~The Arcana: Julian Devorak SFW: Together~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Julian has appeared once again outside your shop, but you're going to catch him before he leaves mysteriously again, you swear!
Contains: Julian being a self deprecating shit, relationship talk, slight spoilers for game, comfort, confessions

It's Julian! I hope you all enjoy! It's funny, I actually had to look up stuff on Julian's part because I'm not all the way done with his route yet, (cough--because I'm doing Muriel's--cough) but I think I did ok! I tried sort of a slavic style accent with him, so if you hate that we can agree it never happened and I wont do it again lol.

~Audio Transcript Below~


Julian: Oh! Well…..yes…...hello……..funny meeting you here…..at…...your shop…..

*sighs* Yes well…...I thought it would be best if we…...talked…..again…..

*pause* Communication is important……

*pause*

Y-Yes……even when it’s hard to get into contact with someone in the first place…...I apologize about that……

I’m still not that well liked in the city…...best to lay low and alone most of the time……

Shall we?

No….no thank you, I’m alright. Not really that thirtsy , but thank you.

*clears throat* Um….shall we sit?

*pause*

*deep breath*

*with charm* Alright…..so…….you and I…..I know we’ve…...sort of been on the precipice of something here…….You’d agree?

*steadily losing confidence* Well…...as much as I’d really like to continue…...I think it might be beneficial for me to go away for a while…...I have some things that I’ve got to take care of, and well…….I don’t know how long they’d take and…..I don’t want you to wait for me…...in case that…..well…….I never come back…... 

*pause*

Yeah…..I guess you can call it that…...I’m breaking this off…..

*pause*

Look, you don’t need to ask so many questions…..it’s---

*pause*

*swallows*

*confident mask gone* I’m reaching a breaking point here……

I can’t go on living with what’s happening…..I have to stop it…..or at least find some answers to some long held questions I’ve had…...and, I wasn’t lying…

I don’t want you or anyone else to go through that…..

*pause*

*sighs* Yes, I know it seems stupid but……*sighs* I can see where this road is going down, and nothing good is going to come of it…..

N-no…..it’s not…..that’s not what I meant. You and I…..together…that would be……*softly* Incredible…….but…...

I don’t want…….you to get hurt. That’s the last thing that I could ever want…..but I’m afraid that’s the only thing that’s going to happen if I don’t end this now…..

*visibly upset* ‘Before it even begins?’ *under his breath* You don’t need to say it like that…..

*pause*

What could hurt you? *scoffs* Everything? Everyone? Especially me……

*pause*

I couldn’t ask you to come with me…..to…..face the….curse that hangs over me like a constant thunderstorm…..that’s not fair to you…..

*Pause*

You…...what? You…….want to? How could you possibly…..? I…..I don’t understand…..

This…...thing……*growls* Alright, not the right word, but this, whatever is blooming between us….it isn’t worth the risk of you…...of you……you……--Of you dying, alright?!

*pause*

I’m the one who put myself into this mess, so I need to be the one to take care of it…...so that my…...people can stay safe. It’s not just you it’s just……...mostly you……

I’m dangerous, you know……

*scoffs, but slightly fond himself* “Fond of danger,” eh?

You have an overdeveloped sense of loyalty you know…….it’s going to get you into trouble someday…..

*pause*

Look….it’s because…….this isn’t the first or the last time that my curse has gotten me into trouble…...or are you forgetting the entire affair with the Count? 

I’m still a wanted man…and that’s only part of it……

I just……*sighs* I don’t understand……

What did I do to warrant your attention….your concern? I don’t get why you would throw caution to the wind just to help a man who is practically doomed from the start? When it’s only a matter of time before the curse takes me for good? I don’t want to drag you down with me when I can avoid it all and…..keep you safe…...why won’t you let me do that?

*pause*

‘Because you care’. *breathes* It doesn’t make sense…..I’ve never given you a reason to care!

*pause* ‘You don’t need a reason?’......You’re not making any sense….

*long pause*

*softly, almost broken* Wh-what?

*swallows* I’m sorry…...I’m going to have to ask you to repeat that…...I don’t think I heard you right…..
 
*breathes*

I…..I think I need a moment……

*pause*

You….want to do this together…...because you believe that the strength we hold together…..is more than enough to break whatever curse I’m under…...whatever dangers lie ahead….

You believe in me and you…….want to help me because…...you care…...because you…..you……*softly, almost afraid*......love me?

*swallows* But what happens if we fail?

*pause*

I know it’s something we don’t want to think about, but it’s practical. There is a very large chance that we won’t make it out of this alive……

*pause*

‘Then we’ll do it together?’.....*sighs* You are…….*chuckles* an idiot…….

*swallows*

I suppose I am as well, aren’t I?

*sighs* I just…….help has never come easy for me…...there has always been some ulterior motive…...people using me because I’m useful…..helping me to get something in return…..never because they cared for me…..for my wellbeing…...so…..I’m going to apologize now and probably a thousand times more. I’m probably going to try to keep you away, try to make it so you don’t get hurt…..I might try to sacrifice myself…..for you…….because well…...old habits die hard when they’re the only thing you’ve known…….I can’t promise I won’t do that…..won’t act that way…...I can only promise to try……

*pause*

You matter…….an incredible amount to me……and…..I apologize that I’ve probably been such an ass about this……

So please…….if you can find it in your heart to forgive me……

*pause*

Together…..yes…...together…….

We can do this together…….