comfortable in my shoe. I can’t move my toes even If I try every night. I can’t walk up stairs. I can’t feel the bruise on my thigh.
I can’t feel. I can’t move.
Dear Legs
My 'dead' legs, you seem so quiet, so fragile, so lifeless.
But still you are a part of me, attached to my body.
Sometimes you are cold and I need to take care of you.
Sometimes you are so warm and I feel more at ease.
I would like to move you, I would love to feel you.
But our connection is broken and so I must stay...
I still need you, I still hope one day I might control you again.
2019-05-30 11:14:50 +0000 UTC View Post
Coming very soon
I ordered two pairs of nice shoes. I will show them as soon as I receive them. Can’t wait!
2019-05-23 18:53:39 +0000 UTC View Post
