Half Sisters - Episode 36 + Bonus Pinups!
Added 2023-08-01 06:13:42 +0000 UTCNikki dives deep into the depths of her subconscious... but what she finds might just be too much to handle.
Okay! Episode 36 has a whopping 20 new panels. We're taking a deep dive into Nikki's past, her fears, and her internal struggles. It's a smorgasbord of emotional turmoil! ๐
As always, I'm super excited to hear your thoughts!
P.S. I particularly love the last panel and the pinup! ๐
Comments
Thank you, Thomas! Yeah, Nikki's girly side will develop slowly... But there are other uniforms you might end up seeing her wearing instead! Oh, and it was really fun to bring Jill into the story as Nikki's 'subconscious.' That shows that Nikki is actually smarter than she acts sometimes! ๐คฃ
Emory Ahlberg
2023-10-18 17:48:54 +0000 UTCNikki in a cheerleader outfit is everything I wanted. I know her fate isn't to go the girly route I want to see her take, so this was a nice, fun little side journey to take. Though seeing Jill made me do a double take.
Thomas Tolliver
2023-10-02 15:18:54 +0000 UTCSlowly but surely, Nikki is beginning to realize that - whether she's a guy or a girl - she still needs to figure out who she REALLY is on the inside without anybody else's expectations.
Emory Ahlberg
2023-09-29 20:04:58 +0000 UTCLOL - Yes, she needs a smaller one now... much to her chagrin!!!
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-17 17:48:43 +0000 UTCXD OMGGGG SOMEONE PLEASE JUST BUY THIS GIRL A FLAT CAGE OR THE NUB CAGES THAT THING IS SO OVERSIZED AND CLUNKY XD ๐๐คฃ And the look of a flat cage is way cuter imo
Juliet Taylor Briar
2023-08-12 16:46:11 +0000 UTCI just love the transformation of not just the outside, but the inside too. How it all comes together from tough boy railing in anger 'I'll never be a girl!' because he's SO sure. To months later changing at a subconscious level. Freudian anxieties developing, not always easily into that basic truth. That he's a girl. More and more everyday! A boyfriend getting closer in the timeline... there's no shame in that. A cheerleader starting to get a crush on one of the players. I love the anxiety of that, shown through this dream.
Lampy
2023-08-11 07:37:52 +0000 UTCThank you so much, Gemma! ๐I really like that image, too... Looks like something from a beauty magazine to me. ๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-09 20:51:00 +0000 UTCJust wanted to let you know I love the elegance and beauty of Nikki captured in the black and white image of her in your pin up images
Gemma
2023-08-05 06:25:25 +0000 UTCGemma, always a pleasure to read your thoughts! It's like you've got a direct line into Nikki's mind - denial is certainly her modus operandi right now. But as you already know, the subconscious works in mysterious ways, and Nikki's dreams are trying to tell her something. Whether she wants to listen or not is a whole other story! ๐๐๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 05:08:51 +0000 UTCThank you, wojtek!!! I love your keen eye and thoughtful reflections. When Nikki first wakes up she's stuck in her feminine voice for a moment and immediately writes to Scott, seeking out someone who can relate to his struggles...but she's definitely nervous and anxious for her friend! Her emotions are becoming more active for sure.
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:59:34 +0000 UTCYou hit the nail on the head (as usual) ckarya! Nick/Nikki's journey is absolutely about realizing that strength comes from within and isn't determined by our outward appearance or societal expectations. It's a revelation that is far from easy to accept, especially for someone in Nick's situation. But I'm hopeful that this dream/nightmare experience is a significant turning point for Nikki's self-discovery and acceptance. As for Sandy... your words made me giggle! I'm glad to hear she's finally won you over. We all have our favorites, but it's always gratifying when a character grows on you in unexpected ways. Be prepared, Sandy just might climb even higher in your personal ranking! ๐ PS: I'm wondering who is currently holding the other two spots in your top 3? ๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:43:33 +0000 UTCLOL, don't we all, Jam? Always happy to provide a little eye-candy for my readers! ๐ I'm so, so glad you're enjoying the series, and trust me, there's plenty more where that came from!
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:39:01 +0000 UTCHey Maggie! Yes, that "we" was quite a moment, wasn't it? ๐คญ And I think you're right, Nikki's got some soul-searching ahead of her, courtesy of her subconscious. As for the dreams, well... be careful what you wish for! ๐ And YES, Sandy is indeed looking GOOD. I guess being rich agrees with her lol ๐๐๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:31:08 +0000 UTCThank you, Estacia!!! Nikki moving back in with her Mom is definitely a good suggestion -- though I think she has a bit more soul-searching to do before sheโs ready to do that... At the moment it would feel like a failure. And YES... It was so fun to create cheerleader Nikki. She IS beautiful. And who knows what version of Nikki we'll see in the future? ๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:28:55 +0000 UTCOh... "WE?" on page 13โฃ๏ธI love it... and OMG... that little egg in Nikki's brain will start to crack soon I think ๐ ... more such dreams please ๐ AND OMFG This is not how I remembered Sandy... ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธThat girl is ALIVEEEEEEEE... ๐ฅน๐๐๐
MaggieHeels
2023-08-05 04:26:11 +0000 UTCPoor Jill can't escape "feminization mommy" role no matter where she is, it would seem. ๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:24:46 +0000 UTCHm! The castration scars are there because that was the last time Nikki saw Jill. So, that is her last imagine of the...person...who saved her. But you're right that this Jill is a subconscious manifestation, projecting Nikki's own fears, insecurities, and potential for change onto a familiar face. She views Jill as someone who was forced to go through a traumatic change, just like her. She represents both the fear of losing her masculinity and the possibility of embracing her femininity. The scars are a reminder of the pain Nick associates with change. But you're also right that she embodies his inner female voice. So, basically, you hit the nail on the head!
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:23:53 +0000 UTCThank you, Nina! LOL - Jill is definitely a manifestation of Nikki's innate femininity. Or, more precisely, her version of POWERFUL and PROTECTIVE femininity. After all, Jill saved her twice. First from Davis, then from her punishment. I imagine Jill would be flattered... and / or weirded out! ๐ I'm really looking forward to showing more of Sandy! Thank you for commenting on the image. I was going for a very cinematic feel and was pretty proud of it! ๐
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-05 04:11:06 +0000 UTCFar out! I was so busy looking at Chapter 35 over and over again that I did not realise that you had released Chapter 36. My mind is still reeling, wow! You have done it again! The images you have created, the subtle and clever way they slowly develop snd shift and Nikki becomes more feminine and pretty as her dreams continues is so creative, movie like amazing. I also enjoy, love and still find it amusing the way you show Nikkiโs ongoing defiance and denial of the obvious. The way she still refers to and perceives her breasts as being โflabbyโ rather than conceding and acknowledging them for what they are, an attribute and feature that so clearly defines her current female status. I also love your the way you undertook the seque to reintroduce Sandy and a focus her ongoing story. Thanks Emory. Iโm sure I will be continue to unpack and further look at these images and the themes of this chapter, such psychological depth, and with all of the planting of subtle seeds change being put in place. I will look forward over the next few days to revisiting your wonderful work. ๐
Gemma
2023-08-04 04:37:26 +0000 UTCWhat an end of the episode, Nikki wakes up from a nightmare losing her feminine voice and realizes that she misses Sandy, I would miss such beauty too (looking at beautiful pinups). Email still written as Nick then maybe he misses Scott/Sandy?
Wojtek
2023-08-03 21:27:02 +0000 UTCI liked and very much agree with Nick/Nikki's inner dialogue, from his subconscious. What their dialogue is coming to say is that there is nothing wrong with being a kinder, gentler, more sensitive and caring person like he was before his forced feminization and putting himself in "his father's hands", and that having such attributes does not make you a weak person, on the contrary, that being confident in who you are yourself and loving yourself for who you are and taking control of your life without depending on the approval of others is what truly makes you strong...regardless of the wrapper you "inhabit". I think this dialogue is a very significant breakthrough for Nikki. I think she has realized that she was fighting the wrong battle, one that she has lost (her feminization), but that there are other, more important battles to fight (taking control of her life), with which she will succeed in winning the War. Sandy... wow! until page 21 of episode 36 of Halfsister season 2, she physically (I mean mainly her face), was not one of my favorites, from that milestone, she enters directly in my top 3, what a beauty! ๐
ckarya
2023-08-02 19:21:14 +0000 UTCI can also see Nikki going from QB on the football field to center halfback on the football (soccer) pitch. Once a competitive athlete, always a competitive athlete.
Wes Adams
2023-08-02 02:28:39 +0000 UTCWow Emory!!! You are amazing, those imaginary dialogues and those images (I wish I was in the middle of those two beauties on page 5 ๐) thank you!!! ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐๐
jam
2023-08-01 20:09:57 +0000 UTCI have always pictured Nikki back on the Football field... but as a cheerleader of course! Gosh I love the idea of her joining the cheer team to support her boyfriend xD
TheVampire
2023-08-01 16:09:11 +0000 UTCNikki you need to move back in with your mother. Take the wheel of destiny into your own hands and be the best girl you can be. Also dream cheerleader Nikki is beautiful!
Estacia
2023-08-01 15:00:42 +0000 UTCItโs fun that Jill is kind of assuming a similar role both in โreal lifeโ and in Nikkiโs dream!
Ella Cherry
2023-08-01 11:54:52 +0000 UTCMy darling muse, ever since I have stumbled onto your blog and especially since I started supporting your art, I know you never leave anything to chance. Everything is there for a purpose, so I am assuming you deliberately left Jill's castration scars as a symbolism of her metaphorical and mental pain Xu and Davis inflicted on her. Please reply and tell me if and why I'm wrong, or maybe I just missed something. Then I realized that this isn't ACTUALLY the real Jill. It's Nikki's inner female in Jill's form. Please reply and tell me if and why I'm wrong, or maybe I just missed some hidden symbolism.
Alex From the Tri-Cities
2023-08-01 11:42:09 +0000 UTCI love how her brainโs manifestation of her femininity is just Jill lol! I wonder how Jill would feel knowing that sheโs Nikkiโs version of pique femininity? Anyways, love the chap emory! you crush it like always!! Super glad to see Sandy too!! The still of her on the plane looks fantastic! beautiful shading and image structure! it was like it came right out of a movie! canโt wait to see how sheโs doing and christ i hope nikki ends up back at her momโs soon!
Nina
2023-08-01 07:04:45 +0000 UTC๐๐๐ See, Nikki's brain isn't so bad - she just doesn't use it too often. ๐คฃ She's more of a feeler than a thinker.
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-01 06:50:17 +0000 UTC๐๐๐ LOL - Yes! Nikki doesn't actually know Jill's backstory, so her Nikki brain made one up.
Emory Ahlberg
2023-08-01 06:49:18 +0000 UTCYES PLEASE NIKKI FUCKING LISTEN TO WHAT YOUR BRAIN IS TELLING YOU. Being a woman doesn't mean you have to be weak. You're bloody ripped, girl, lean into it.
Zoe Storm
2023-08-01 06:46:13 +0000 UTCOh my god oh my god. I'm reading in bed so I have to keep my reactions short but, Jill, the banker from Portland? Ahahaha. Nikki needs somehow to psychically communicate that vision to her. No, better yet, to Holly. And Sandy! Yes! Hi! Sandy plus funbags, confirmed ๐
Alyson Greaves
2023-08-01 06:34:39 +0000 UTC
