We all had it.
...had?
I see no value in being opaque about this anymore--especially in the context of publishing online videos of me doing ballet in a body that might, to some, not look like it "belongs" in that movement. It's because I don't exercise 6 hours a day--and because I let myself eat now. Most of the time. It's amazing how long this particular demon follows you around, and reading about this new research--well, it explains a lot. I think it will also bring some solace to my family. It was never their fault.
Tremendously grateful to these researchers.