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by my side: trying to surprise you with your february playlist

i hear you before i see you, the soft shuffle of your footsteps as you sneak up behind me. a second later, your arms drape over my shoulders, warm and familiar, your chin resting on top of my head as you lean in. i know exactly what you are doing, but i don’t stop you. you press closer, eyes flicking to the screen, and before i can protest, you slip around and settle into my lap like it was always the plan. i let out a slow breath, shaking my head, but we both know i was never going...

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i don’t want to say goodbye...

i don’t know how to do this. i don’t know how to pretend this is just another goodbye, like i am not counting down every second, like i am not already feeling the weight of the space you are about to leave behind. my arms are locked around you, holding on like i can somehow keep you here, like if i just hold you tight enough, time will give up and let us have just a little longer. but it never does. it keeps pulling you away from me, no matter how much i fight it. i bury my face into your...

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superbowl sunday

hi, was thinking about it today, are you watching the Super Bowl tonight and if so, who are you rooting for?

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naughty get to know knight: episode 34

very similar to get to know knight except here we are answering nsfw questions. if you have a nsfw question you can ask it right here. this week we are trying something a little new, let me know if you like this change moving forward for future episodes of NGTKK.

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studying together... but i can’t focus on anything but you

books and notes are everywhere, stacked, open, flipped over like we are actually coming back to them. we have been at this for hours, but my brain tapped out a while ago. you are still locked in, too focused to notice, so i tell you to take a break. you barely react, just shake your head, and for a second, i think about letting it go. but i don’t. i say it again, more insistent this time, and finally, you glance up. we go back and forth, you arguing there is still so much to do, me remindin...

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tv night: bridgerton s2e2

it's only episode two but i can already tell this season is going to be a good one. if you missed last week, now is the time to catch up, because things are only getting better from here. so grab something yummy, come close, cuddle up, and let’s dive into the next episode together.

What you will need to enjoy tv night.

1) have this audio pulled up on your device of choice

2...

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protecting my princess from the storm (no sfx)

the thunder cracks sharp and sudden, ripping through the silence, and before you even process the fear curling in your chest, your body moves on instinct, seeking warmth, seeking me. you press in close, burying yourself against me, your breath warm, uneven, your fingers curling lightly against my side as if holding on will steady you. i stir at the movement, my body responding before my mind fully wakes, arms wrapping around you without hesitation, pulling you in until there’s no space left...

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protecting my princess from the storm (sfx)

the thunder cracks sharp and sudden, ripping through the silence, and before you even process the fear curling in your chest, your body moves on instinct, seeking warmth, seeking me. you press in close, burying yourself against me, your breath warm, uneven, your fingers curling lightly against my side as if holding on will steady you. i stir at the movement, my body responding before my mind fully wakes, arms wrapping around you without hesitation, pulling you in until there’s no space left...

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giving you a reason to stay the night

it’s late, and when you check the time, you hesitate, murmuring something about how you should probably head home, how you don’t have anything to sleep in. the excuse is soft, almost convincing, but the thought of you leaving doesn’t sit right with me—not when i can already imagine how perfect it would feel to wake up with you still here, wrapped in the warmth of the night we didn’t want to end. i tell you to stay, that you can borrow something, anything to keep you comfortable. but...

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Get To Know Knight: Episode 158

It's Monday so you know what that means, another installment of Get To Know Knight the show where you ask me questions and I give you answers to the best of my abilities.

If you want to ask me a question you can here.

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carrying my princess to bed

you fight sleep the way you always do, stubborn and full of excuses, but bedtime means bedtime, even for you. when i finally pick you up, you protest, sighing dramatically, but there’s no real fight in it—not when you already know how this ends. i carry you to bed, crawling in beside you as you grumble about not being tired. i offer a compromise—one episode—and the soft glow of the screen flickers in the dim room. but before long, the warmth settles in, the steady rise and fall of bre...

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february event calendar

happy february sweetheart, i'm so happy you could be with me for this magical month. the schedule is pretty normal this month with only one key exception, a nsfw will be coming out on the february 14.

youtube videos will come out Wednesday, Friday and Sunday at 3pm EST. 

cutie series will be released on Monday.

nsfws will be released on Wednesdays and Sundays.

tv night will be released Thursday the 6th, 13th & ...

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babygirl exclusive: her

the screen glows softly in front of you as the setup begins, the quiet hum of the system filling the space around you. the loading bar moves slowly, each flicker of progress sending a faint pulse of anticipation through you. you shift slightly in your seat, fingers tapping idly against your lap, eyes fixed on the words appearing on the screen. a few questions, a few clicks, the illusion of choice as the system refines itself, shaping into something meant just for you. the final confir...

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babygirl exclusive: wrapped around each other, right where you belong

we are tangled up in bed, our bodies lazy and entwined, your warmth pressed against me like you never want to let go. your head rests against my chest, your breath soft and steady, your fingers absentmindedly tracing slow patterns over my skin. i hold you close, my hand stroking through your hair, the other trailing soothing lines down your back, grounding you in the quiet afterglow of everything we just shared. you feel so small against me, utterly relaxed, your body warm and heavy, ...

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Movie Night: Pride and Prejudice (2005)

it’s time for another movie night, and tonight we’re diving into pride and prejudice. i have to say, this movie was so good. the atmosphere, the romance, the longing looks… perfection. so grab something yummy, get cozy, and cuddle up as we settle in for an evening of wit, charm, and one of the best love stories ever told.

What you will need to enjoy Movie Night.

1) have this audio pulled up on your...

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making your birthday feel a little more special

you come home after a long day, tired but finally able to breathe now that work is behind you. you didn’t want anything big, no elaborate plans, no surprises, just another day. but to me, it is not just another day, it is your day, and that matters. you step into the kitchen and see me there with something warm and homemade waiting for you. i wanted to do something, something small but meaningful, something that reminds you how special you are to me. today is not just about ce...

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episode4: keeping our secret (no sfx) (no music)

i pull up to find you stranded, your car giving up on you at the worst possible time. you were supposed to be riding with me, but we both agreed it would look too suspicious showing up together. now, none of that matters because I'm here to rescue you. you were already nervous about your brother’s birthday, already tiptoeing around the fact that you still haven’t told him about us. i hate sneaking around like this, hate pretending we are something less than what we are, but you're...

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episode4: keeping our secret (sfx) (no music)

i pull up to find you stranded, your car giving up on you at the worst possible time. you were supposed to be riding with me, but we both agreed it would look too suspicious showing up together. now, none of that matters because I'm here to rescue you. you were already nervous about your brother’s birthday, already tiptoeing around the fact that you still haven’t told him about us. i hate sneaking around like this, hate pretending we are something less than what we are, but you're...

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episode4: keeping our secret (no sfx) (music)

i pull up to find you stranded, your car giving up on you at the worst possible time. you were supposed to be riding with me, but we both agreed it would look too suspicious showing up together. now, none of that matters because I'm here to rescue you. you were already nervous about your brother’s birthday, already tiptoeing around the fact that you still haven’t told him about us. i hate sneaking around like this, hate pretending we are something less than what we are, but you're...

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episode4: keeping our secret (sfx) (music)

i pull up to find you stranded, your car giving up on you at the worst possible time. you were supposed to be riding with me, but we both agreed it would look too suspicious showing up together. now, none of that matters because I'm here to rescue you. you were already nervous about your brother’s birthday, already tiptoeing around the fact that you still haven’t told him about us. i hate sneaking around like this, hate pretending we are something less than what we are, but you're...

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i can't wait for you to come back home (no filter)

the phone rings and i hear your voice, soft and tired from the long day. you’re back at your hotel, the time difference pulling at the edges of our conversation, but i stayed awake just for this—for you. even though it’s only one more night apart, the space between us feels infinite in this moment, the bed colder and emptier without you here. these minutes are fleeting, but they’re ours, making the wait a bit more bearable.

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i can't wait for you to come back home

the phone rings and i hear your voice, soft and tired from the long day. you’re back at your hotel, the time difference pulling at the edges of our conversation, but i stayed awake just for this—for you. even though it’s only one more night apart, the space between us feels infinite in this moment, the bed colder and emptier without you here. these minutes are fleeting, but they’re ours, making the wait a bit more bearable.

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by my side: sleeping in while the kids are away

the first rays of sunlight peek through the blinds, painting the room in a soft golden glow. i feel your hand first, reaching across me, and then the warmth of your body as you nuzzle close, seeking comfort and connection. for a moment, we’re both caught in that quiet haze of morning, a stillness that feels like it belongs only to us. then it hits you—the kids are with your parents, and we don’t have to rush. no alarms, no hurried breakfasts, just the luxury of time and each oth...

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when you’re scared, i’ll always check for you

you’re already awake when a noise cuts through the quiet, low and uncertain, somewhere beyond the bedroom door. it sends your mind spiraling, filling the stillness with questions you can’t answer. you reach for me, your hand on my arm, hesitant but steady, waking me with a whisper. i can feel your nervous energy, the way it clings to the air, and without hesitation, i get up to check. as i move through the house, each step deliberate, i’m not just searching for the source of the sound b...

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episode9: can you behave?

listen to my voice, right now, it’s meant for your ears only. let me say all the things i know will slowly cause you to unravel. it’s payback— playful revenge for everything you put me through last november. you can sit there, trying to hold it together, but i see you: the way your fingers tighten, the slight flush creeping up your neck. the question lingers between us: will you behave, or will you break? either way, this is a game i know i’m winning.

This a...

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because you deserve to be taken care of

you come to me, your shoulders heavy with exhaustion, and i can see it in your eyes before you say a word—your head is aching. you've been pushing yourself so hard, forgetting to pause, forgetting to care for the body that carries you through everything. i know how hard you’ve been working and how much you’ve accomplished, but even the strongest need to rest. i guide you gently, making sure you drink water, get something to eat, and ease into a quieter moment. you don’t have to carry ...

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when friends with benefits gets complicated

you call me at two a.m., the time where decisions are raw and unfiltered, and just like every other time, i show up. we tell ourselves this is the last time, but the pull between us makes liars of us both. you’re focused, determined, your goals leaving little room for anything else, and yet, here we are, tangled in the quiet hours of the night. every touch feels fleeting, like it comes with an expiration date, but it doesn’t stop me from wishing you’d let this be something more. maybe w...

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tv night: bridgerton s2e1

the votes are in, and we’re back to watching bridgerton season two, which works out perfectly. if this didn’t win, there’s a good chance i would have ended up watching it on my own. i can’t wait to dive into this new season with you. so grab something yummy, come close, cuddle up, and let’s watch the next episode of bridgerton together.

What you will need to enjoy tv night.

1) have this audio pulled up on your device of c...

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counting the minutes til you’re home

it’s strange how the roles have reversed. usually, it’s me calling from some hotel room far away, but now it’s you traveling and i’m the one at home. the house feels so quiet without you, every corner a reminder of how much i miss you. i never realised how hard it must’ve been for you all those times i was away. now, i feel it. the ache of counting down the days and the slow crawl of time until you’re back where you belong. hearing your voice helps, but it’s not enough. i just w...

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the real reason you called me in (sfx)

you’re in the dressing room, the faint rustle of fabric the only sound as i lean against the doorframe, eyes idly wandering to the sign that reads one person per dressing room. a small smirk tugs at the corner of my mouth as i remember the last time we were out shopping like this and how that rule didn’t stop you. then i hear your voice, calling for me, a mix of playfulness and sincerity. maybe you really do need my opinion, or maybe you’re just testing to see if i’ll...

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