sighhh :(

TL;DR no tldr this time :p

Greetings users, i know that some just want the content and not me saying things, just the content not the person behind it i get it, but this time im here to share some thoughts

im not usually the type of zombie that goes on serious themes, or that "seems" to be unfriendly, i try to be kind and respectful to everyone, even with those that sometimes think they have the right to call me retard, even if they know nothing about me or my life n_o

each time, when i need to share the promos of rewards, this fear and anxiety comes, bcuz i dont know if the promos are actually going to have success on bringing one or two users that think my art is enough to support me, and of course... is going to put in alert this type of users that only want to leak them for the sake of leaking them

well it happenend, again xp

i knew, of course, that i would not be able to stop this when i decided to put the rewards in the feed again, but at least... waiting a few months... a few months guys...

the reason that i decided to put them back on the feed is bcuz doing it via external methods were actually being really complex and were affecting my life, but i explained that already...

you already know that i let you to share the rewards with your friends, in private, in private users, bcuz that is something that you can control without doing a direct damage to the artist

and still... thinking that making them public, on public sites... will be "ok" for you maybe... but you dont think the amount of time, effort, skills that takes to make each one of these pics, getting just destroyed in seconds...

sometimes the world of art is underrated bcuz it feels like something that can be done in a few seconds... or people that leak them bcuz not every artist do it for a work... well this zombie does :(

this zombie does this for a work, and the sad thing is... that i love it... i remake packs, try to do every detail on a pic, i pay for fonts, brushes, i try to see each series, movie, videogames each chara i work on is so the final result will have some sense, even do more rewards than i should do, just bcuz i just cant stop drawing... sometimes i just hate myself bcuz i crunch myself doing this knowing that, there is no way other people will understand that...

also i understand... i understand, that you cant support every artist in the world, its impossible, thats why i try to keep my prices low, try to make you to have access to all my rewards when you want, and of course, i myself make them public after a certain time pass

but all that is not enough, for this kind of users, there is no way i would know who is doing this all the time, and i really dont have plans to return to private links sharing, bcuz i know that would just affect my health again and im trying to love myself

i had the "luck" to live on a country were is so difficult to have a work, and for people that already is so old like me (999 yo) there is no chance to found one, and maybe i was cursed with this skills to make naked charas for your entertainment and mine, bcuz i like this... i actually like to make this content, i enjoy it... but... worked for me, i actually can buy my food, can pay my rent, bills, and manage to survive with just enough to the end of the month, a chance that not everyone around me have

with this im going to say, im not going to stop my actual methods to share the rewards or how things works here, this message is just ot make it clear how this kind of behavior is affecting not only me, but a lot of people that maybe are just using their only skill they have to survive in this already cursed world that makes things really difficult for eveybody

this past months were kinda... weird, tbh i am not in my best moments rn and i stoped sharing my personal stuff and being more silent on twitter too, and still life brings you more things to deal every day...

BUT

i am eternally grateful with the users that really believe in this zombie, and are supporting me bcuz you really like what i do, and what i have planned for the future

if still there is one that believe in my, i will continue until my body became dust, bcuz... i am a zombie of course n_o

this doesnt mean i will stop fighting against this behavior... cuz i know that eventually they will understand

i hope

but if this continues, then things will just be clear then, you just dont care about me or other artists, you are not doing "justice" bcuz i myself make my rewards public, you are just doing it bcuz you want to do it and thats all, u doesnt care if you are affecting someone, u doesnt care if this happens to you or someone you know, bcuz  there is no emphaty in you anymore.... thats all

so... well... lets continue, hopefully if they still want to do this kind of things... maybe wait some time, that i dont want to keep my works locked forever, but i also  want to live... and to live i need food X_X

remember to be kind to everyone

have a good day users

ZombieHK