Zhan is a part of me...

Hello everyone, today I am writing this not because of good news. 

Many of you have noticed that a lot of time has passed since the release, but there is still no announcement, and I have a reason for this. This post will be on behalf of Arthur, me.

Today, my pet, Zhan, left me, he was a beautiful cat, a Balinese breed, whom I loved with all my heart. Of course, he lived a happy and long life, 17 happy years... My God, this is more than half of my life... He was gifted to me when I was very young... I was 14 years old, I think you can imagine how dear he was to me, literally everything I achieved was with my cat beside me, he always supported me in difficult moments, of course, like all cats, he was also that asshole whom I loved with all my heart, no matter what. We grew up together and became more than just an owner and a pet, we were family, he was part of our family. 

His health problems started relatively recently, about a year ago. Zhan usually weighed 8 kg, yes, yes, hence his nickname, “fatty”. But believe me, he was massive, although now reviewing the photos, he could’ve lost couple of kilos, hehe. Since the beginning of this year, he began to lose his appetite, initially very slightly, well, we thought, different things happen. But just a month later, more issues became very noticeable. I immediately took him to the veterinary clinic and of course showed him to the doctor, they did an analysis, the doctor recommended a certain diet, and we followed the advice. It was all during the time when hell began in Ukraine... It was difficult to get the right food, but we adhered to the diet, and another month passed, but he still didn’t finish his food, the one the vet recommended, and he was already noticeably becoming thinner... I took him back to another clinic, for a full analysis again, and of course we told them about the new symptoms. The doctors there checked his heart and found a lot of problems and not even just with the heart. I do not recall the exact diagnosis, so I will explain it in my own words, but if for some reason someone is interested, I can find the documents. The next problem was with his lungs... Which also began to fail, more precisely, fluid formed in the walls of his lungs, because of which the cat could not fully breathe... That was one and a half or two months before the current date... Doctors prescribed treatment for him, prescribed medications, and so we started following their orders. Literally a week later we saw the result. The cat really got better, his appetite reappeared, at times he even became more active, and of course the symptoms of "shortness of breath" disappeared. As soon as we were happy, everything started to collapse abruptly... After a day, he just started leaving EXACTLY half of his meals uneaten. And that was a very bad sign... but we did not lose hope and continued to feed him and adhere to the doctor's prescription. Of course, consulting them at the very same time. They scheduled another examination for the next week. During this time, he lost a lot of weight... At the time of admission, he already weighed 5.1 kg (I remind you, he weighed 8kg previously). It was a sudden loss, and I also told the doctor that he would often "gnash his teeth". And personally, I thought he had a problem with them, of course I thought so... But taking him to the dentist (a veterinary dentist, of course), he examined Zhan, and said that there was a small stone there, but because of this he should not be refusing to eat. And they advised to continue therapy with the appointment earlier, because the problem with the heart and lungs has not gone away. We've already switched to weekly checkups... literally two weeks ago, he stopped eating at all, just a little bit of wet food and that's it, he didn't touch dry food at all. Of course, he began to lose weight literally before our very eyes. In a week he lost 1.5kg... He weighed 3.6 kg then...

the doctors adjusted the weekly therapy, and of course they said that if the situation worsens, then come earlier then appointed...

This was his last week, the poor thing did not look like himself, he constantly laid still like a loaf of bread, paws underneath himself and his head lowered down, he had seizures... he didn't eat at all... and I knew perfectly well where it was all going... But I couldn't accept that he was fading away, yes, he had lived a decent life, but I can't just watch my beloved creature fade away. I asked for an appointment the very next morning because I saw how rapidly everything was happening. Last night, I didn't really sleep... we spent this time together, I couldn't sleep, I was constantly near him, stroking him, sheltering him, being next to him, and as if we understood each other that this was our last night, something inside me screamed about it... but I didn't want to admit it, it goes against my worldview, I encouraged him and urged him to hold on, and said that everything would be fine, you just need to wait until morning, and then we'll go to the doctor, the doctors advised to pump him with the right vitamins and feed him through a dropper, the prognosis was good, and we so we decided to do it. 

Morning came, his condition was more or less the same, but this time he started talking to me, his tone was different from what it was before, and the activity of his conversation was different. I understand that we needed to hurry, because he hasn't eaten for a whole week, he needs to eat, he was exhausted. We went to the doctor, he looked at him again, took his temperature, looked at him, weighed him, he lost another 500g... After that, they put him in a hospital and told me to pick him up in the evening, a cardiologist was supposed to come in the afternoon and look at his heart and lungs at the same time. I left hoping to pick up my pet in the evening... I left at 10 in the morning...

At two PM there was a call to my phone, and I understood what happened... I didn't want to pick up the phone, but I had to anyway... I was informed that my cat Zhan has died... at that moment I didn't know what to do at all... I was confused, yes I knew it was his time, but I didn't want to accept it... This is not the first time I have been informed about the death of people close to me, but one cannot be prepared for this... Then they told me the details that everything was fine at first, they warmed him up (he had a low body temperature), after which they gave him vitamins through an IV... after that, they took tests, and a cardiologist came, they decided to check his heart, the doctor noticed that things had gotten worse with his heart in a week, and at that moment, when they wanted to examine the other side, he had a seizure... A seizure that occurs when a cat dies... immediately they started to resuscitate him, and at first everything was fine, he could not breathe on his own, they inserted a tube into him, but even so he still continued to fade, they injected him with something to make his heart beat, but even with the drug, the heart began to fade... fade away... and... he was gone. 

You can't tell how hard it was on my soul, I just exploded, the cat I grew up with left us, yes he's old, yes I knew it would happen, but I just exploded. The emotions still do not leave me, I did not know how to tell my loved ones this news, they all adored him, and loved him not just as a pet... This news has weighed down a mountain of grief not only on my shoulders, our whole family is going through the grief of loss, because Zhan is not just our cat, Zhan is our beloved and adored cat...

After the doctors decided to check the lungs and pumped out some fluid, they said that there was some kind of red formation inside them, that is, his passive behavior in recent weeks was most likely due to the fact that he lacked oxygen... Some mysteries slowly began to dissolve. Now it becomes clear why he was lying ONLY in the \"bun\" position... apparently it was painful for him to lie down on one side or the other...

I am very sorry that I was not there in the last minutes of his life... But I had to try... I just couldn't accept that he was about to be gone... I hoped that he recovered and continued to live for some time, receiving our love and affection... But fate had its own plans for him.

Of course, he lived a long and wonderful life among people who loved him, and I repeat, I knew that nothing could be done about it and age would not go away, but to watch our beloved creatures fade away... it always hurts... Zhan, my fatty, will forever remain in our hearts.

That’s the sad and tragic story that happened to me... I would be lying if I said that this will not affect the release of updates, but I will try to do everything in my power to get back to normal as soon as possible.

By the way, Zhan always supported me in the most difficult moments of my life and motivated me to do and give my best to my favorite thing when I was feeling bad, purring... and of course he bit me when I was idle. He was there when the idea to start creating games was born! At the very beginning of the origin of the Shadow Portal team... Then there were four of us, Me, the screenwriter, the artist and of course Zhan! We were all a team and Zhan always fulfilled his duties to maintain morale in the team...

RIP, my favorite fatty..