210411 Tsukurikake
Added 2021-04-11 10:25:34 +0000 UTCAnyway, Tsukurikake means in the “middle of production”. I feel this is my life after all. Our life is incomplete ever. And it is completed by death. What will we do until then? I wanted to meet my character and share it. It is said that ancient people found the characters of the gods in nature and interacted with them as shamans. Did they set an example in life? People change independently of our wishes, die, and life is short. Friends, siblings, spouses, and parents all have a life that is essentially unrelated to me. We need eat life for life, but all of life is separated. By the time we finally learn to steer our lives, we are already at the dawn of old age. My life is so lonely in mad seas that I wanted my character, as a storyteller, and as a “walking with me" being. It doesn't feel like it's been achieved yet.
I feel that only the deaths of my relatives and friends awaken me. But people's daily lives have nothing to do with me. If only this short-term freshness of losing them awakens my consciousness, what is the meaning of time I spent with my family? Eventually, I feel that all the past will turn into dreams and illusions for me. but we lived hard and serious, working to love to each other. I feel everything take from my inside of past slowly like long hungry.
About the art - It was drawn last year when my uncle died in a distress in a snowy mountain. Ehael has flowers in black color. That is my mood.
