~Marvel: Loki X Listener SFW: More Than Anything~

Again. He's done it again. Tricked you into loving, into mourning.....and yet.....

Contains: Reunions, Confessions, Apologies, Kissing, Petnames (Darling, My Dear)

Another lovely commission from the past! I really liked making this one because Loki getting to make bad jokes but also come to the listener with hat in hand after his shenanigans is a fun dynamic! This audio takes place after Infinity War and the shit that goes down with him afterwards, it isn't explicitly stated, just to help you visualize the vague timeline that I have for certain audios lol. I hope you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Loki: By Odin's ravens.....

-pause-

Hello, Darling.....

Even after all this time....I didn't think seeing you again would....invoke such a.....strong reaction in me......

I thought that I had distanced myself enough from the situation to—

-slap-

-hisses in pain-

Ah!

-soft panting-

Well....I suppose I did deserve that, didn't I?

To be perfectly honest,Darling…..I'm rather surprised you didn't do worse....

-slap-

-grunts-

Alright, yes.....I deserved that as well.....

-pause-

Oh….but even so wreathed in anger you look—

-gasps into a kiss-

-pulls away panting-

Well....I can't exactly say that I was expecting that........

-pause-

It is me……I am real……no tricks……I swear……

-long pause-

I.....I know, my Dear.....it has been.....quite a long time for you.....

-pause-

The rumors of my death......as has been the case before......have been greatly exaggerated.....

-long pause-

-hushed-

Forgive me......humor wasn't quite the right way to respond to that......

A clever trick......my most clever trick, if I'm to be honest....

-long pause-

Are you truly interested in the details, my Dear? 

-pause-

I know....I know you never thought you'd see me again.....

For all intents and purposes.....I was intent to keep it that way......

-pause-

I had to be sure....that Thanos was going to be stopped....permanently......everything had to go according to plan……you know as well as I that there was only one chance to be rid of him for good…….

If I had revealed myself too soon......well.....things would not have worked out the way that they have.....

-pause-

-soft huff-

Oh…..how I forget sometimes that you....are mortal.....

Almost six years is truly a long time for you.....isn't it?

-pause-

No.....I didn't come here to beg for forgiveness.......I've already told myself that I don't deserve that.....

Whatever my reasonings are......it wasn't fair to us.....

Wasn't fair to you......

I've come to.....apologize.....

But I suppose in true form I'm not here to apologize for the way I went about it.....

I'm here to apologize for what it did to you. 

It wasn’t something that I took into much consideration at the time.....

And I honestly didn't think you would be there to witness it.....

-shaky sigh-

No......I suppose one would become intimately familiar with that sound in one's nightmares......

And I know that it offers you no comfort to know that it needed to be as real as possible…..

So.....I apologize.....for changing you.....and not for the better.....

-long pause-

I swear that this isn’t a dream, my Dear......I don't believe even your mind would be that cruel.....

-pause-

-sighs-

You're right......I don't know how cruel it's been......

-long pause-

Truth be told, Darling......I've been.....watching you for......a few months......

I thought that perhaps I could...check on you.....see that you've moved on without me.....and I could do so as well.....give myself reassurance that what I did was the right thing to do……

But no......

I couldn't leave you as you are.......

I couldn't go on allowing you to believe that I was truly gone.....

-pause-

-chuckles wryly-

I suppose my moniker of a liar remains true then......

I wanted you back as much as you wanted me back.....

-slap-

-weak sigh-

I don't suppose I am intimately aware of how much you did......I....apologize for the assumption.

-pause-

Apologies are all I have now.....

I don't believe I can offer anything else that you would be interested in.

-pause-

I still don't expect you to forgive me......not after.....everything......

-hushed- But I cannot lie to myself any more than you when I say that there is a part of me that ardently hopes you will.....

And though that part is small......well.....hope makes fools of many.....

-pause-

And heroes of others......

-long pause-

No.....aside from those who were in on the plan.....you are the only one who I've told......

-pause-

No one you know, I assure you......

You needed to be the first one.....it could be no one else, Darling.....

-chuckles wryly-

I don't believe I have the right to call you that anymore, do I?

By Odin.....this all seemed....quite easier in my head.....

-pause-

No....you rejected me outright.....and I simply.....left......

That was the way that made the most sense……the easiest……but we’ve never done anything easily have we?

-pause-

-huffs softly-

If my life has taught me anything.....it’s that I'm particularly talented at leaving.....

And for the most part.....I believe it's cost me far more than it's gained me......

-long pause-

Of course.....of course I still love you......

I never stopped....how could I?

You are....the most magnificent......-huffs a sigh-

I could spend hours expounding on your greatness with pretty words.....however I believe that.....it's not what you want to hear.....

It’s not what you need to hear…..

I love you.......I love you more than I have ever loved another being.....on this world or any other......and my selfishness and secrecy and....tendency to lie and to take matters into my own hands without.....conferring with the people it could affect the most......

-harsh sigh-

My worst traits, truly.....spelled out in the way that I treated you.....

From the bottom of my heart....I am sorry.....

And to be entirely truthful......I do hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive a foolish god such as I.......

-hushed-

And I hope that includes......taking me back.....

-pause-

-chuckles wryly- I am selfish.....that has not changed….and I cannot argue it either.....

-long pause-

You never stopped loving me?

-shaky inhale and exhale-

That is......

-huffs a laugh- My famous silver tongue cannot form the adequate words to tell you just how it makes me feel.....

I daresay it almost makes me love you more......

That even through all of my faults, my conniving, my.....everything.....you never stopped loving me......

From you? It means the world......

More than the world......it means more than all of the nine realms put together.....

That you hold that love with me in your heart.....and held it there even when all hope seemed lost?

-pause-

You truly are one of the strongest beings I have ever had the fortune to meet......

It's a miracle that we exist together at this same point in time.....that we got to meet one another......got to know one another.......

And fall in love.....

-pause-

-chuckles softly- Yes, and be in love....

Because we still are.....aren't we?

-pause-

I understand.....love and forgiveness are two entirely different things.....and I don't expect you for one moment to give me an answer on whether or not you grant me said forgiveness.......I don't want you to rush into it either......after all this time that's one of the last things I want.....

And if we......must start from square one again.....so that you can rebuild your trust in me......then I accept that......

I accept everything that you could possibly wish or not wish of me.......

But know that whatever you decide.....it will not stop me from loving you......

That I'm afraid....is set in stone.....

-pause-

From what I've gathered.....much of the life on Midgard have had many instances where they've had to start anew in recent years......would it not make sense for you and I to.....do the same?

-pause-

Your fountain of willingness to go along with my madness is another thing I adore about you......

We're a dangerous pair you and I......

I believe we'll continue to be so....however this pair shall end up.....

-pause-

Thank you.....

-pause-

For loving me.....for having just enough trust in me to try again.....

I cannot tell you how much it means to me.....

-pause-

And if I may be selfish one more time?

-chuckles-

At least one more time in these moments……

-pause-

May I have one more kiss? I have desperately missed the feel of your lips against my own.....

-soft kiss-

-pause-

I love you too....

To the ends of every realm and back…..

-long pause-

-chuckles- I suppose the time has indeed come for me to reveal myself to the others again.....

Oh, by Odin's beard......I can only imagine what Thor is going to do this time.....

-sighs- Let's just say that he has been....well....he's been through this more than once......

I expect he might actually try to kill me outright this time.....

-pause-

A joke.......again...perhaps not a very well timed joke.....but the fact that you would try to stop him from doing so at the cost of your own life?

-chuckles-

What did I possibly do to deserve you?

-pause-

And if I have to spend the rest of your life proving that I do......I will do it......

Because you are worth it.....to me.....

You are worth more than everything.......