Sorry

This is hard to say. 

Since last year I've felt that things aren't right.

in terms of commissions and patreon work. I have felt that I have disappointed several people, and the number is increasing day by day. 

That is painful for me, because I don't like to disappoint people; I know how it feels and I understand that support and trust that I was given is very important. In spite of all that, I have failed on several occasions and the consequences of my mistakes are having lost support and trust from several people. After analyzing it, I think I have discovered the reason or one of the main reasons that this happened.

I've made a mistake in trying to be something I'm not. So looking back at my journey here, I can see why things are wrong. I'm not an artist. I don't have the knowledge that many artists have; I don't even know the basics. I'm just someone who copies. I try to copy things that are well done, hoping that the result will be close to what I'm copying. I lack knowledge of anatomy, perspective, composition, light and shadow, color, etc...

That is the reason why I need many references for my works; because what I am going to do is to copy or get as close as possible to the examples.

I'm not an artist, I'm not a professional... I was trying to appear to be something else, pushing myself to improve day by day. But that didn't work out, since it was more pressure each time. Moving forward without knowing the basics or having the tools to know what to do or where to go. the pressure, and every day the frustration of not being able to move forward was more. Leading me to make mistakes; all in consequence of not knowing who was really and to think that my capabilities were more.

I accepted many types of commissions and jobs, because I believed that was what I should do, seeing the example of other people; without to take into consideration that these people were on a totally different level than me. I was too arrogant to even compare my work with that of others. 

I reached the limit of my ability a long time ago, and I tried to stay there, and even tried to go a little further each time. However, that brought consequences to my health, both physical and mental. The wear and tear was accumulating and the pressure to maintain my image, have brought Consequences. And that's why I've decided not to try anymore.

From now on, I won't try to go any further, I'm tired of trying, because I'll never make it. 

I will stop doing things that are in my skill limit (it's like running at maximum speed all the time, it's very exhausting). 

I'll also limit my list of characters that I can do, and there have been many times 

where the character I have to draw doesn't like me.

In conclusion, I plan to do only what I like or what I can do. Since I'm not a professional, but a person that I try to be more than what it really was.

If you want to withdraw your support, I understand completely.