Some thoughts about my project recently

Greeting,members . It is half past three midnight,I had insomnia again... so I took this opportunity to write something as a diary.

I've been on a writing spree lately, working on game scripts, short and long manga scripts, and even trying to squeeze in a new novel. It's a great feeling to be so productive...

and the manga about Schbatruien...My cutest Character,I think it need sometime to make its storyboard better,and I need to practice my skill about how to draw a manga.Recently I'm going to draw some short manga,then longer.

and some music...I have find my written staff from my middle school time ...and I try to compose it by apps.My own music makes me relax and I will post it here when I finish it and with cover.

But...I want to say something about my self experience...

I was born in China and am ethnically Chinese. However, I've always questioned the Chinese Communist Party, our ruling party. No one dares to criticize it in China—anyone who makes a political mistake becomes a public enemy,more seriously, becoming a political prisoner. From a young age, I've disliked collectivism and admired individual freedom, gradually developing into a libertarian. I've always been fascinated by foreign cultures and enjoy talking to foreigners. Even as a child, I used to email foreigners and studied English diligently, hoping to one day communicate with them. At that time, and even now, many Chinese people considered people like me to be traitors,and I believed they were just brainwashed by the Communist Party.

My interests were mostly solidified by the time I was in middle school, one of which was learning foreign languages. I learned Japanese in addition to English and planned to study in Japan and eventually immigrate to the West. However, my luck turned when I started high school. I was expelled for fighting with classmates due to political disagreements (I was an extreme anti-communist) and transferred to another school. Later, I was arrested twice by the State Security Bureau for participating in protests against unfair policies and had to transfer again. During this time, I was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia, which ironically became my protection. My family used my mental illness as an excuse to avoid imprisonment. I spent most of my last year of high school in internet cafes and barely managed to get into a university for a major I didn't like.

Nobody could have handled such a series of setbacks, and I was no exception. I became increasingly withdrawn and didn't want to communicate with anyone, especially my fellow countrymen. I couldn't trust them anymore. Now, I'm reluctant to talk to anyone unless they show genuine kindness and sincerity.

I've built a wall around myself to protect my thoughts and ensure my physical and political safety, especially since I'm still in China. I can only relax my guard once I leave.

I've lost most of my dreams and aspirations. My only remaining desire is to leave something behind, like a memoir or a piece of writing. I've always excelled at writing and believe I could be a writer, but in a country without freedom of speech or publication, it's a futile dream. It's a sad reality.

If you like my writing, I'm happy to hear it, but it won't change my personality or make me less guarded.I hope you can understand my self-defence is necessary.

Stopp complaining. No one likes a person who is always pessimistic and negative..

And new year is coming,Lunar New Year.There were some accidents before this new year, so it was quite deserted, and I was in a very bad mood because of it,but still a new art for celebrating it.

a draft about stereotype of Chinese-style Miss Lodivina(Leutetinna)

I never see any Chinese dress like that around me and anywhere,I don't know why Auslanders consider it as traditional chinese dress.

And I'm going to redesign Hanako's hairstyle. change it to a double bun like that for first lunar month.

(Giantess Hanako sit on street DRAFT )

a good novel material for Hanako play in city?

so

Have a good rest ~~~