~Marvel: Bucky X Listener SFW: Regrowth~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Bucky doesn't think he's gotten very far or he'll go anywhere now that he's been out of the ice for so long, but you've seen it, seen how much he's improved, and you want so badly for him to know that he's got another chance to have a better life.

Contains: Character Exploration, Comfort, Talk About Recovery

Bucky is one of those characters that just makes a really good subject for personal internal exploration, and I've said that before lol. I always feel kind of bad when the SFW audios aren't specifically romance or comfort towards the listener based, but many patrons have said they love the audios where they're comforting the character I'm portraying, or that not everything has to be romance, so I allow myself to follow the character exploration route sometimes lol. Anyways, the idea of Regrowth I think is perfect for Bucky, so I hope you enjoy! Also, timeline-wise, I was thinking this was somewhere around Falcon and the Winter Soldier, so Bucky's got his short hair again lol.

~Audio Transcript Below~

Bucky: This......the Hydra based serum that I got.......everything I went through because of it........it's not all it's cracked up to be. Sure, I'm more like....Steve......but well......he deserved it and I.....well.......I wasn't chosen because of anything I did. I was chosen.....because of him....so......

Just......I'm tired of people saying that I'm lucky is all.......

This is the longest I've been out of the ice.......and.....I've finally gotten to a point where......the paranoia and fear I felt that any day I was about to be put under again and I would lose all the progress I gained is......mostly gone.....

*pause*

I don't know quite what to do with my life......

For most of—hell if not all—of my adult life has been spent fighting.......being a weapon.......just.....at War......

And now that the world is finally, finally at least for the moment at relative peace......and there's some.....goddamn stability in my life........I'm not quite sure what to.....do with that stability......

I've come to accept that.......I probably won't ever be able to become a.....normal person.......

*pause*

Yeah.......It's been......*sighs* years now.....that I've been unfrozen.......and......now my brain is finally pretty much........caught up.....healed....I guess........

*pause*

*sighs* Y-you're right.......not a lot of people don't have this kind of opportunity, and I should feel lucky—I-I just.......

It.....sucks.......it really sucks.........

I've accepted the fact that I'm going to have to carry the weight of what happened to me.....for however long the rest of my life is.........

*pause*

Just because I've accepted it......doesn't mean that I have to like it......

*sighs* Sorry......I still get.....so agitated about this shit..........

*pause*

You.....you really think that I have a chance to.....have a happy life now?

*pause*

I guess.....yeah.....I've gone through......some positive change.......

*long pause*

*chuckles softly* You think I'm handsome?

*pause*

You said me not being able to see the breadth of the positive changes I made , 'Is like not being able to tell that you're handsome because you're not your own type.'

*chuckles* I know.....I just like to tease you......you get flustered reals  easily.......

*pause*

'Trees can regrow and become stronger than before if even a single cutting is given a chance'........

You sure are full of metaphors tonight, aren't you.......

What are you, a fortune cookie?

*pause*

*laughs* Fine, fine, allegories.......semantics, you little shit.......

*clears throat* Sorry.....that was something that Steve used to........

*chuckles awkwardly*

*pause*

I guess you're right.....I....I know I've been given a chance......multiple chances really......

It's just hard to see it from inside this.....thick skull of mine.....you'll have to forgive me....Steve always complained about how hard headed I was.......

*pause*

*sighs* And.......while I'm not the same man that I was.......I'm.......better than what Hydra made me.........

And.......I know if I continue to try......even if I get frustrated.......I'll get better.......

Not perfect.....no such thing........plus....too much.......everything.....but I know what you're trying to tell me.......you're trying to help me.....as always......and I.....

I can't tell you how much I appreciate it......

I have......much better people around me now........

Thank you........for being there for me.......

You've always believed in me.......there haven't been many people who have and........

Having you has been.....invaluable........

So....yeah.....thank you.......

*pause*

*chuckles* Fortune cookies?

Yeah, they were a thing before the War......but they were called, 'Fortune tea cakes'........cause they were actually a Japanese food thing before they were a Chinese food thing........

*Fading out*

Yeah, there was a nice Japanese family who owned a small restaurant near where Steve and I lived, and they would pass out these little cookies to any of the kids who seemed like they weren't getting enough food......so you can guess that they gave more than one to Steve every time we ever walked by even when we were teenager.......*chuckled* which of course annoyed him.....but they were so nice, and you know good ol' Boyscout Steve, even though neither of us were in the Scouts........