i walk
to the waterfall
and stop
*
to admire the rocks
and roots and sky
and here
*
blush-tinted expanse
and verdure fertility
i lay on a bed of stones
*
and listen to the mother
*
and gaze at the emptiness
and fullness inside
i ask the teacher
*
about the gaze
and he says stop
return to the breath
*
all the textures
breathing
a tapestry
*
i come to the falls
and the water is very clear
running, fresh, cold
*
wanting to submerge
but people all around
i don’t have a covering
*
so i walk slowly along the rocks
pressing this body against them
and going to my knees in the waters
*
murmuring thanks
again and again
*
i love the waters
coolness gently
the baptism
*
on the way back
there is a woman
who i do not recognize as God
*
but she recognizes
and calls me beautiful in arabic
and i apologize to the Father
*
for forgetting
*
who am i?