You know what, going to say 100% I am glad you aren't telling us exactly what Gabriel did. Why? Because right now, we know 2 things: Gabriel "forced him" to do something, ie not just did something to Aziraphale but made him do something. And 2, Gabriel includes "pain" as a thing an angel shouldn't feel, along with love.
Everyone is different. You give us those 2 parameters and say, what's the worst thing an authority figure could do to you in them and you'll get thousands upon thousands of different answers. The specifics don't actually mater because it's all about someone forcing us to do something without our consent. That's horrible.
Us finding out the details, it would be kind of like sitting around debating which murder is worse. (Additionally, we also must remember that these are preternatural creatures. They don't follow the same "rules" as us. Our relationship with them is metaphorical. They may not bleed if cut, but they are still characters. Likewise, you nor I can't "Fall" so we have to go through abstraction to get what they are worried about.)
All that being said, I am worried Aziraphale is rushing into something physical with Crowley/ Raphael. Sexual forwardness can be a result of trauma, a way to reclaim your agency and reaffirm that your consent matters. Hurt and abused people still absolutely have the right to consent but he's in a very fragile place.
Fern with Googley Eyes
2020-01-22 18:59:40 +0000 UTC
What did that bastard Gabriel do to Aziraphale???
Samara Lilly (Sandra)
2020-01-22 05:36:51 +0000 UTC
Just what did Gabriel do to him? Rape him? Is that why he needs Raphael to 'remove' Gabriel's taint on him? Gabriel should be thrown down immediately, instead of being in a position where he can abuse others without repercursions. And probably even get to decide who will be cast down. Maybe he already told/threatened A with doing that to Raphael...
Bobla Blubb
2020-01-22 00:59:43 +0000 UTC
God, this is so heartbreaking >< Just confirms that Gabriel is such a monster
CuddlyHawk
2020-01-21 19:45:27 +0000 UTC
Thank you!!!
Alice Rovai
2020-01-21 17:18:04 +0000 UTC
It’s beautiful work, Alice! Sweet and heart breaking! (Small English notes - C should be saying “that” is impossible, not “this” - knowing when to use - that vs this are hard in a foreign language, I still struggle with it in Spanish, my second language!)
Ariana Lipman
2020-01-21 17:08:05 +0000 UTC
Gonna fight Gabriel!
Emily West
2020-01-21 15:46:41 +0000 UTC
They are so tender...
egmon73
2020-01-21 15:37:26 +0000 UTC
*screams into The Vast* Half of me is like "YAAAAASSS! GLORIOUSLY EVIL AND TWISTED! WITH HURT/ COMFORT!" the other half is "NOOOOO! SOMEONE HUG AND PROTECT THEM!"