August 2024 work summary

This post was meant to be a patron only post. To tell how much I appreciate your support. There is a reason I say this, which I explain at the end of the post. Before that let me tell you why August was a great month.

When my re-started the weekly updates, I believed things to go better. That's how I have started working on PP sketches, Winx club sketches, and Original Project sketches.

Winx club images are only in outlined stage. So I will show them once I completed them. These following characters are for the Original game in making by a friend. I am only making characters for his game, he is satisfied so far.

Then I proceed to PP drawing sketches. They were coming ok and everything went according to plan, until a certain day.
I don't want to be dramatic, but I got a severe depression (Now I am ok) But it was pretty bad, and I began to lose focus on work. The drawings starts to get worse and worse, so I had to stop drawing PP stuff. I was so irritated for only one fact. The depression I got on August is nothing compared to what I had in past. That really annoyed me, I felt so weak not to overcome a small depression.

When depression is on one side, I got the guilt of not working when people are sending me money (You guys supporting me). I knew I had to do something to get out of it and it wasn't easy. I remembered that people say in internet that masturbation relieve stress. WRONG! Not True. I tried it, and it is worthless. Then only I remembered that we shouldn't believe everything we read in internet/media. Realized it was time to do something other than trying to escape reality.

It was hard to even start the PC, so I took a pencil and paper and starts to draw stuff. They weren't good. To not punish me more, I then took a book from shelf and starts to read it. It's a book from last century talks about courageousness of my people. It went well until I realized that the author twisted some history to make 'his' people to look like good people. Yeah! Got so angry at that dead author and felt weak again to not able to do something. [ 1. The main cause of depression is we are powerless against a situation that is not in our control]. But this book changed something in me. It reminded me the courageousness and righteousness that my people held. And again as powerless I am, I began to at least do some sword (It's forbidden to have real sword here, so I use wooden sword) practice to feel good about ancient times. BEST DECISION EVER!!! I am not good at swordsmanship, but the practices itself gave me life. After showered, prayed to god, and ate food, I began to feel something. I believe it was confidence. I started PC to draw, but I wanted to start slow. So I did this

You can find the uncensored version in the drive link in the bottom of the post.

The but was just a beginning. I started to do lot of shaded stuff, which is more like painting than drawing. The opposite side of Game drawings I do for XIX, PP, and other games.
I like painting so I thought why not.

 Yeah! The faces I drew started to come out horrible. One thing in art that how horrible I draw them, I see them only as a challenge and another stepping stone to move forward. So I drew more

I wanted to see what is the problem in my drawing. Found that I draw bodies well, but faces are out of my skill set, so far. I started watching tutorials and one artist explained the importance of values (Thanks Thomas for buying me those tutorials) 

Tried value studies and got less interested, so as a change of mind, went to draw nak-d girls and practice anatomy
 (There were lot of practices. I am only posting that look at least a bit interesting. You can see some extra drawings in drive link in far bottom of the post)

Never knew how much important the skull practice is until this moment. Then I gained some more confidence and started drawing woman gestures with skull heads.

After that last female painting, I decided to draw a celebrity face which can give more understanding in painting. And I choose
 Annie Edison from a show called 'Community'. After couple of attempts, I got somewhat decent output. It boosted my confidence a bit more. I planned to develop my skill further by hardcore practice the next day.
The electricity was cut off the whole day. I bummed at first but decided to spend that time on learn more about drawing. Took pencil and paper and started reading a drawing book and drew along. The learning weren't that much great from morning to afternoon, but around 3 PM I started to learn some key points in values. Thanks to another tutorial I downloaded from a pirate site some time ago. (Not proud of pirating tutorials from other artists, but I shamelessly say I have not much choices now. But I sure will pay them in 2025. This is a promise and you all are witnesses).
Then at night electricity came on and I immediately wanted to try the values.
 I remembered sunlight hitting a weight plate at evening time, so I tried that first. Then I took an image and draw that bending thing in plant and tried that, then that date fruit. I kind of understood what was going on, so I tried that on an actress face. You see them on left. While it comes better than my previous actress painting, something felt off. Later I figured out that the reference file is so advanced to my current skillset.

 I tohught it's better to approach on part at a time. I went for a nose with hard edged brush. Not bad. Went for an eye. Loved it. refined the hard edged nose into a softer one. Gained confidence. Sketched another celebrity. Female Cillian Murphy. I must admit that I was drunk in confidence so made a weird output. I didn't even analyze the mistakes I done with her, but I moved to next painting.

 I posted her actual image so you can compare it better. I did the sketch. Not bad.
Then I painted this awful thing in a really weird style. It slapped my consciousness and told me to learn to draw the eyes better. I never great with eyes. Only way to get better at something is to keep practicing it until we get better. I decided to practice eyes.
 Showing you only the decent ones.
 My skills have improved. Now they are neither not good nor not bad. I was little relieved. Yet I wanted more. I came up with this great idea by myself. Painting eyes and then paint the eyelids over them.
 I began to understand eyes, but still not good. Because now I know what kind of many mistakes I am doing. Then I did this.

 I was so happy with the result. I learned something with values and drawing faces, importantly reference pictures. They has to be good for us to make them look better (Note it Leroy).
 Of course I immediately go after a nak-d girl to draw bo-bs. This girl is hot, smiling, and following me in twitter, so why not.
 This is also her when she was taking some protein. I did NSFW practice for many reasons, which you will get to understand in future.
Then I decided to couple more portrait paintings.
 I like some of her songs and when I searched internet, her face came first. So I drew Beyonce. The result was ok, so I wanted to few more.
 Taylor Swift and Gal Gadot came lot better together.
That is when a friend from discord shared this awesome nearly 3 hour free tutorial about drawing Backgrounds and learn value. (Thanks meeks).

 This was incredible.

 I wanted to fill a whole new set based on what I learned so far. But after done with the middle one, I remembered that I am running out of time to draw PP drawings. And I realized I am no longer sulking in depression. It hasn't fully gone, but it has to control over my actions either. So I began to work on PP drawings. Due to less time, I woke up at 4 AM and slept at 12 PM(night). At the beginning was hard, but it had to be done. And there was one last challenge from August. The Facial expressions. As I painted many faces to learn how faces work, I didn't practice any of them in anime-cartoon styles. I didn't expect that to happen. So I had to practice simultaneously while drawing for PP.

They weren't perfect either. But they helped me to complete PP drawings successfully.
I cannot show you PP drawings now, since they are still being released. (Check out Leroy's patreon page to download the latest PP game)

Drive Link to download the above drawings and extras in HD: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/15rZMgJsoIUr7vUmn5FXdOIqbPYev6_41?usp=sharing

Guess I have told you all important stuff happened in August as full summary. I am happy about this post too. In this month I learned a great deal about many things. But the 3 most important things I learned
1. The only way to beat depression is to take action.
2. Even when the odds are against you, just keep on working towards you goal and keep moving forward.
3. Your well being is your own responsibility.

That's what I am going to do in upcoming ages. And I thank you for supporting me in kinds of weird times I am going through. I am so grateful and I want to thank each of you who support me and help me to chase my dreams.
and I hope this post in some way will be helpful to you too.

Next week I will announce the XIX release date. And I want you to take real good care of yourself until then,

Towards Greatness,
M U P L U R