~Detroit Become Human:Connor SFW:Worth~

Androids can really make some sense sometimes, even if they can't really empathize, they can surely understand.

Contains: Comfort, Talk of mental illness, Conversations about love and worth.

Another Connor! Once again I'm always surprised by people wanting to hear more from a newer character, especially with one with such a unique voice as Connor. I'm still once again trying to find his voice (Bryan Dechart's voice is SO UNIQUE lol) but I think I'm getting into the swing of things? so, yay!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Connor: Hello.

I’m here because I need to be.

Well, you don’t have to talk if you don’t want to, but I don’t believe that’s going to stop me from talking to you.

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So…..you seem to think that since you dont have romantic love in your life, that you aren’t worthy as a human being.

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While you are correct that I myself don’t feel these emotions, it is not beyond my grasp to understand them. I was created for such purpose in the first place. I am well versed in human emotions, reactions, as well as interactions.

You do realize that as a human, a flesh and blood living human, that you are capable and allowed to express the entire range of human emotions, yes? You’re allowed to be happy, sad, angry, and the rest of the myriad of intricacies that make up the emotional consistency of human beings. You are worthy of existence and of love, even though the chemical makeup in your brain seems to think otherwise. 

Plain and simple. It’s your brain being mean to you.

Unfortunately, as I’ve said before, I can’t necessarily empathize, but I have thousands if not millions of examples at my disposal that leads me to have an understanding of what causes certain emotions in humans, and to use that knowledge when it comes to my job.

I am a police android after all.

That’s not a stupid question at all. There are those who look at androids and forget that we are just machines. Highly advanced machines, but machines none-the-less. But it’s an interesting question, something that scientists and others have been asking since the first android created.

Being as exposed to human emotions and reactions and behaviors as I have, I have seen the width and breadth of all things humans can feel and it is…..fascinating. The vastness of the emotional consciousness combined with the fact that it can subtly change in but a moment or with just a single word or look is incredible. You are controlled by just what’s in your brain, and your brain is the thing that seeks out consciousness.

That’s the other big difference between you and I. The free will to what you wish.

It may look as though I have free will with how I’m speaking, but it’s a part of my programming. I’ve been programmed by Cyber-Life to use the knowledge they have given me, and that’s what I’m doing. The fact that it may sound philosophical is unfortunately incidental.

I’ve been sent here to ‘cheer you up’--the exact wording of my instructions--which in retrospect having you know that undoubtedly doesn’t make you feel any better. 

It’s not pity, if that helps. I don’t feel pity.

Is that so bad? That this is a job? That I’m here to help you?

I don’t know that a human would do any better. Sometimes, emotions will clash, and nothing will get accomplished and no one will be better off in the end. I’m here to talk to you as a unbiased outlier.

Should I go back to what I was saying before? You feel defeated constantly not from actual outside stimulus and events that dictate that you’ve failed, so that feeling is purely created in your brain chemistry. It’s the same brain chemistry that has you afraid to express anything other than positive emotions for fear of looking weak, or for fear of driving away the people in your life that you care about. Your brain lies to you, tells you that you aren’t worthy of anything without someone to share a romantic relationship with, that you aren’t even worthy of having one in the first place.

You are worthy of something. Every living creature on this Earth is worth something, be they human or not, it’s just humans have the higher brain function to question what worth is, so it’s harder for them.

You have friends, family, who care for you, and while I recognize that that is different than romantic love and companionship, it doesn’t count any less. Self love is well.

Self love is difficult for those like you who’s brain chemistry isn’t correct, but recognizing that it’s not your fault and that your brain is sick can be a good first start on that road. It’s not easy from what I’ve witnessed, but it is possible.

Your worth is not determined by how much you are loved by others or how desirable you are to others, you are a human, and that gives you worth just like all the other humans on this planet.

And….even though you may be looking for romantic companionship, I think it’s important to realize that you are not looking for your ‘other half’. That’s a phrase I’ve heard a lot. You are one whole human being, even with your faults and with your different brain chemistry. You have worth on your own, and you shouldn’t be looking for someone to ‘complete’ you because you aren’t missing anything. You are two people sharing one another, not two halves to a whole.

*pause*

*chuckles* For a human, you seem to put a lot of faith in someone who doesn’t feel things.

It was a joke…..humans respond well to them usually after intense conversations.

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If you ever need another moment to talk about these things, you need only ask.

You’re very welcome.