the story why i was silent and why my london trip was F*****!

hey everyone! how are you my lovely patrons!

im back from london now. and im here now in germany!. finally ! i miss cosplay and finally bought some new materials for my upcoming cosplay for katsucon.

story

yall know by now i went to london for a pageant. i havent done a pageant since 2014. and no plans of doing so anymore after i focused on cosplay. long story short. earlier this year i was convinced by some people to compete. by some people i mean the organizers of the event. they heard and knew about my pageant background. pushed me to join and promised a fair competition. for days they are messaging me and asking to compete and compete and promised a fair competition. after a week of convincing i said why not. and joined. little did i know the pageant was created for them to make money and for us to work for free and for us to be scammed.

i did talent night they fucked my song up but still managed to make it to 2nd place in talent. as i did finish my talent flawlessly. the talent winner deserved it. shes reallly good!.

i didnt do patreon for this competition. means my income on patreon was REAAAALLLY LOW! for november. with the understanding of many of u as i stated that i will just double rewards by dec. im able to compete and finish my costumes for the competition on time. i lost ALOT of money for not working and promoting patreon. little did i know that this will be a lesson i will learn and a waste of my time. and did get NOTHING other than a second placer sash, a cheap flower and a crown. and a miss photogenic award which is basically very deserving. I LOOK FUCKING BOMB ON THAT SHOOT!.

finals night i was excited. they were hyping it up. the placement of awards are awkward. i deserve atleast miss swimsuit but didnt get it. i answered the question flawlessly. the crowd loved me! and was cheering for me!. so despite me not bagging major awards i was confident to win. as the actual winner didnt answer the question completely. it was back to zero and i was confident i will win based on the final question and answer. low and behold im called 1ST RUNNER UP . the dismay on my face and dissapointment appeared on the photos. the winner never answered the question and OH! lets not forget she was last years emcee of the competition. so she worked for the charity that held the event.

now im fine with all that. 1st place not bad. i dont care its still the next best. im beautiful slay queen yes!.....and then.....they said theres no prize money for runner ups. just the queen itself and winner... WHAT?!!!!! they made us promote the show and did a show. make the girls sell tickets and all of that for NOTHING! nada as in i didnt get prize money at all... all that work for a crown i can buy in ebay!.

that affected my whole london trip. i felt tricked, used and played. i was talking to a lawyer as they basically scammed us. made us work for nothing then on the finals told us we aint getting prizes. thats fucked up man!.

so basically went to tinder so i can vent out on random people lol. coz im too embarrased to tell y friends who warned me about that pageant.

3 weeks n london 2 weeks upset. and realized i let my patrons down. i should have focused on my cosplay. but its not all bad. i met some great new people in london and rekindle a broken friendship. theres the silver lining. also realized that. i have to put my pageant life completely gone and focus on my love for cosplay.

the following weeks ill be responding to ur email. i have so much work to do. i feel like i let u down on this one. but the usual ill comeback strong. i always does!

also..i just got a warning on patreon about something breaking their guidelines which im not sure what. i think i have removed every naked stuff i have on high tiers ever after week. so im waiting for an email...

thank u guys for everything. i know its a lenghty message but. u have to know whats going on

thank u all for everything and i promise ill get back up to this. ur all my love. thank u so much