Disconnected

GOD I'm feeling the EXACT same. I don't have anyone I hang with IRL that I bond with over artistic interests. All my furry and clay stuff is just me out here lol I definitely agree with you on that lonely feeling. However I don't post publicly as much as I'd like because every time I do it brings a resurgence of messages in my inbox gives me a lot of anxiety. There's usually two types: commissioner's asking for updates and people asking for quotes. I don't mind giving updates at all! Sometimes the commissioner will ask or I'll reach out but it's just that when I post I get two to three messages requesting for updates and each situation has it's own hurdles on why I might not have much to update on. Like right now I can't print as consistently as I'd like due to health issues. As for quotes, I'm often not able to get to every DM or am just perpetually overwhelmed at the DMs that I know if I post again I'll just add to the long list of DMs that I haven't answered yet. BASICALLY the influx of messages I get as a result of posting always gives me anxiety and stress. I think it's just the timing of it all. Rather than it being organic, I feel like I set off a chain reaction aahaha I'm definitely trying to combat this by wrapping on commissions, not taking any new figure work, and to find other ways to make money so I'm not letting people down with my wait time and long queue. For the quote thing I might just have to announce a day where I can give quotes instead of telling people to feel free to DM me anytime. It's a bit of a mess but the good news is I'm slowing fixing these mistakes and in time I'll be able to better manage this passion of mine and put things out more consistently again! I hope that all made sense TwT I really appreciate you taking the time to write your initial message and reading this one

I was wondering why you don’t post photos of every sculpture you make? In my case i feel more inspired and connected to my artistic side when i’m engaging with the artistic community because otherwise i feel pretty lonely and misunderstood in my passion (i don’t know anyone irl who does similar things to me). I used to be on deviantart but after its big updates i left it and lost my spark kinda. But then I joined twitter and started participating in the community and started feeling more whole within myself. Just the thought of being seen and validated and understood i think. Though of course it might be different to you! I hope you’ll find a solution for your situation, I wish you all the best! You’re really inspiring for my own adventure with polymer clay 🥺❤️

Aww I wish you safe travels on your trip!! (: Yesterday I watched a video one executive dysfunction and a lot of what was said resonated with me. I think I might be missing structure o: I wrote out some plans so I'm hoping I'm heading in the right direction!

Life has been up and down for me, but I've got a trip to visit family I'm looking forwards to. I hope you can take a break from everything soon and take some time for yourself :)

Phipthere

I'm about to finish up a big commission myself and hearing you talk about how rewarding it is is making me excited haha What's your kitten's name? I appreciate your uplifting words ❤️ I agree whole heartedly but it really does wonders to hear confirmation from someone else. I'm excited for the both of us to be on that positive track again (: 💓

Life’s been shakey for many right now, especially myself~ but it’s always healthy to find the positives of what’s going on! I’m currently laying down after finishing a big commission which is rewarding, my little kitty is snuggled up on my arm, I went to Disneyland with a good friend a couple days ago. Although bad things have had happened to me not even as far away as yesterday, I try to move on and find the positives in what I can. It’ll take time to find joy in certain things again, it’ll take time to finish everything that is due, I’m currently stuck in that pit. Eventually you’ll get to it, you will cross the finish line and will embrace a long needed break, I believe in you dear! Although your work is always a blessing to witness, it’s okay to take a step back!

GreaserMutt