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43000 FEET & SNOOZE-TIME (Short Films) (SFW)

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43000 FEET 

SNOOZE TIME 


Hey! 

Well, I just wanna introduce this post by saying that I guess short films are a bit like the Instapoems of the media world. Sometimes they really resonate with you, but often you swipe past them with a yawn… 😂 But the good thing is, they don’t take up two hours of your life, a lot of them give you at least something small to think about, and they can be just as memorable as a feature film when you find one you really love.

These two films were my first attempts at writing for screen while I was a student, so please don’t go in expecting too much…😅

Snooze Time was directed by Ivan Barge who I went on to work with again on my later and most awarded film. It features Lisa Harrow - an actress from the Royal Shakespeare Company has worked in film and theatre alongside Anthony Hopkins, Judi Dench and Patrick Stewart. She’s also ex-wife of Jurassic Park’s Sam Neill and the loveliest human ever. I was so flattered when she told me, “you’re way too young to be writing such mature stuff” 😊

43000 Feet was produced by the NZ Film Commission and made by Special Problems (Campbell Hooper & Joel Kefali) who have directed music vids for Coldplay, Lorde, Tame Impala and others. It played at festivals around the world, screened on AMC and Sky’s Rialto Channel, was nominated for the Jury Award at Tribeca Film Festival and the Gold Hugo at Chicago International Film Festival, and won Best Short at Michael Moore’s Traverse City Festival.

Don’t let me oversell them though - they’re very experimental pieces! Both films explore our perceptions of time and both are a bit more like narrative poems than conventional stories. If you’ve heard the audios Mile High Club or Still Mindf*king Each Other or AMA Hookup or you might notice some shared preoccupations with statistics and perception. Except that the audios are waaaay hotter...😆

In September, I hope to share my two latest short films, Madam Black and Blue Smoke which are more conventional character-based films, and which are my strongest and most awarded work.

Oh, if you happen to be in Indianapolis, my latest short, Blue Smoke is screening at Oscar-Qualifying festival Indy Shorts (Heartland Film Festival) tomorrow night, Sat 23rd July. 

Thanks for all of your love, sexiness and support, and I hope you find something in these to enjoy!

Love,

Matthew 🧔🏻💜 xx

43000 FEET & SNOOZE-TIME (Short Films) (SFW)

Comments

I'm pretty late to comment here, I know! But I must say I've been surprised with so many things about you today, Matt. I've been catched off guard while knowing about all your other sides. Your students are lucky to have you as a Professor, as I can see you're really passionate about the things you do. I may say now that I admire you in every single way you're showing, there's nothing I wouldn't change. Lucky is the one who meets you in person and haves you beside, this person is graced with a remarkable sight and a beautiful soul. And the most desirable one, also. ;) Since poetry makes such a presence in your life, I dedicate "Aparição Amorosa" ("Apparition of Love") by Carlos Drummond de Andrade to you. :) Don't need to read, but if you someday feel inspired to know deeper about a point of view a person has of you, there's a good example. 😉

Jessica @jesslossa

I've watched the films a couple of times now and every time I know less and less what to say to express how I really feel about them. It's not like I'm gonna be giving them a proper critique bc not like ik how to or even want to since it's more than that but it's also not the simple "oh yeah, totally get it. So relatable" type of situation. At first I really loved them and thought how similar it is from how I think or all the convos I've had with friends. But I also almost felt kinda numb, like not being able to feel everything I'm supposed to feel bc I needed time to take it in. This sounds like such a bs comment, I'm sorry. Then it hit me and I really felt it all. I cried a lot. The kind where you can't talk and just need to be held. Most I can say is that it felt extremely close to me, and that if those were anybody else's words it wouldn't have this deep impact on me. It's far more than just being relatable for me. The acting and directing are phenomenal but the writing touches me in a very special and unique way. In a painful way, but not agonizing. In a way that it's painful bc it's important. I wasn't crying bc I was sad (I was also very much entertained and it also made me smile in certain times). It's bizarre seeing your name on the screen like that. It makes my heart swell and I feel so proud of you. It honestly feels like a miracle that I have the chance to know any part of you, and I'm beyond happy that I do. Love from me.

Katja

Pardon my lateness with this comment. I have lots of feels but not the energy to communicate them well right now. Matt, what a monumental reveal Friday. What a process to get here. How has it been this week for you? Do you continue to feel more free, more integrated and whole? Have you had a vulnerability hangover? Asking as someone who's had to do some "coming out" in her life. I feel like the Belles, Beaux, and MOC might be some of the luckiest people out there, getting a glimpse of all facets of your life. We're in the sweet spot here in the middle: https://ibb.co/N7SLCZ7 We don't see ALL of it - who could but you? - but certainly the best bits. 😘 Thank you for your vulnerability and trust. I love your films! How much input do you as the writer have into the storyboarding and visual aspects? Kisses back! Xxxxx

Titania

Bunny Problem 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 Fine I’ll get my Masters Goddamn it 🤬🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Can we still submit pics of a bell tower to the turret? I finally found one in the tiny town I live by

Dawn

Love it! If I did that to mine, I'd get fired lol

Dawn

Bunny Facts https://ibb.co/myKLQ0L Work Computer 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Both movies were amazing. Thank you for sharing more of yourself. 🥰🥰🥰

Amanda B Carlson

Bunny Facts My backup plan is to be a Fairy Godmother. Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo y’all. 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

After doing chores and errands all day, I’m tired and about to take my makeup off. I decide to mess around on my camera because I like this eyeshadow look. My fiancé calls it the “strawberry lemonade”. I find out there’s a black and white filter. Fiancé looks at it and yells “gaddamn, why are you so sexy!?!? It’s not fair!” I love them. 🥹☺️🥹☺️ https://ibb.co/nPM7snJ https://ibb.co/HpNbkp8

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

Highly recommend Dolce, the camp out pattern, and a rocking chair. Have a towel handy.

Ann

Bunny Thought Thinking about the founding fathers, I would totally marry Ben Franklin. I think is would work because he’s a Capricorn and I’m a Cancer. 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Matt, I would give my left ovary to do this duet with you!!! https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZcqaolcjUI No pressure, just an open invitation! 🎶🎼🎵🎤🎸😁🤘

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

Bunny Book Club https://ibb.co/Y2dbggP Dan Ariely is genius. 📚🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

You’ve created something really special here, Matt. I wonder if people far in the the future might seek to understand us by excavating these little online communities. I wonder if we’ll have digital archaeologists sifting through the mountains of junk 1s and 0s looking for signs of real human connection. If they do, I hope they find this place and you. ♥️

Emily Dawn

Katie you're so adorable, love the kiss on the cheek then running away giggling....you realize before you could run Matthew would capture that lovely waist of yours, pin you to the wall giving you a kiss that will make your head spin😉😘

Linda

I am a mess of swoon and awe at what I would consider the formality of the introspective slide as you alluded to when introducing your work… Thoughtful, perceptive, introspective, clever, sensitive, honest… The manifestation of film from idea to screen is a process I have never been able to fully grasp but have always been bewildered by… so many details and moving pieces and perspectives and ways and intentions that provide meaning (or even not). It’s one of those headaches where my brain wants to learn but it just can’t process it all lol I’m so glad you shared. It felt like the you I have grown to know just on a different level in a slightly different format. I saw the trailer for Madam Black and I freaking died. 😂🤭 So I hope I can find a way to watch it. As for your face photos, Matt H… Hi 🤗🥰🤭😘 *kiss on the cheek, running away* Hehehehehehehe PS. SO fun to watch credits and go “HEY I KNOW HIM.” 💜 PPS I hope the screening went well yesterday and you have gotten a lot of great feedback 💜💜💜

Katie

You put it so much more poetically than I did. Yes. All of this! 🥰

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

He looks like if Richard Burton and The Library Congress had a love child and was raised by a 80’s college radio vinyl collection. 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Matthew, I think a lot of us Belles felt more tummy flutters about seeing your face than you might have felt about showing it to us. We imagined your hands cascading over our bodies before we knew the curves of your palms, and the dexterity of your fingertips. We imagined kissing your lips before we were familiar with the way they get blushy when you dart your tongue past them. We imagined how Moby would feel under our soft hands, between the pages of our sexy parts, and resting on our tongues…all before you graced us with more intimate visuals of him. We’ve visualized your face pressed against our foreheads, buried in the crooks of our necks, and lingering in other places I’m not sure are Patreon approved to mention haha. Now that we know the full softness of your eyes, the contours of your cheeks and jaw that would be heavenly to nuzzle into, and the way your facial hair frames your striking yet gentle features, it’s like a veil has been lifted, and we appreciate you more in a way we didn’t think would have been possible. Now that I know what you look like, it’s going to make me extra blushy and giddy listening to your audios; being able to visualize your face as it truly is adds another layer of intimacy to sexy world that…I wasn’t prepared to experience in the near future. Thank you for this. 💜 💋

Frances

Ugh, am I the only one who keeps going back to look at his face? His nose is more petite and adorable than I thought it would be and it’s so boopable, and his sweet, pretty eyes, and I love his face! I just wanna sit on it. 😍

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

Bunny’s Food for the Soul New Haul https://ibb.co/72SLsft 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Welcome to the comment section! 🌸

Titania

Cannot share in Turret because it is not mine but a website to a beautiful water tower here in Chicago that you may like, this is about 10 minutes from our home https://www.enjoyillinois.com search historic water tower. Please come visit us in Chicago😘🤗

Linda

Sigh, Matthew love, I just watched both of your short films.... first, I really want to know how you're feeling after writing two incredible short films and seeing them come alive? Second, I am so honored and proud to know of your existence, your incredible way with words that come from your soul with love, compassion, passion building characters with depth who are the life force of your writings.....extraordinary work Dr. Harris....Bravo😘 Dr.Linda also enjoyed your work, the girls are away, so my love on his way home after a very rough ER double, we cuddled, ate ice cream from the container watching your short films, Snooze especially hit home with us...we never have enough time, we need more time. Love you sweet man, congratulations on your extraordinary, beautiful endeavor😘😘😘😘

Linda

First, we fell in Love with your voice. Second, we fell in love with your mind. Third, we fell in love with your sense of humor. Forth, we fell in love with your talent. Fifth, we fell in love with Moby. Did we ever expect to get out alive?

Dawn

I keep going back to the tub photo. Your eyes...your smile... Yep...I'm officially a goner 🥰

Dawn

In college I managed to seduce my English professor. It was amazing. Just for the pure hunt and catch of it all. One night of awesome. But weeks of build up.

Raegan Howard

He does have an absolutely delicious facial area. Ya know that feeling when you've worked with someone and we've all only seen each other's eyes and then the mask comes down for a second and you have that moment ."oh that's what your face looks like" This morning looking through the turret

Raegan Howard

Bunny Thought He’s delightful in the facial area; no notes. 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

https://ibb.co/8zPnXhY

Double LL

I was linkless last month for no discernible reason... Hope this helps. https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1AozXk0aXt2hL74q0n6jNsejPYh3WI-Hg?usp=sharing

EmporiumOfSmoke&Mirrors

Matthew, how beautiful of you to share with us so openly. So many of the Belles, and yourself as well, are such word smiths. I fumble over words, not good on the page. So I'm not sure how express what I'm thinking. Turns out your SO much more than the voice that guides me to sleep and amazing orgasms. How wonderful you can live between 2 world's. A dirty secret. And I adore that feeling. I truly just want to cook for you, and play with your hair and draw letters on your back for you to guess. Thank you for being a real person, and sticking with us when the easier choice would of been to shut the whole operation down.

Raegan Howard

Hello Matthew and Hello to all you beautiful Belles! I’ve been enjoying this community from the sidelines for a while now, but this post feels like that magic moment in double dutch where I can slide on in. I love how open and supportive this community is and hope to participate a little more in the future.

KaitVF

Wow Matthew thanks for sharing more about yourself and the films we’re absolutely amazing!! You’re just a man of many talents 💜💜. I can’t wait to see more of you in the future…hmmm that sounded a bit….you know what take that however you want. 😏😁🤣

Deanna Tyson

Good morning <3 The courage of the stories in these comments gave me the courage to add a profile picture of myself. Hand on heart, you are some amazing souls and I'm rooting for every single one of you!

Lisa xx

I know I’ve been so quiet for a while now but I’ve been keeping up with all the uploads 🥰 I loved getting to read this heartfelt message from you, it’s been so exciting to be a part of this sensual, sexual world and space you’ve made for everyone here ❤️ And even though I imaging that one day it could become impossible to reply to every comment you get, I know that you’re thinking of all of us as we’re thinking of you and wanting the best in your life, I’m so glad you’re part of mine and ours 😊💕☀️

Julianne

Okay, Snooze Time really got me! I’m in a tender spot because I have aging parents who don’t have many years left, and I also have children who are still too young to even understand how long just 5 minutes is because to them, everything is right now. And then there’s me, trying to find a balance between being ‘on time’ for everything and also living in the moment.

Angela

Ahh!! This is awesome! Kinda annoyed that you’re even cooler than we already thought, but love that you’ve let yourself explore such a range of creative outlets and that we’re privy to your big projects now! It’s a honor to meet ya, MH 😌✌️ Also…I adopted a black kitten yesterday (!!!), so I’m gonna be calling him madam black all weekend 🤣 🐈‍⬛ ☠️ It’ll be like his drag name 😭😭😭😭🤣

Sarah Ruth

I don't know if this question will get answered but....how do you juggle both lives for all these months? I still don't tell my close friends about F@#$ Club because The Tower is my little Oasis. How do you balance both worlds? For me ....like I tell my Maintenance guy....I have a million boxes in multiple categories that I store things in my brain. I'm surprised I haven't lost my marbles with all the things I have to maintain in my mind.😅😅😅

Pisces Queen

OMG it is killing me that I can’t get this link! I want to see you and learn more about you too. At least I can read all of these comments and glean a little bit about you. I am not at all surprised that you are a Professor and your voice is amazing. Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

DeltaDawn

Ah!! I wanna send big hugs to everyone I didn’t get time to reply to as well!!! Obviously this is a bit of a special post to me so thank you for these lovely messages. I will be reading them over (and over)!!! 🫂💜😌🫂💜🥰🫂💜🫂🥹💜🫂😉💜🫂😛💜🫂😜

Matthew Tower

I'm glad you're surrounded by people who are supportive of your *coughs* daringly sexy *cough* craft. And I honestly didn't know you're involved in making films and such, now THAT is really awesome! Excited for what you have [hopefully will share to us too] this August! 💕✨

Jenny Cee

It is too late and too hot for me to do justice to your post Sir. Really it all boils down to the fact that I hope that finding this balance of openness, honesty and privacy has taken a weight off your heart and brought you peace. If I hadn't specifically told them not to credit me (because I am paranoid), I would have two film credits. Crew on "Der Fall Max Mustermann" Translation on "Der Farbe" So now you know something more about me too.

EmporiumOfSmoke&Mirrors

Oh wow lots of stuff to digest here, but I'm here for it all! First of all, I loved snooze time and I can't wait to get to your other films. It is so cool that you create films and that you're a professor!! I'm a high school science teacher so props 👏👏 to our profession! And omg if you were my professor, I would definitely comment on your voice on ratemyprofessor.com lollll I'm so glad to know a little more about you and your fab life!!

sandy

😂Ahh! 🫂xx

Matthew Tower

Hey Patti - I loved Ozeki’s ‘My year of meats’ (not that it put me off for more than a couple of weeks) 🤦🏻‍♂️. And as much as I’d like to talk books and writing, I’m still very much hoping we can still be naughty friends!! How about I’ll start off the sexy talk by imagining I’ve invited you to come to the screening of my new film? I’m thinking of sitting back row, it will be in an artsy theatre that sells good wine… we’re getting snuggled up, and not watching a single second of the film, because we can’t help hands roaming… 😉 😘xx

Matthew Tower

Can I brush your hair? Asking for myself.

Katie

I am late to the party tonight because I had to travel for my daughter’s soccer tournament and now I have tried twice now to get the link and it’s not working for me. Most likely I am doing something wrong. I am exhausted and also a technology idiot.

DeltaDawn

I'm up far far too late tonight, time to snuggle up in bed❤️ goodnight lovelies!

Lisa xx

... did someone say Oxford comma? 🥵

Lisa xx

alright this is my third and last time commenting separately (i swear) but since we're on the topic of matt's presence in the literature field, i need to know how many fellow oxford comma lovers there are in this community and i need to know now! 😂💜

aleigh -`♡´-

I’m always fascinated to know more about the creator of the content I enjoy. Having been involved in my local art world for a number of years I’m always curious about what makes a person, an artist, tick. So Im very curious to see these short films. Also, much love from one educator to another. 💜 I worked at the university I went to grad school for a bit before starting the job I have now. I do miss being in a traditional academic setting sometimes, but I get to work directly with the general public now and for me it’s so rewarding.

Fox

After seeing your gorgeous face and a little more into who you truly are, I can officially say... "Hello Daddy" 😏😘

Dawn

Nice to know you a little bit more Matthew Harris-Tower. You know, I'm really proud of you and your accomplishments and proud that your hard work is being recognized. It took me to my heart what you wrote in your short introduction 😉Thank you for sharing all that you share with all of us. I am aware of the trust you have in me and I will cherish this relationship we have. I am talking about your whole person, YOU, Matthew, with your faults and your qualities. Your presence is important in my life. I think I told you that in my first comment with the Belles. It wasn't about sex, it was about emotions and healing. Yes, and you were the instigator. I still feel the full effects of that today. No, but can you imagine? No, you can't. Your absence is just as palpable in the air. So please put it in your head once and for all, your presence is important to me, you are important to me! Is that clear? I'm getting carried away here!😂 I won't be able to write all the things I could write to you, because my words don't reflect one iota of how much you mean to me. Can we make a promise to each other? I'm not going to change with you, no way, because I don't want you to change with me either. We have already crossed the threshold of our intimacy, my gratitude takes shape in our caresses, our writings. I'm not going to jeopardize that at all, so don't worry. I want to caress and wrap myself in every word that passes from your brain to your mouth. Promise me to stay the same because I am still your Vella. Understood ? Good. Love you 💜 Vella the student: I have a problem with Professor Matthew. Before I talk to the faculty advisor about it, I'm writing about it in my journal to try to clear my head. He's a good teacher, that's true. He knows his stuff. I still can't get good grades in his class, and yet I know I'm competent. Yes, all the girls talk about it, he is handsome. It's hard to concentrate with him, but I thought I was past that stage. Obviously I haven't. I had found a solution. I decided to record him so I could listen to him at home without having him in front of me. Yes, I tried to change my seat in class, ridiculous, I know. Anyway, I started listening to the recordings at home. Result? It's even worse. When I listen to it, I end up saying things that don't make sense, I lose my words and also my head. On top of that, when I open my eyes, I realize that I am naked in my bed, on the living room couch, in the kitchen, in the bathroom in a drowsy state. There is nothing to do, I end up falling asleep. I think I'll talk to him about it before I go to the school advisor to see what he thinks. He probably has a solution for me! 😏💜

San

Yay! I can’t say I hate you too, but I did feel the urge to spank! 🥰 😘Yes, Lisa Harrow was amazing! I’ve been so lucky to work with her - twice! The turret question in short: my files are always open to you and yours are always open to me. The reason I feel I can’t have the Belles files open all the time is not just the amount of time that I was putting into uploading everyday (which did get too much - and it works better if everyone just shares certain things right into the comments). But the actual trigger for the change was because when I went through the doxxing thing it happened to other creators too who had their Google and Reddit accounts hacked. (Hence me over protecting Reddit too). So to cut a long story short, I’m a little concerned about the folders being available to the public all month, which might make them more open to hacking and misuse (I’ve also been reading stories about peoples photos and identities being used by marketing bots etc). I’m happy to take the risk with the syltuff I’ve put up, I don’t expect everyone else to, given what has been going on. And I don’t want anyone to be put off sending something with that in the back of their mind. If anyone’s unhappy with my reasoning, they can just tell me and I’ll take their stuff out. Also I did realise that the window last time of just 24 hours was too short through want to catch up with each other and share pictures. That’s why I have left it open for the whole weekend this time! As for the tower photos though, I’m not gonna share those with everyone because that will because that will ruin the surprise seeing them in the book! Hope that makes sense. Again - if you want me to take stuff down - just let me know. 💜xx

Matthew Tower

This might sound… idk, and I don’t think I care. I have lived a life with very few examples to be admired. Regardless of whatever which way you turn my brain and my body. Im just grateful to know you, Matt. I read the whole thing you posted up there…. (I was at the the traverse city film festival in 2010 (?) doing a horrible internship with an event planner but I got free tickets to the Conan doc. -random side note- and if you ever hear of Michael Moore talk about where he grew up… … yeah I live very close to that right now. 😬🤭)…. and you have just opened my mind and my heart to so much new in so many different ways. I can relate to the freedom from having a strong Internet boundary. I’m glad you have found that silver lining and I hope that you will still get all of the professional recognition you deserve. I haven’t gone to the turret yet cause I’m taking all this in slowly, but I just want you to know I have thought about this since you brought it up a few weeks ago, and MT & MH are the same to me. & I hope that’s cool. 💜 This is a big deal and I am just really grateful to have been around long enough to see this and you evolve as it has. You inspire me, comfort me, and at intimidated the shit out of me 🤭 (home owner at 22 🖕😂) … not to forget all the sexy things too. Not that I ever could or will. Anyway, Matt A-Z, thanks for being you. 😘😘😘😘

Katie

Heeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyy Matthew! It feels like Christmas 🎄 for me today😂🤩! I am absolutely blown away by the amazing 2 pieces of short films you've worked on! I really loved them. I've always loved short films created by our Canadian artist across the country and I feel very privileged to know an NZ film writer and Uni Prof 😊! I am just going to speak frankly here but I am genuinely proud of you! It takes guts man to do what you do. You are very inspiring, uniquely talented and just auspiciously well rounded human! Since my city (well both of my cities Hamilton and Toronto) are considered part of Hollywood North, I hope that Madam Black makes to the Toronto Film Festival 🎥! That would be amazing! I'm lucky enough to know some people in Film, Television and Theater Industry here in Toronto. Wishing you and your team big success in your goal for Oscar! Can I say "Snooze Time" struck a cord in me especially at the end. I teared up seeing the husband in bed and the wife looking back on the years like how did it go so quickly. It just made me be grateful for every moment of my days that I get to be here on this blue rock. I have to run...I have to prepare for my Twin Humans who will be 15 tomorrow 😭! My Leo Twinnos will be 15....next year is Sweet 16! I also did a Holidate video so I will be working on that tonight (editing yay....🤭😒🙄😝😅🤣) But yeah....nice meeting you Mr. Harris! You're an awesome human being and a Sexy MF 😏🥰🤣! Hot Summer kisses and hugs from the extremely Hot 🔥North in 🇨🇦 ~ PQ 🐠👑~ P.S. Can you guess where I was today? https://linksharing.samsungcloud.com/i0cgBuYb4NVB

Pisces Queen

I was expecting something bad, but that one is so offensively bad it's good

Lisa xx

https://ibb.co/5YhzBGw I'm sorry, but I had to...

Dawn

I can only appreciate how Matthew felt keeping himself hidden.

Ann

Hi my name is Ann as most of you know. I found Matthew when he was just an audio baby and I was a listener baby so it worked out pretty good. I hid behind my anonymity where I felt safe. I originally had just the letter A and certainly not a picture of myself as an icon. That anonymity allowed be to begin to interact and to speak freely. But as I grew and learned I realized that I felt that I was being false. For me and I am only speaking for me I felt like when I was speaking about my experiences to do so hiding behind a facade was wrong. How could I speak to you about my experiences and my growth and about my learning but not be me. Again my journey not everyone's. It has been over a year and I have become kind of a bizarre expert with s3x toys. I mean who would have thought. Also I have more to learn and if anyone asks, teach. I am a teacher. I can't help it. But I am also a masochist and I seem to gain great gross horrid awful pleasure out of pushing myself outside my comfort zone. I existed for years hiding. I hid behind pharmaceuticals (legal). I hid behind my children. I hid behind my studies. I hid behind books in general. I lived a million lives by reading but not my own. Over time hiding behind my anonymity felt wrong. So I added my whole name and for a short week I think I even had a picture up. Honestly I hated seeing my picture in the icon so I had to ditch it. Ugh. Anyway, pushing myself I recorded something for the audio that had Belles and MOC's speaking I don't remember the name. OMG that was so hard to do. Sexy talk for the other just didn't go well but the point is I tried. I even had Matthew put an audio of me having an orgasm in the turret. HOLY CRAP. Boundaries pushed. Mission accomplished. Well maybe not quite. Today I sent in a picture to Matthew to put in the NSFW Belles folder. Is it sexy? Hahahahahahaha hell no but I did it. I am good now. I have other areas in my life I need to push myself and it is scary. What if I look like an idiot? What if I am an idiot? But seriously what could be scarier than posting a picture of your nipple in an online folder for anyone to see? Or an audio of an orgasm that was almost interrupted by a cat. I wasn't bold enough to attach my name to either but they are there and if asked I will point them out because I can. I am strong. I am not fearless but I a not a chicken either. I can do it. I decided a year ago that I was going to learn and I was going to be authentic and I was going to LIVE not hide. And I have. Sincerely, Authentic Ann This is my journey.

Ann

And p.s your vulnerability, as in both dear Matthew's and the rest of you Belle's, is deeply inspiring and I'm so grateful for being part of this community ❤️ take care of each other and yourselves!

Lisa xx

Ha. I won a Best Short Film award for Madam Black at the same ceremony he won Best Feature for Hunt For the Wilderpeople. His speech which he thought was hilarious took the piss of the other filmmakers in his category which lost to him - like ‘haha - I won, mine was best’. It was a “never meet your heroes” moment for me. 😭

Matthew Tower

And one more question; Does it count if I tell you here that you can respond to anything I send you in the mail? I may or may not have just now realized I forgot to say so in my first letter 🤣🤣

Maggie Ren

I feel this warrants a longer comment than my usual - read on your own risk ❤️ Firstly, I have dabbled in sexy work - and have had sexual online "relationships". The strain of consistently managing yourself and what's out there in the ether is sometimes all-consuming, and one of the major reasons I no longer share intimate photos of myself. It became a full time job documenting my identifying traits, birthmarks and tattoos to censor everything. It wasn't that I was ashamed, but having humble author-aspirations, risking scrutiny and backslash, I have prioritized my potential future. But I miss sharing nice sexy pictures of myself, I do. What I'm trying to say, is that I relate to the elating feeling of not having your existence anchored in digital footprints. Now to creative shenanigans! The courage, I might even say balls, to share something so intimate as a creative product - I admire that greatly! I have unfortunately never truly understood short films or short stories, they make me feel heavy but without the longer film's resolution - in a way. They often leave me with haunting feelings and no way to deal with them 😅 Anyway, I'm rambling, and hope I'm not overbearing for anyone. Like always, so so much love to all of you💞 and a huge thank you to Matt Lisa x

Lisa xx

Hey Daphne! That’s soo lovely! Thank you!! Yes - I use unsplash a lot, but I think it would maybe make the book more personal and poignant for me if I could get photos from you all, you know? It’s the little connections to you that make it. Speaking of which, thanks for the Patreon seminar recommendation. I saw it a little too late 😭but it’s still much appreciated to know you thought of me! 🥰To many more sexy and sleepy nights! As a great man said, we’re innocent when we dream! xx

Matthew Tower

also i have to comment again because I JUST SAW YOU'RE ALSO A SAGITTARIUS!! wonderful news to know my internet boyfriend and i are twin flamin' HARD 😂

aleigh -`♡´-

kelly that last paragraph is hilarious 😂 besides that, completely agree with all you said!! he's the whole package (or...has the whole package?😝). sending love to you, darling <3

aleigh -`♡´-

My Dearest most beautiful (inside and out) and talented Matthew, You do know as a Lit PhD that nunnery sometimes means Whore house, right? 😂😂 I couldn’t be any prouder to know you. How I was so lucky to end up in your orbit I’ll never know. The power of creativity and love and introspection and self awareness you have and inspire in others blows me away. Thank you for being you and sharing. Knowing you has made me feel like one of the most beautiful women on the planet and I can never express my gratitude except to show you how you make me feel about myself except via photos which you know is something you started for me. Thank you. https://ibb.co/zJG0kTK https://ibb.co/9GQK3jr https://ibb.co/BnSMzHM https://ibb.co/rdtH54H https://ibb.co/vHbpYFH Not gonna lie Matthew, I always have mixed feelings when you say you love us in audios or the comments, but right this minute I feel nothing but sheer unadulterated friendly love and admiration for you and what you do. I still wanna totally do F$&@ club with you though! 😂😂 Forever yours in ways I can’t explain nor do I want to, LLL 💋💋 PS The films, your work?!? I have no words to express how much i enjoyed those. They are so quintessentially … you! Thought provoking and smart and clever and beautiful to look at, well done… Thank you for everything you shared, but especially this. ☺️

Double LL

Ok, now that I’ve absorbed a bunch of that info, I just have to say dayum you’re accomplished! I knew you were, but all your achievements, awards, projects, and you teach? Are all your students hot for teacher, or just most of them? And you make sexy audios? Hats off to you, good sir. I’m in awe of you with a twinge of jealousy. 😅 And don’t you dare play the self-deprecating humor saying it’s not all that. Self-deprecating humor is my thing! 😝 Seriously though, being a part of this community and all you’ve built has had such a positive impact on me and many of us here. I feel honored that I get to be here while all these new doors are opening in this space. A part of me wants to sorta kinda dirty talk while you show us your world. “Yeah, you open up to us… tell me about your hopes, dreams, and aspirations, you dirty boy. Give me every intellectual and emotional quirk you have, you big, hot manslut.” 😂 All the kisses and snuggles, you beautiful human! 🤗❤️😚❤️🤗❤️😚❤️🤗❤️😚

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

Dear Matthew, First and foremost, I want to say thank you. I don't know what this reveal feels like for you -- you don't come across as the nervous wreck I would be -- but for me this would take a profound act of faith. I know your openness is a testament to the community you have worked to build here and the general awesomeness of the Belles, Beaus, and MOC. I know the trust you're displaying is far less singular than collective, but I nevertheless want to say that I feel personally honored, especially after someone violated that trust. 😶 To be fully seen and accepted as ourselves is the most fundamental of human needs, as basic as breathing, and I hope that by opening up you feel recognized and appreciated. I feel like I live a lot of my life shoving parts of myself into boxes and taking out others as the occasion and the audience warrant it. This place has definitely open up my sexual box (let's all take the time to snicker here), but I feel far from integrated. If you have been able to achieve that, even in a small way, I'm genuinely happy for you. On a personal note, while I recognize that this is NOT possible and that this reveal was NOT an invitation to impinge on your real life, learning more about you makes me wish we could be friends. I totally want to see your syllabus and talk about teaching writing and have a Tower University class on the structure of time and narrative so that I can finally finish Ruth Ozeki's Tale for the Time Being and start Ted Chiang's Stories of Your Life. (Actually, I'm not sure if this is actually what friends do. Maybe I finally want to have the torrid affair with a college professor my mother predicted I would have...) Also, since we all know I'm one of the Belles who is not at all certain what this will do to her ability to say sexy things to you (realistically, never my forte), perhaps you should say something flirty? Just, you know, to test the waters? 😉🌊 PS: Loved both the short films, trying to track down Madam Black so I can see it, too! I'll save my reactions to those for a one-way pen pal letter so you don't have to wade through an even longer response. 😂

Patti

(also, one serious note: what you do is hugeeee. it acts as a comfort to so many. whether it be nsfw or sfw, the work you put out has a huge impact and is something to be super proud of. you help people in their sexuality, self discovery, and you even just stand in as a comfort overall. in a world where there is so much hurt, and so many people are suffering in silence, what you do means a lot to a lot of people.)

aleigh -`♡´-

i am beyond relieved to know that all sexy comments are welcome, as that'd be REALLY unfortunate for me to fantasize about naughty professor you in silence 😂. like....this material is too difficult to understand. suddenly i have lost all sense of reading comprehension and critical thinking. i think i'm going to need a lotttt of help after class if i'm quite honest. perhaps even some extra special academic accommodations? 😛😌

aleigh -`♡´-

Oh, and Matt? I remembered that I'm no longer allowed to ask for penguins 😒 🐧 But not to worry, I figured out the nonsense I shall spew onto the page this time! You'll get to see Santa soon! .... ish 🤣 At least before Christmas! (Maybe 😂😂)

Maggie Ren

Shamesha! 🥹 Hugs accepted gratefully, and returned with great affection for your beautiful self too! 🤗 Thank-you for the love! Right back at you! 🥰🥰🥰

Matthew Tower

Hi. I hate you. See that- I’m still treating you the same. For those in the US, but not close enough to Indianapolis, you can get a streaming package from the film festival for $13. Which is to say I just main-lined the two short films you put in the Turret and “Blue Smoke”. Having listened to hours of your writing at this point, I can definitely hear your voice in “Snooze Time” and “43000 Feet”. I’m kind of stuck on the wide-eyed, heart-pounding stillness Lisa Harrow conveyed while staring out the hospital window. Up until that point, I was hearing you even though she was talking and relating to the explanations of the different times. That look in the reflection of the window shook me and in that moment, I switched to relating to her acting more than the overall script. Like going from looking at the canvas to the subject of the painting. Really powerful. I drove around and took a couple of photos of towers this afternoon. I’ll get them sent over soon. I’ve actually been meaning to ask how you are thinking about the Belle’s folder these days. One of the agreements of sending you files (be they photos, recipes, crafty things, whatever) is that they would be available for everybody that wants to see them. If you are the only one that has access to the files most of the time, doesn’t that break the conceit that our photos were ever meant for a wider audience? I’m not passing judgement on any of this nor asking you to devote more energy to the folder’s management. I can’t remember which meta it was, but you’ve mentioned browsing the Belle’s folder… let’s say, on your own time. Are you still viewing the photos we’ve sent when the folder isn’t available to all MoTC? Again, I don’t think it’s unfair or bad in anyway. I just want to hear your thoughts after a couple of months with the new parameters.

IndyJane

Oh my I just went to the index! I was so focused on the shorts that I forgot to look. I wasn’t sure at first I would want to see the pictures but I am NOT disappointed! You are just gorgeous on the inside and out! Thank you for sharing so much of yourself! ❤️❤️❤️

Lavender Belle (Jenn)

I don’t know why I would have expected your IRL self to be anything other than brilliant. Even in sexy world your intellect shines through. 43000 feet made me feel some type of way. Can’t quite verbalize it yet but I’ll likely be thinking about it for the rest of my evening. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself 💜

Alaina

Fuck! At work for another 7 hours!

Monica Austin-Force

Hey Angela 💜 🤗A big welcome to the page! I did see your comment the other day🥰 and I hope it all makes sense now. Is that a 🍭 lollipop, you tease!?!😅😘

Matthew Tower

Hey Kris - it’s been a ride hasn’t it? And you know what an important part you’ve played for me and for the page with the amazing way you’ve shared your experiences, self and sexiness. To much more! 🥂Please don’t be too delicate and respectful with me. You know I like it rough sometimes. 😉😘

Matthew Tower

Can we expect a Taika Waititi collaboration soon?

Meg_just_Meg

😂YOU’VE GOT ALL THE SEXY STUFF RAEGAN!! Love back to you and hope to hear from you soon! 😘

Matthew Tower

Well It’s nice to finally see who’s face I’ve been sitting on for the last year🤣 of course you’re beautiful🙄 The black and white picture is killing me. I’d ask you to give My heart back but I suppose you can keep it in the drawer along with all of our panties. You know I love you immensely. But in the event that you didn’t I’ll set the bratting aside for a minute to say it now. I’m so proud of you for finding your way through everything. For seeing your growth from when I first got here until now. I’m so grateful for you trusting us with more pieces of yourself. You give everyone so much thought and care and consideration. And you’ve given me access to some of the most amazing women I’ve ever met. To lots of stories to come🥂 lots of love, K xx

Venusinaphrodite_

🥹🥰🥹🥰 Arrrgh - I’m not kidding that I’m struggling not to get a little choked up Becs. Thank-you for the beautiful compliment which I’ll be reading whenever I need a 🛗 lift 😌 Also, I’m so relieved that we’re still gonna make wet patches for each other too haha. 😂The song is in my punk playlist! 😘xx

Matthew Tower

Matthew I'm very emotional here, please only you can soothe me....please.....

Linda

Matthew my love, really, you know I'm pregnant and cry at cat food commercials how in world, ugh, you are amazing, my link is not working and my husband wants to know why I'm crying.....how can I get the Turret folder to open😢😢😵

Linda

If I was your homework, your dog wouldn’t get a chance to eat me, because I’d already be in your mouth. 😂😘

Matthew Tower

I’m a little late responding tonight just because after watching Snooze Time I had to do some journaling. I won’t bore you with all my thoughts on that film but Getting Older Time seriously hit me. “ A week in the Life of a 3 year old is pretty big compared to a week in the life of a 50 year old.” Wow I cannot tell you how much I relate to that! And you wrote that in college? Yes you are a mature writer beyond you years. I relate to that now being 50 but I would never had written it so well I’m my early college years. And as an “older “ person, please never look at you accomplishments as a college student, or even your work as a younger person make you think there is any reason to not be 100% proud of ALL of your work. Anyone who is an artist of any kind may look at their earlier works an sub par to what they create now. But when you look at your work over the years you have to look at it as a whole. You will see how much you have grown as an artist and as a person and realize it’s all connected. It’s just growth. Please be proud of your earlier work, it’s wonderful. You are incredibly talented! ❤️💜❤️ And now I think you’re even sexier than before ❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥 (I can’t be so serious in the entire post can I? Lol )

Lavender Belle (Jenn)

I will not specialize Matt's irl job *relapse* I will not specialize Matt's irl job *relapse* I will not specialize Matt's irl job *relapse* I will not specialize Matt's irl job *relapse* I will not specialize Matt's irl job *relapse* ........ I may never learn 😅 Unless some sexy professor can teach me to be a good girl? 🥵 *relapse*

Kris

Oh Matthew... It just guts me to think of you having to fight these battles on behalf of your adoring Belles (although it does feed my hot-knight-in-shining-armor fantasy 😉🥰), your privacy, and your livelihood. Surely the internet ogres could find legitimate targets, leaving pussycats like you in peace... 🤬 Like Kate, I listen to you every night -- some nights you arouse me, some nights you comfort me, and some nights you just lull me to sleep. No matter how "naughty" you get, there is still a paradoxical innocence to your craft (which makes me all the more indignant that anyone would f#!k with you). P.S. You asked for "tower" images -- check out a site, unsplash.com -- professional photographers generously provide superb, hi-res images for free use by other creatives. I looked at "tower" images and there are many. 💜💜

Daphne

You do realize knowing you teach literature opens a whole new dimension of Visiting Professor fantasies. I could give you a tour of our campus...😏

Dawn

Hey Patti! It is! 🐈‍⬛ Well, my cat is really Madam 2.0 but the film is definitely the reason I fell in love with her in the animal shelter… 😌

Matthew Tower

Hello Beautiful Human (inside and out)! I’m pretty emotional… trying to put my thoughts into words… not doing a good job 😆 I just want to hug you and tell you how much your presence is wanted, needed and loved 😘🥰💜💜💜💜💜

Shamesha

I’m looking forward to watching the videos! I’m super amazed and honored that you are willing to share so much of yourself, Matthew. Also I’m so happy I’m apart of this community. 😘🤫

Angela

My dearest Matthew, your soul as always shown so brightly. A light that could never be ignored and a warmth so easy to melt into. Even just the knowledge that such a profoundly positive influence exists is a comfort: to have been enveloped--enraptured and swept away with it--as been a blessing for me this last year. I have always struggled with confidence, self love, past abuses, and very little luck with love. A lot of my own emoticons labors have been unpacked (there's still a ways to go but how dare I not support myself through it all) and your voice--the thoughts and wonders you share with us every week-- have been part of the road. From remembering how fantastic my body could feel in my hands to getting a good nights sleep, all of it has changed mine and so many others lives for the better. You have no idea how much that really means to me. And to be so damned gorgeous on top of that...I'm not one for religion but it's hard to believe you weren't blessed by some cosmic force. I'm absolutely delighted to finally see your eyes. I think they're one of the most beautiful details about a person and yours are no different. Could drown myself in those.... I'll do my best to not refer to you as "Doctor" even though my mind skips off to wonderful fantasies whenever I do. It must have been huge to move forward with this and I want to be as delicate and respectful as you've been with al of us. I'm so excited for what's to come Hello Dr. Matthew Harris It's so good to meet you again 💜

Kris

It's so wonderful to see the many gift you have. And that you share so freely with us. I haven't had time to watch or read anything yet, but the last couple of weeks I was too late to join the conversation. And I miss all you beautiful people!! Love to all of you. I'm so grateful for this community. And so proud to be a part of it. Oh, wait and sexy something otherwise it really a post from me? I got nothing! SO SEXY STUFF SEXY STUFF

Raegan Howard

One of my fave bands has a song with the line ‘You're so smart and witty and funny and pretty’,* and I immediately started softly singing it out loud after reading this/the new About Me and hearing your hello. I already knew you were all these things, but getting to see this other side of you (not that 🍑 one, even tho we all love that one) is such a sweet gift. For me, this is the opposite of TMI. It’s still you as we all know, just now we know you’re an award winning film writer(!!) and you’ve got a face that should be in front of the camera, not behind it 😘 Love that you have this freedom now. It looks good on you 😍 Soak it in (after you finish soaking me 😇) I don’t take you for granted either, Matthew H Tower 💜 * https://open.spotify.com/track/4sGocVfQPZ0gFgUWRxWf39?si=DKLYr4ofQV-cG3OpT2L9DA (The Lawrence Arms love to use lit references in their songs, Dr)

rebecca

BadMaddyDaddy is good! How’s my Rittlerabbit? 😁

Matthew Tower

Baby, if you were my homework, I'd slam you on the table and do you all night long.

Dawn

And now my fiancé is making fun of me because I’m simping so hard for you. 😭

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

Thank-you for this big virtual hug! 🥰 The admiration is mutual. 💜 And hey - I promise that my piano playing is still a long way off playing in public, so you won’t be able to get rid of me for a while 😂 xx

Matthew Tower

Just had to drop in and say you’re so pretty I want to squish your face between my boobs and kiss your head. 🥺

Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)

I will say something relevant as soon as my brain sorts through all of it, but right now I can't get past the fact that THIS IS WHY YOUR CAT IS NAMED MADAM, ISN'T IT?? 🤯

Patti

Hey - I’m Sagittarius. Upper half human, lower half horse 😉😂 Like to shoot things 🏹 😂

Matthew Tower

Hello Gorgeous How is my Maddy doing today. 🖤🐇

BunnyRabbit

Love you too! 🥹And hey - none of the students research their pickup lines as well as you either, Dawn! 😁💜

Matthew Tower

I will stick to a few words. I'm proud of you and I can admire you in all the dimensions you will able to create in this life, even if you give up on everything and just play the piano. I know how much it costs to be an erotic writer, I know more than anyone. So I'm just going to hug you tight virtually and say that what you're doing right now is the greatest proof of love and acceptance you can give to yourself. Everything else, you already know. 💜

Aline

Can I ask what you zodiac sign is now? Or at least the element that represents it? 🤔😅

Maggie Ren

I am so happy you felt safe to do this. For the record, none of the professors at my college are as sexy as you. We love you so much Matt 💜

Dawn

As did I (got stupidly emotional)...

Daphne

I got stupidly emotional reading this, you do so much for so many of us Matt and I’m glad what started as a terrible situation ended up with a happy ending 💜💜💜

Niamh

I can be there in 3 Katie.

Dawn

IM IN AN CONTENT OVERLOAD TORNADO. (LINDA IS IN INDIANAPOLIS? I can be there in 6 hrs? Dawn? T?) Okay actually I’m still at work trying not to loose my shit cause my nieces are at my house and I want to be there so I have to do my thing tonight… but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHATS HAPPENING. No I’m really excited to read this all for comprehension and watch things and other things. AND -insert words of excitement and curiosity- and any other things that can be inserted. Thanks for your sharinggggggggggg 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🥰🥰🥰🥰

Katie

......... Okay so.... Admittedly, I might be even more attracted to you now 😅😅

Maggie Ren

🥰🤗💜

Matthew Tower

"Not that my presence has ever been of much importance." Do I need to slap you? Don't make me get the wooden spoon, Matthew! See, I used the full name! I mean it! MH, huh? Seems we have the same initials >.> Seriously though, I'm so happy that you now feel free enough to share much more of your world 🥰. I couldn't be happier for you ☺️ 😊 ❤️

Maggie Ren

🤗💜

Ann


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