From the Ashes of Old Wounds…

To save anyone from having to sift through the drivel of my soul prolapsing, I’m going to put the most important information at the top of this post: I am done with comics, and I will only be making textless image sets from now on. Any dialogue or written thing I do will be purely hobby-based or for shits and giggles.

Now onto why…

You guys know I’ve been going through a lot lately, and this post is like a swansong for my general oversharing old self. The death of my father has ripped open old wounds but sealed up a lot too. The latent desperation to impress this man I never met has seemingly died with him, and with that has gone a lot of my drama-queenliness. – It’s really quite a startling shift inside me, it’s like empathizing for your own pain dying, and yes, I can’t seem to articulate myself without sounding pretentious!

This isn’t me writing off all my old comics as attention-seeking or as products of illness, but I can’t help but let go the urge to do things how I used to. I feel so much more focussed and purposeful in my movements and thoughts – still not perfect, nor will I ever be – but the depth of understanding as to why I am the way I am, and why I do the things I do is all slotting into place. This man was a hole inside me that has now died. I can’t seek the approval of a dead man, and thankfully, because I never knew him, I can’t miss him. So all I’m left with is the death of a hole.

Under my real name, I’ve vlogged since 2006, often creating comedy videos and whatnot. I made my last “me” video last week, announcing that I was no longer going to share myself personally – and just focus on making the comedy vids, and writing shit that makes me laugh. It’s like an outer-body experience looking back at how I’ve expressed myself over the years. I get why, but it’s still surreal.

This is not a bad thing, I promise you. The content is going to get better and better. I know that because I’M going to enjoy it. A story can be told better with actions alone, and that gives something for everyone all around the world to enjoy, not just the English speaking world.

I know a lot of you have enjoyed my writing, but it’s is tiresome. It is tiresome, time consuming, and, sad to say; it’s not profitable. And a very small percentage of folks even read it! And I can make them say a WHOLE lot more if they’re not talking. Characters like Nano can still be bright-eyed and bushy tailed, Vizor can still by stern but heartfelt, ST can still be loud and verbose, and so on.

Explanation isn’t king. In fact, the concept of “explanation” has torn modern storytelling to rivets. Some things are better unexplained, because sometimes you just have to shrug and roll with it. Let’s get back to the battle jams, it’s the way it’s supposed to be.

Bear with my, the vault will be up soon, so you’ll be able to see how it works. It’s good stuff. It’ll be like countless jam sessions going on at the same time, but every time I add to them, the images will contain an “ending”. So even if a set is complete, I can add to it. Even if it’s incomplete, it can be viewed as if it’s complete. You’ll get it.

- Doc