007: anxiety, food things, and a bit of advice
Added 2019-04-03 02:39:44 +0000 UTChere's the march podcast!! sorry it's a bit late — i hope y'all enjoy it!! i ramble on about anxiety, tell you a bit about my eating habits i recently started going to therapy for, and also try to give you some advice.
love you lots!
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I loved this . And you not making a video because you are “thin” (and lovely) is absolutely ok. I mean, yes, you still haven’t figured it out, but this is great real emotions. My youngest son is 15 years old and he was out of the three boys definitely OK maybe the largest but he’s gotten taller and had thinned out so to speak and is so handsome ( yes mom says so lol but he is. ) My older two boys are really thin I guess ? Cody is not “ fat “ by any means, and actually taller now at 15 than the 17 and 19 year old. He is not done growing yet ! It’s hard to clothes all these kiddos. But I try and really focus on what he is comfortable wearing , give him positive reassurance, but Oh my ! We have Alexias in the house for reminders and such. I don’t think he realized his “reminders” to himself came through on my phone. I was taken back when I saw things last week like “ you did great today..” “remember diet” “ school lunch is bad for you “ “ juice no food” Literally , my last two weeks of work flow has sucked. I honestly had no idea how to approach this. I joined a gym and liked that we were working out , but whoa , I have failed as a mom, I hurt for him, didn’t want to do much of anything , my own depression went out of control. He can not survive in juice ! He’s 15 and 5’9”! I know it’s not about me , but when you have anxiety and depression issues of your own, I’m not quite sure how to explain it but I think the anxiety leads into this feeling that becomes depression because you’re so down. I feel like the divorce I’m going through after living on my own with my kids for three years which will now be final May 20th, is that to blame ? Is the fact I choose to leave an alcoholic husband who would not get help my fault? Did I make the right choice? He lives about 5 miles away and I think he’s probably seen the boys since Christmas twice. I am A bit rambling this morning sorry, I have a acrylic pour painting class to teach at noon, but my point is ( yes I’m all over the place thus podcast really hit home ) that The fact that you’ve addressed that you have this skewed body image and whether you’re really heavy or really thin it is a problem and I do worry that in this age where social media is so a part of their lives that they are comparing themselves to people who aren’t the best role models and don’t speak out? So if someone like you speaks out the matter what they look like that you have this issue and you’re going through this and how it makes you feel I think is wonderful and can help other people. And that you are getting therapy there’s a lot of people who can’t see themselves getting the therapy or that there’s a stigma involved so seen someone that is young in their mid20s admitting it and I just think that this could be great for my son when I get home today I’m going to play your podcast while we sit and draw together. I often listen to podcasts while doing so , so he won’t think anything if it. I am in a group on Facebook for planners, and the other day a girl posted that she was lonely and felt ugly , etc ... she stated that the community there was all she felt she had...there were over 700 comments , this is real, people are struggling with all sorts of issues, and brining the out of the dark is wonderful ! Thank you ! I am going to use this as a way to discuss his upcoming appointment with a wonderful counselor who will help him. He knows he’s going, but I really want this to be a safe space where he talks first, so I haven’t really known how to show him or have him see that it’s ok, and he’s not alone. Send out some good vibes for Cody. He’s my kid who asked for money this weekend to buy sheets and a pillow. He then went to a friends who actually had none, just a mattress, he came home with photos of the room he had transformed. His heart is huge and he gives so much love but knowing he’s not loving himself , scares the hell out of me. Hope this makes sense as I had to voice text , time to get ready to go do some work. Tell your story. There is power in honesty. You are real, authentic, and brilliant 💫💫
Stephanie Baxter
2019-04-07 13:04:21 +0000 UTCThank you so much for sharing this 🧡 It was so special to hear about your struggles - I don't think you realise how inspirational you are! I constantly give myself pressure to do so well at school, so much so that sometimes it feels so much easier to just not try. Everytime I listen to a podcast of yours or watch a video I get such a burst of energy and positivity! Thanks for helping me on my way to consistent productivity 😊
Shelly
2019-04-03 22:27:51 +0000 UTCIt’s so interesting to me to hear your take on body issues and dealing with mental health that involves your relationship with food. From my perspective, I see a girl who looks healthy, has a loving relationship, who is working towards their career goals, already had a successful creative business and in my eyes, the ideal body type. I am at the other end of the spectrum, I have struggled my whole life with not eating too much and at my heaviest weight I topped 146kgs (320ish pounds). I’ve had to work so hard so for so many years to lose the weight but every day I am ruled by my eating habits, good choices or bad with the food that I’m eating. I would still be considered overweight now at a size 14 but I have to keep remembering that I’m not a size 26 anymore and I have come so far. But like you, it is a daily struggle with my mental health trying to balance eating to fuel my body and not over eating so that I don’t gain too much weight! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your habits. I have to agree, YouTube is probably not the place for you to speak about it, I think a lot of people would be really supportive but then there’s always “those” people who will bring you down and that can’t be good for your progress xx happy to listen anytime you’re having a bad day or just want to bounce some ideas off someone. Best, Steph x
Steph Wylie
2019-04-03 09:27:28 +0000 UTC
