bisexuality, yippee! (and irl Lia lore) 🩷💜💙

Happy celebrate bisexuality day!! It’s genuinely so freaking cool that I have this platform where people accept me for ME and one part of that is my sexuality. It may seem like a simple thing to most people, but I spent years feeling like I couldn’t fully be myself because I had to hide this aspect of my identity.

I’ve known I was bi for over 10 years now, but grew up in a conservative household where that wasn’t accepted. I was outed by my school principal when I was 14. They got word somehow that I had come out to a few close friends, and called my mom. I was in the car with her going home from school. My parents and I had a very uncomfortable talk. It was… detrimental in a way that wasn’t as severe as it could have been, but the effects still continued into my adulthood.

Already I had planned to not tell my parents; hide it from them for as long as possible. As a teen I thought ahead— maybe when I went to college, I could date a woman and it wouldn’t get back to them. But the idea of not telling them, or even doing so on my own terms, was taken from me by an adult who thought they knew better.

My parents loved me, and were good in a lot of ways, but they thought I was going through a phase or that my attraction wasn’t real. Even in recent years as an adult I haven’t made a breakthrough on this with my mom, so we just don’t talk about it. I’m sure there’s some people out there that can relate to this— family is complex.

Recently, I had the pleasure of going to a close friend’s wedding, and reconnected with another good friend who now lives several states away and was back in town for the wedding. (This is the same girl I hooked up with a few years back, and yes she was involved in the threesome!!) The flirty tension was there, she’s hot, I’m hot… and I realized I could invite her to my place to spend the night. This is someone I’ve known for years as a friend, and now as a casual partner too— I was so, so happy that I could do that now without fear of being “caught” like I was doing something wrong. The last time we slept together she had to sneak out of the house lol! But we were able to wake up snuggled together and it was the best thing ever 🥺

All that to say, it can get better. I never doubted myself or felt guilt; I just knew what was true and that it wasn’t a phase. My friends love and accept me for who I am (even a few who took a while to truly understand, just had to grow out of their own biases and upbringing). I’m not scared to casually mention my sexuality when meeting new people. Making audios and being able to explore my sexuality in various ways has been incredibly freeing. Hearing from listeners who feel supported and cared for because of my work makes me so, so happy (and yes sometimes those comments make me tear up lol). And as a mom? I’m doing my best to make sure my kid never feels the same way I did, and knows I will always support them no matter what.

Now, with this little community spawned from a random hobby I decided to delve into, I have the support I needed years ago as someone confident in myself, but feeling like I couldn’t really be myself because it was too much ❤️

(also yes I’m posting this at 2 am, I really am not helping the chaotic bisexual stereotype huh? I also have short blueish purple hair rn, so… anyway, sleep well! I will after this, thank you for listening to me yap!)