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She went off-grid, found the void, and kissed it

should i tell and say i went from hell and back?

almost like the calmness in my whole being is from all the chaos and still i'm embracing all of it, all the ups and down, wheel of life... nothing else but to experience, to live a life of your wildest dream and desire.

to kiss the void, like kissing the silence that is so loud
howl in your bones and being
tremble in your veins

good lord,
am i doing alright? ("is doing alright" : the exact lyric out from the Sul...

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PRAYER WITHOUT PROMPT

GOD forgive my audacity, i'm gonna write this while i'm in a wax room 🍯

yes you heard me… the audacity of this moment, bare open from the waist down: sticky, sugary, little chilly from the drips-cold-towel-wipe while it's also hot-sugar-wax…
what’s the words to describe this bare-able-pain of waxing your legs?
and we haven't even mentioned the b r a z i l l i a n . . . . w a x 🫦

so, God, where do we start, huh? give me a prompt... LOL
i ...

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Behind the Mirage

to all odds,
what are the chance that i'd writing this... now, this very moment, after all the gap years in between? and within just six weeks, she's surging ~

the Muses has entered the chat, and dammit she's not leaving.

always i will say and believe: trust the process.
the divine timing of our lives, in all areas, specially our creation β€” mirrors birth.
it takes incubation, darkness, surrender

specially to us women, yes we do sometim...

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Heaven's Whispers

got this pulled on the side of the road by the appearance of this big orange sun after a week of sweet storm. it was just a little crazy-wet morning... needed to move through commute and surge, and yet still: blessings.

rain always reminds me how fortunate i am to have a roof over my head and a warm blanket.
if you wish, list goes on ~ another warm cup of tea, your hand holding it. dangerously easy to stay inside, tap the app, order your caffeine, delivered right to your door... (wha...

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FATAMORGANA, act iii : Return of the Mirage

2.20 pm, where do i started about this one, hmmmmm, literally ahahah, few sips of coffee and

L F G G G G G !!!

from the warm shadowy light in my 3x5 meters room back on 2022 with the red candle wax, of course to make it mystic lol hahah, that is taking me way back to Jaisalmer desert back on 2019, i remember it was such a stormy night and quite literally i said: oh gods, seriously? tonight? hahahahaha, in such a feral trip my self with few strangers as a guide, into the...

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Divine Discipline: bridging the bridge

it's 6am call, 6.20 exactly as i write this line, a few sips of coffee in, and i feel collapsed between time and space. half-awake, half-dreaming, still replaying in the expansion i felt last night. the expansion of becoming bigger vessel, to be able to hold more of life force that is opening and coming to and through you, or it's really the cancer moon, the deep water that is nurturing home: home within. so i let it, i let it all in, fell into the land of dream.

an act to nurture the d...

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CRY to the SKY

i honestly don't know where to start to write under this one, but Cry to the Sky has been in my note and echoing still from inside for days. it began, three days ago, when i literally cried like a dog, so deeply with no reason to it at all, and what's the "important" reason to cry anyway?
isn't just a language of our soul?
yea, it is also my moon is coming β€” brb entering woman time.
but what is it underneath all that? beyond the moon, what is it?<...

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How the Portal Opened: A Radical Prayer

the mess... THE SACRED MESS of my living altar is where it's all began:
from a "God's Jar" as devotional practice of creative living,
to a fresh bouquet of offering,
a cosmic deck to channel the portal to the stars.
right at this moment β€” the blossom and the star that is aligning.
the star card has been showing up the whole week before,
and then again just yesterday β€”
and every time it falls, i fall again with it, like a wish being fulfill...

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The Portal has Opened

if you’re reading this, you crossed through β€” following more than a link, and you let it.

WELCOME, TO THE UNDERCURRENT

this space was born and intentionally created for those who feel more β€” for those unafraid of depth and divine chaos. nothing here is over-polished. it's the sacred mess. the process. the pauses. the portals.

in this moment, there's nothing to catch up on, more is coming in divine timing.

until then, exhale.

you are already...

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