BC blog, 2/17

Hey all, I want to apologize.

First off, I should have the next Nora chapter out today.  Thank God.

However, I'm aware my productivity has slowed down.  Again.  I have lots of excuses.  I'm a newlywed, family is visiting, Anthem just came out...

But these are just excuses.  In the past, no matter what was happening, I still found time to write.

The truth is that I'm in a creative slump and have been since about Dec of last year.  I've been trying to work my way through it.  Like, I can still write, but it's like wringing juice from an orange that's already been drained.  My motivation is pfbbbt too.  The final product I create is still up to my standards, but getting there requires more time, more iterations, and makes me more tired.

A few author friends have offered to help, and I appreciate them, but I think this is something I need to just work through.  I'm hitting the wall hard, not giving up, and I'm confident I will break through.  One reason for that is I don't make excuses for myself...not serious ones, anyway.

If there were one reason I had to point to for all of this, I think I'd suggest the unseasonably cold, shitty winter.  I have always gotten seasonal depression, and this year has been a doozy.

Anyway guys, this is me, owning up for my shitty productivity lately.  A lot of you have been voting with your wallets, lowering your patronage or stopping altogether.  I've gotten the message, but I'm not sure there is anything I can really do about it for another week or two.

Until then, I will just keep trying to chip away at this massive anchor I have around my creativity and keep moving forward.  For everyone who is patient with me, thank you so very much.  For everyone who needs to take a break from Patreon, I totally understand.  No guilt.

-BC