BLOG: I Always Thought About Doing This/"Monogamy? In This Economy!?"

Hello everyone!

Back when I first started on Patreon one of the ideas I had for things to do was a blog. It's not something I would update all the time but something where I can just talk a little more informally. Nothing can be more informal than this... I don't really have a plan for what to write. We'll see what comes up!

There's a lot I would like to talk about but wouldn't make a good first blog post. After all I don't want to give you the idea I'm a whiner (even if it is the truth!) I imagine a lot of these posts will be about ABDL topics but I'm not sure this one will be. (Spoiler: It is a little bit.)

So maybe I'll just talk about something in 2022 that meant a lot to me. Whilst it didn't start last year I can see it really flourished. What many of you may not know is that I'm in a polyamorous relationship. If you don't know what that means the simple definition is that it's a relationship with multiple people, in this case four.

There is me, my wife (Alice), my girlfriend/Mummy (Lyra) and the fourth is my metamour whose name I won't give. A metamour basically means she is my partner's partner.

We all got together at the end of 2021 (I think!) but in 2022 we really cemented what we call the polycule. In October all four of us went on holiday together which included my metamour coming all the way over from America. We spent a week together in a lodge in a forest resort and it was wonderful even if my anxiety threatened to ruin everything ocassionally.

The trip was not without setbacks. My metamour tested positive for covid literally a few hours before leaving for the airport. We were all devastated but her friend rushed over with a new test and we all held our breath. The new one was negative and we all thanked our lucky stars. The first test was an old one that had been lying around for a while and thankfully wasn't valid.

We all had a lot of fun. All four of us are kinky and little. My metamour doesn't wear nappies and Lyra is more of a Mummy but we're all in the scene, as it were. It meant we had plenty of kinky as well as more family-friendly fun! I was in nappies pretty much the whole time with Mummy changing me when needed. It was also the first time I was pegged and although the initial shock was... a lot... I look forwards to doing it again the next time me and Mummy get together.

I was nervous before the poly situation became official. There's always the worry that it goes horribly wrong. What happens if two people don't get along at all? What if I get jealous? What if someone suddenly wants to be exclusive? What if we all meet up and it just doesn't work?

I won't say polyamory is for everyone. I think there are some people for whom monogamy makes perfect sense whilst for others there is room for more people. It's a lot of work. Thankfully, having been together for over a year now and having spent tie together I think a lot of the fears we may all have privately harboured has been allayed somewhat. I know we would all like to have a holiday together again sooner rather than later.

I don't think I gave the best account of myself on the holiday. To be blunt my anxiety got the best of me for large periods of time. When my anxiety is high I retreat into myself a bit and, to be honest, fall apart. I get snappy, I struggle to sleep and my appetite dies, it's very much not fun! With it being the first time I've met my metamour I do worry that she doesn't have the best opinion of me because of it.

I'll do more of these in the future and probably on subjects you guys find moer interesting. This is just a rather stream-of-consciousness test run. I hope some of you liked it or will at least like reading future ramblings.

If any of you are in poly relationships or have questions about it I'd be happy to answer in the comments to this post or in DM. I'm not an expert but I have some experience!