Elysium July

Character Diary Entry: Dorian (Plague Doctor's Assistant) #2

Added 2025-08-15 14:47:11 +0000 UTC

Timeline: After Part 105: Doctor's Distraction

Dorian's Diary Entry:

"My life felt like it had been turned completely upside down. From the person I was before I met the children, to who I became when I took them in, and finally, to who I am now. It was all shaped by everything I’ve been through. If there's one person I owe everything to, it's (y/n). Without her/him, I wouldn't be where I am today. My hands wouldn't have healed on their own, which means the tavern would never have taken me in. And if it weren’t for her/him, the children and I might not have survived out there… we would’ve died horribly.

I know I probably shouldn't have offered her/him a place at the tavern, but I saw in her/his eyes how tired she/he really is. Maybe the doctor hasn’t noticed, but I have. I wanted (Y/N) to know there's somewhere else she/he can turn to. That she/he isn’t alone.

One thing I’ve come to realize is that in times like these, happiness feels like guilt. The tavern has treated me well. They've given me a roof over my head and a job that keeps me fed. My hands are healed, and for the first time in a long while, I feel... well. What more could a man ask for in times like these?

And yet, every time I feel a flicker of joy, guilt follows closely behind. How can I allow myself to be happy when so many are dying around me? In a world like this, it almost feels like happiness is a crime."