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Podcast E10: Youth and The Death of An Old Man

Hello everyone! 

This week I talk about a sad but profound moment with an old man who died later in the week and the social, sexual and professional disadvantage of being judged for being young. 

Enjoy. 

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Podcast E10: Youth and The Death of An Old Man

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I am so sorry to hear this. You and your husband sound like a wonderful couple and it's infuriating thay you may not have the future you envisioned. I wish I could do more than offer my support but it's all I have.

Ancilla L

I find comfort in the fact that I do not have to live forever. I will not live forever, and that is good.

Anne

Death has been on my mind a lot lately. My husband was diagnosed with cancer last year, and he's been on chemo since then, and this is the worst thing ever. I always think I want people to understand what I'm saying when I say this is the worst, but then I think I don't really want them to understand because I'm not a sadist and I don't want to inflict suffering on people. But I still want to reach out and be understood for some reason. So we'll just go with "this is very bad. Try not to get cancer.". I really thought we would be together into old age, and we'd be those really old people walking down the street holding hands but when I used to see those couples I'd think "how sweet" but now I see them and I get sad and angry that I can't have that. Background: my husband and I started dating when I was 16. We got married when I was 21 and he was 24. I am now 50. The cancer he has, they are not talking about a cure. Chemo isn't really working. My final goal in life and death was that we would both die together in a tragic blimp accident, having reached a ripe old age of 80-something. I do not know how to live without him. I do not want to go on without him. But I promised I would and I intend to keep that promise. One of the few things I find comfort in is the belief that the purpose of life is death. Without death (of people, animals, plants, everything) the world as we know it could not exist. Our cells become material for the next generation and thus everything can continue. The ant keeps striving just as importantly as anyone else, although it's life is so much shorter. The length is not important, just the living and the dying.

Anne

I am halfway through the podcast and then my kid came in the room and she talks a lot, so I have had to pause it and wait to listen to the rest. It is impossible to keep the kid from talking, and anyway I don't really want to. Anyway, I'm 20 years older than you, and what I remember about being young and in the job market was not that people didn't take me seriously but that I didn't have enough experience to get some of the jobs I wanted to apply for. All of them said "need experience" of this or that type and I didn't have it. Once I got hired, most of the people there were around my age and I never noticed any discrimination on age at all. It could be the difference in cultures or countries, or the industry you are in. Not really sure.

Anne


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