OCBoon Update - Pausing Patreon for December

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Due to a health issue that has progressed over the past two months, I’m pausing the Patreon so supporters won’t be charged for the month of December. This is a temporary pause since I won’t be able to do any work related to OCBoon while on rest, but the film is still on.

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I’ve been super reluctant to make mention of this because I had no clue what was going on, but I’ve been dealing with a health issue for the worst part of two months that has now progressed to the point of making it difficult to complete daily tasks. I must stress that this is mainly due to personal/ life matters, not so much the work I do for OCBoon.

Two months ago I suffered what was diagnosed as an anxiety/panic attack. Having never had one of those before I thought I was having a heart attack, or worse. Although there were several stressful things going on in my life, I’ve always been good at managing my stress levels. The initial attack seemed to be the opening of Pandora’s Box. In the days and weeks that followed, I found myself feeling anxious when doing even the simplest of tasks. It progressed to the point that several days ago on a drive to an appointment I felt extremely claustrophobic in my car and had to pull over. The feeling of being even 15 minutes from home, surrounded by strangers in passing cars that wouldn’t know what to do, if they even cared to, if I were to collapse got my hearth thumping again. It was then I had to admit something was wrong.

After two ER visits in the past 3 weeks, both just dismissing it as anxiety with no underlying health issue. I did a major audit of my life. As it turns out, an over the counter medication I was taking, plus my daily caffeine intake and sleep deprivation served as a sort of plasma ray that tore through my stress management field. Not to mention that each one of them can trigger anxiety on their own.

I’ve been unable to get any work done since my last comment on releasing the film this month (I refuse to take Xanax) . It’s frustrating as all hell being so close to releasing it, but I currently can’t sit at the computer for more than 15 minutes without the faintest feeling of anxiety kicking in (Not kidding when I say this post has taken me two days to put together). So I’ve taken an extended leave of absence from my 9-5 and will be pausing the Patreon while I inundate my system with fluids to flush out the culprits as well as taking some time to reset my brain.

It goes without saying I feel gutted about this. The support and kind interactions I’ve received from you all has been a godsend in helping fend off a lot of the life stress that has inevitable broken me down, and for that, you are all the last people I want to disappoint.

Although it won’t contain audio, I’ll be releasing the first two scenes of the film in the coming days to tide you all over while I take some time off. I’ll end by stressing that my overall mental health is very much intact, so I don’t want to concern any of you about that. OCBoon has always been a bit therapeutic for me. So I’m looking forward to resuming work on the film as soon as possible.

Thank you all in advance for your understanding, Again, I’m truly sorry about this.