Pofi

Full moon, things got bad… and I want to go home

Added 2021-12-17 12:49:27 +0000 UTC

I feel like I’m letting go of paradise because im not willing to let go of jealousy 🤧

I want to go home but ….

Maybe it was all my fault.

And it’s not like my life is solved by going back to America. Life is hard regardless.

I know I haven’t been caring for my mental health, I know I have been too much of an emotional wreck, I know I’ve messed up and picked fights and argued and raised my voice and been violent.

So in a way I feel like I should just stop, make this relationship work, fix my wrongs.

Or maybe it’s best that we separate and I go back home. We already don’t get along in certain aspects, and sometimes I feel like we’re really not compatible.

It was nice here but maybe I’m not ready for marriage and motherhood yet, and I’m too scared to go through all of that alone with my family so far away.

But another side of me thinks, Fuck it, it’s time to grow up and face life, stop running away. Make things right, act right, be strong😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

I’m so broke rn seriously paying my school and credit card debts with no income 😬😬

😪send prayers , may my life line up correctly