Brief explanation.

So I guess I will do the TL/DR first since it is the most applicable.  Had some issues, update is about 90% so should be out in next day or two.  Also I am still 100% committed to doing 12 updates this year, so should be coming a little more often until I get back on track.  That's all most of you need, so the rest is going to be a bit of a long winded explanation so no need to read further.

Most of you know I recently went through a break up. A good, much needed break up, but a break up none the less.  Well part of this is due to my obsessive privacy issues, but last year my kid moved out for college as well. I got custody when they were 5, and kinda made my life all about them until I felt they were ready for me to start seeing people.  Needless to say a more than a decade long break from the dating pool kinda threw a wrench in my love life, so I was maybe a bit too accepting of faults with my now ex because it was just nice to have someone intimate again.

Anyway, this marked the first time I lived actually alone in almost 20 years.  At first I was thrilled, I  barely had to wear pants haha.  But somehow, still not even sure how, I just started to get less and less energetic.  I eventually even did something very stupid and got in a spot of trouble, then people near me found out what I did and I felt even worse.  I just kinda of slowly stopped everything. I quit showering, didn't really eat much, couldn't stay asleep for more than a couple of hours.  It was my first brush with anything like this, so I honestly thought I was 'fine' even while I skipped my shower for the 20th day in a row and watched videos about shit I have no interest in.  Last night marked the first time in a few weeks I actually slept 8 hours rather than small increments throughout the day.  Woke up feeling refreshed, sun is shining and it has warmed up enough I actually got my walk in as well.  I have to be vigilant of course, now that I know there is a precipice there, but I am going to try to be more active on discord and post weekly updates here just to keep me connected.  Those updates may be one or two sentences just saying all is well, but I think it will help me stay focused.  I understand a bunch of folks didn't get discord invite, so I will post an invite here.  I truly appreciate those of you who had enough faith to stick around, I was basically mute for an entire month so I have my work cut out to make it up to everyone.  Also I will be answering all the messages soon, I want to get the update out first.

https://discord.gg/yDby5HEy9v