DEIMOS ALPHA OF ALPHAS CH 47: Bare Your Soul To Me

WARNING :- This chapter contains heavy sexual content not suitable for young readers.

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"D-Deimos. Let me rest, my male." My words are moaned out as his thrusts increase with force. He seems to be in his own trance beast ruling man. He is lost within its bounds for I cannot get through to him.

The bedhead slams upon the wooden wall with the way he pounds me. This was no way one of gentleness and care but a ritual. It was a mating ritual. He let the beast hidden beneath the surface free to claim his female the way he wishes. He gave up full control.

Claws strike deep within the flesh of my hips as he enters me over and over again without stopping. The rain beats the earth outside the harsh wind carrying it inside through the open doors. My palms are weak as they carry my full weight.

My knees are not able to hold me up anymore and I lose balance sinking onto the mattress. Hooking his fingers under my hips he raises my ass in the air thrusting deep filling me up with his girth. My moans turn to screams with the way he takes me.

My body grows hotter with time a female in heat burning with desire to be filled up. He has been taking over and over for the entire day. Night has come and he still hasn't taken his fill hungry for more.

Fingers clutch onto the sheets as the sound of my ass smacking against his thighs echoes across the walls striking through the thunder. I can hear it all and it fuels the fire. My wolf panting as she lays belly up waiting for her male.

Tears of pleasure roll down my cheeks as soft whimpers leave my lips. "Deimos." I moan trying to get a glance of his emerald eyes that seem to be clouded by the seduction of my heat. This is what happens to males when their females go into heat and they mate. They lose all their senses.

His large palm grabs my ankle twisting my body to the side so I am facing him. I look down at his cock and my eyes widen. How? How is he still hard? He pumps it up and down preparing it again as I try to push him away, my palm upon his stomach. "W-Wait."

I am going to get eaten! He lets out a small growl of dislike grabbing me under my thighs pulling my body straight into him entering me again paying no attention to me. Shutting my mouth with the back of my hand I moan loudly as my walls stretch to fit him.

My calves lay upon his shoulders as he thrusts fast not allowing his cock to stay in a second longer as he comes back in for the after taste. Biting my lower lip, I look away closing my eyes drowning in the pleasure only for him to grab my jaw making my eyes meet his.

My eyes. They do things to him. They call him and seduce him to succumb to me. His eyes then move to my breasts that jump to his dance. Bouncing mounds take his attention. Tongue seeps out licking his lower lip as he swoops down taking a bud in his mouth.

Thrusts getting faster, deeper eyes closed he releases his seed with a groan. The condom taking spill after spill. Ripping the filled condom off his cock he throws it onto the pile of used condoms laying on the floor.

Deimos's hair is wet filled with sweat as if he just got out of the shower. His eyes leave mine searching for the next packet of condoms. "We used it all." I whisper panting chest heaving sweat rolling down my hot flesh. He watches their path down my stomach finally landing at my fluid dripping down my thighs.

We have messed up the bed well. As soon as we finished our swim he carried me here to take me both of us drenched. We have been going at it since morning non stop not taking a breather. My heat calmed a long time ago but he is still encaged by it.

His eyes swirl once more beast and man as one. Darkening ready to take their female again. "I have no energy left." I whine knowing what is going to happen. The thing I prepared for. He has no control. His mind isn't thinking, all he sees is me laying bare for him.

My scent is doing things to him and no male wolf can have control over that. I cannot wake him up. Saliva drips down his chin as he gazes at his artwork. A primal look. A look of a beast. He is lost. Picking me up placing me upon his lap so I straddle him.

I need to stop this. We have done it without a condom so many times yet he will pour his seed within me for he doesn't have control. It was bound to happen and he knows this. I can see his truth. But my wolf gives me no support to stop it encouraging me further.

Looking deep into my eyes he enters me in one fluid thrust eyes making love with the other whilst the bodies fuck. My mouth wide open I moan loudly feeling him for the first time today without the constraints of plastic.

My walls clench tightly around him as he snarls nipping my mark, fangs out ready to sink into flesh. Placing my palms on his shoulders I move trying to control the pace but he wishes none of that. Grabbing my wrists caging them to his chest he surges upward and I scream head thrown back.

Breasts smashed against his muscled chest my buds grow harder with the movement as they are played with every time he moves. Lightning strikes and thunder roars and so do I with pleasure.

"My female." He keeps whispering over and over mouth against my neck. Eyes closed he indulges in the passion. My thighs cage him keeping him still so he can pound deeper. His cock gets bigger within me and I know he is close and so am I.

Fangs out we are ready to mark what is ours. Grabbing his neck bringing his flesh closer I sink deep. A loud growl booms from his chest as his thrusts increase in pace. I have given him his final dose. Pulling my body closer he raises his hips with force.

Grabbing the back of my hair pulling down baring my neck to him. "Forgive me, my female." He whispers as his teeth sink into my neck with a deep pleasureful moan. The base of his cock swells as his seed spills deep into my core. I scream eyes widening with the new feeling.

Never have I felt something this intense, my core opens wide swallowing everything he has to give. He keeps thrusting until he has spilled every last drop. The fire within me finally departs and his beast finally gives way. Green eyes welcome me with a tired smile.

The pleasure dies a sudden death and gives birth to sharp pain. "Wait." I try to push him off me. He is still buried deep within me and refuses to move. A single movement sends arrows of intense pain to my core.

"D-Deimos what is happening? It hurts." I whisper tears welling in my eyes unable to take it. I hunch forward inhaling his scent trying to reduce its intensity. Deimos begins to rub my back softly still not extracting his cock from within me.

"Take it out!" I whimper as the pain increases and I begin to sob loudly. It feels weird nothing like the heat. It feels different. "I am scared." I whimper my face stuffed into the side of his neck.

Deimos rocks us back and forth. "Hush now my female. I cannot do so for I have knotted you. Remain still and it will be over soon." He whispers.

Knotted? What does that even mean? I whimper and whine in his arms for a few minutes until the pain subsides and I become comfortable. Deimos grabs me by my hips raising me slowly removing his cock from my core freeing us. His seed drips down my inner thighs as my core is unable to hold it all and I watch it slide down my legs.

Alpha males produce more seed during their females' heat so this is the first time for me to see this much. Caressing my cheek he leans down taking my lips. A soft and gentle kiss to end my first day of heat. His eyes swoop down watching his cum spill out of me.

Here comes the discussion that has been postponed over and over. But I change the subject quickly. "You said knotted? What was that?" I ask him for I was not taught of these things. Perhaps the healer did not teach me this assuming that I knew of it.

"It is an Alpha trait. It is usually done with low ranking wolves in heat but it can be done with mates as well." He replies.

"Do you have control over it and for what?" I question confused. I still do not understand why it is done.

"Yes, I have control over it but not when you are in heat. I couldn't control it today. It is done to improve the chances." He says meeting my eyes so I can see his truth.

"Chances of what?" I get up to a sitting position. He looks away first for a few seconds ad returns to meet my eyes.

"Pregnancy." He whispers.

Silence. Pin drop silence as tension sparks between us. We stare at each other drowning in our thoughts. My barrier is up, he cannot read me. Did I just hear him say pregnancy? He said he had no control of it today does this mean he was forced to do so? Does he want this?

"Lumina, I-" He begins but is cut off by the shrill sound of his phone's ringtone. He looks back at the phone laying upon the table and with a loud sigh whilst running his fingers through his hair frustrated he strides towards it picking it up.

"Did I not tell you to disturb me unless it was an emergency?" Deimos snarls to the wolf. I hear a scared apology as Deimos continues to engage in the conversation facing the open windows.

My ears tune out their conversation whilst my eyes land on my handbag. Gathering up every last drop of energy I have left I walk towards it, opening it and taking out the second pill. I need to do this. I can do this. I don't want to raise my expectations. I cannot change my mind now.

Taking the pill from its socket I quickly search for a glass of water. Deimos has his back turned to me so I need to swallow it down now before it is too late. I cannot seem to find it so I head to the kitchen. Taking big steps I rush before my male finds me.

Where are the glasses? Opening up all the cabinets in the huge kitchen, trying to find a single glass. Frustration and anxiety fuel my adrenaline. Cursing within I find a small pot laying upon the counter. "This will do." Filling it up with water clutching the pill tightly in my palm.

My heart pounds in fear of perhaps what I might be doing is wrong. As soon as it is filled I push it to my mouth ready to take in gulps and pop in the pill.

"Lumina?" He calls out to me and I drop the pot of water to the floor. The loud crash scaring me further. He rushes towards me, eyes filled with concern. "What are you doing, Lumina? You could have hurt yourself!" His voice reprimanding me.

I tremble beneath his gaze in fear he will see the pill I am hiding. He places his palm upon my cheek looking into my eyes. "Are you alright, my female?" He asks filled with worry.

"Yes I was thirsty and you scared me. I couldn't find any glasses." I whisper as he chuckles lightening up the mood.

"You could have told me so. Why did you run here like a little lamb? Must be a bad wolf chasing you." He utters with mischief walking to a small cabinet hidden in the corner, taking a glass out. Bringing it to the sink he fills it up with cold water to help calm the heat of my flesh.

He gives it to me and I quickly take it from him. I see the first hint of confusion in his eyes for I took the glass with my left hand. I never use my left hand. The second hint comes when he looks into my eyes and finds fear.

Paying not much attention to it he whispers with a kiss upon my head, "I will prepare the bath for us. Come after you are done." Walking past me he begins to leave as a sigh of relief passes through my lips. Turning my back to him, I take sips to calm my thirst still clutching the pill tightly in my right palm.

"Open your right hand, Lumina." Deimos speaks from behind me and I flinch eyes widening. My body begins to shiver and I know that he knows. I cannot hide anything from him. I have been caught.

Turning around slowly I face him. I have two choices here. I can lie or show my truth. "W-What?" I ask him.

Clenching his jaw, eyes upon my closed fist hiding behind my back. "Don't make me repeat myself. Open your hand." He says.

Placing the glass of water upon the counter my stubbornness surging forward. "I do not wish to." I say looking for a way to gulp it down. Time is ticking and I cannot waste any longer.

A snarl leaves his lips as he grabs my wrist with a crushing force banging me upon the counter. I fight him with every strength I have left and he overtakes me quickly. "Fuck the water." I whisper and thrust the pill into my mouth.

His eyes widen as he pushes his finger into my mouth making me gag. I begin to choke, my nails sinking into the flesh of his wrist scratching pushing him to let me go. But he doesn't and keeps searching within my mouth until he gets ahold of the pill before it could slide down my throat.

My chest heaves and I refuse to look at him. He analyzes the pill frowning confused as to what it is. "What the fuck is this?" He questions. He doesn't know whether to be concerned or furious. My answer shall guide him.

I can see the wheels turning within his head, his mind trying to deny his accusations. He wishes to know but he also doesn't in fear of the answer. Without another glance, he rushes into the bedroom. His are strides deep as his heel pounds the floor harshly with his fury.

I can feel the anxiety radiating from him in waves, such an uncomfortable feeling. In a few seconds, he returns with my handbag. As soon as he is near, he empties the contents upon the kitchen counter. I allow him to. I cannot fight the truth.

His fingers swipe through the contents until he finds the empty pill strip. He winces trying to read the label. With shaking hands, he struggles to find calmness. His eyes widen as soon as the label registers in his mind.

His hands shake further that he cannot seem to even hold the strip anymore as it falls to the ground. Tears well in my eyes as soon as he removes his barrier of the mind and I can read him like an open book.

"We usually provide this to our females who were raped. Am...am I raping you, Lumina?" He asks of his misunderstanding keeping his eyes forward not even glancing at me.

I shake my head as tears fall down my cheeks. I cannot face him. Shuffling closer to him trying to place my palm upon his flesh, he slaps it away not allowing me to do so. I can see the quiver of his lips, the heaves of his chest, and the tremble of his entire being.

"Why?" He asks. I cannot seem to answer him and I only do so by my whimpers. He eyes the strip upon the floor and finally looks at me to meet my eyes. "Where is the other pill, Lumina?" He questions.

I look down at my feet as silent tears fall. "I see." He says voice calm and collected yet I can feel the destruction I have done to him surging within.

"I-I h-had to." I whimper.

"Did anyone force you, Lumina?" He asks and I flinch to his tone quickly shaking my head in denial. "Then you didn't have to."

"I d-did it for u-us." I stutter hard unable to speak properly for his thoughts become mine. I want him to understand why I did it.

He doesn't meet my eyes again. "You knew I would not be able to help it but fill you with my seed so you came prepared, yes?" Another arrow to my heart and his.

"I-It is not like that, my male." I whisper. I want to hold him, to comfort him and explain but I cannot seem to, the guilt eating me out.

Clenching his fist trying to reign in the emotions that demand control. He takes a small step backward away from my warmth and I take a step forward bringing him back. "No I was wrong, I made you do this. I wasn't clear enough with you." He faces hate towards himself and disappointment towards me.

"Please." I beg but I do not know the reason why I am doing so.

"Do you know what would have happened if you swallowed the second one, Lumina? We might not have been able to have a pup for the coming years." He whispers taking another step back.

"Deimos." I whimper trying to get closer to him as he takes steps backward.

"Let's pray that the first pill you have taken doesn't harm your body. I am going to take a shower." He whispers turning around heading inside as I slide down to the ground sobbing my heart out.

My heart hurts, the pain of his and mine together as one. I can feel it. Doubt consumes me, it isn't mine but his. I can feel his barriers rising once more blocking me completely from his thoughts. Why couldn't I just open my mouth and explain?

With small steps, I walk towards the bedroom my wolf providing her strength to carry my worn-out body. As soon as the bed comes into view I throw myself upon it curling into a ball afraid of what destruction my decision would bring within us.

Picking up the phone I call Elriam. I need help. She picks up after the first ring. "Alpha? Is everything alright?" She questions tone on the edge of concern. Clamping my palm across my mouth I try to hide my sobs.

"I-I did s-something. I think he hates me now." I whisper.

"He can never hate you no matter what you do. You are his female, Alpha." She replies calmly trying to calm my fear. The only male I ever talk to her about is my male and she knows this.

"I took it." I say quickly like a clean strike of a sword. No hesitation with her.

"Took what?" She asks not understanding what it is I am saying.

"I-I took a birth pill." I say. A sudden gasp of surprise and silence follows for she doesn't speak a while registering my words in her mind.

"Oh goddess, what have you done Alpha?" She says as her voice begins to shake.

"I thought it was the best solution. I was wrong, it harmed the both of us." I reply controlling my emotions.

"How many did you take?" She questions.

"One. Just one. Deimos stopped me before I could swallow the other." I respond. A sigh of relief passes her lips.

"As soon as you return we need to check the effects of it on your body. I shall pray tonight that it hasn't harmed your future." She whispers. A click of the bathroom door and I know he is returning.

"I need to go. I shall call you later." I utter quickly cutting the call. He enters in drying his hair with a towel whilst another covers his bottom torso.

I get up into a sitting position watching him like a predator. Analyzing his every move, every reaction. My eyes follow him as he grabs some clothes for the night from the suitcase. He neither glances at me nor speaks to me.

As soon as he is dressed he comes towards me. Palms under my armpits he lifts me so I can wrap my legs around his waist. I hug his shoulders nose against his neck as small whines of apology are let out from my lips.

Carrying me inside he places me softly into the tub filled with warm water. Pumping some shampoo in his hands he massages my scalp with utmost gentleness. I wish to talk to him but I don't as I feel the tension radiating from him.

Lathering me up with soap he picks up the hand shower and washes me from head to toe. His way of taking care of his female. Is he not angry? Or is he hiding it from me? Why have I not met face to face with his fury or pain?

As soon as I am washed my male picks me up wrapping me in a soft towel so I am kept warm. "Get dressed. I will make dinner." Is all he says as he walks out of the bedroom without another glance. He is warm but cold at the same time to me.

Whilst he makes dinner I keep my distance from him. There is no laughter or any kind of talk for that matter only a cold silence. Each burning with their thoughts.

Dinner is quiet. We sit apart from each other I try to make small talk but he answers are frank and short. My heart breaks with the way he is with me and I know my decision broke his too. I don't seek him anymore giving him the distance he wishes.

Whilst I am munching on the leftover bomboloni that he made, Deimos cleans up the kitchen preparing the ingredients for tomorrow's meal. I wait for him patiently sitting on the sofa watching the raindrops roll down the windows.

The rain is yet to stop, the storm seeing no end. It has poured the entire day and still is doing so. "I am going for a run." He says zipping up his jacket. I quickly kneel on the sofa turning around to face him.

"N-Now? It is raining." I whisper.

"It doesn't matter." He says striding towards the door.

"Do you want me to accompany you?" I ask him meekly as he shakes his head in denial.

"No, I wish to be alone for a while." And with that, he walks as the main door slams shut behind him.

Silence envelopes the entire house and my wolf lets out a small whine. She is unhappy and so am I. I don't want to be separated like this. I don't like this at all.

Time ticks and I wait patiently on the sofa my eyes glued to the door. A small sound would have my attention. Hours have passed and he is still to return. The rain hasn't stopped yet and I fear perhaps he isn't going to return. Tears well in my eyes as I try to deny it.

The doorbell has me springing to my feet dashing to the front door banging the door open. "Deim-" I begin to call my male's name but stop when my eyes find another male from Giovanni's pack. He bows as soon as he sees me.

"Luna Lumina." He greets with a smile. I nod in acknowledgment covering myself with the blanket tighter. My wolf disliking the fact that there is another male present during our heat. "I was ordered last week to give this to you today at midnight stroke." He whispers handing me a bouquet.

Confused I take it from him wondering from who it could be. Had Elriam sent it to make me feel better? "Have a good night." He says with a smile bowing and strides back to his car.

Inspecting the flowers I head to the kitchen counter so I can place it in a vase. My eyes find a letter hidden beneath the petals and I quickly pluck it out opening it to have a read.

To my light,

I am not so good with words so I thought I would write what often swims in my mind. All my life I had never felt true warmth or love rather I did not even know the meanings they possessed, then I was blessed with you. With your soul. Something I truly do not deserve. You showed me. What it is like to feel it. To possess these feelings that are out of this world. I wish to share these feelings, my female. Not with just you but with a life we create together.

I want to have a pup with you, Lumina. I wish to start this journey with you. There is no one for me but you. Always and forever.

Your male,

Deimos

Loud sobs leave my lips as tears blur my vision. He had wanted to tell me today. He had wanted to surprise me. He wants this, he had always been wanting this with me. I was wrong, I was so very wrong.

The sound of the door opening has me running to him. I know he is home. As soon as he sees me his eyes are filled with concern thinking something went wrong. I jump, my legs clamped around his waist. Hands around his neck lips upon his throat.

I kiss his forehead, his eyes, his nose, his cheeks, and lips. I slather my kisses all over his face pecking him as loud wails leave my lips. His palms are underneath my bum holding me up carrying me as if I were a pup.

"I am sorry. It is my fault. I didn't know. I was scared for our future. Please forgive me." I keep whispering these words between sniffles and sobs over and over again. Grabbing the back of my neck pulling me forward he has his lips on mine taking my mouth in a harsh kiss, fangs sinking into my flesh tongue thrust deep into my warmth.

"Never hide from me again, Lumina. Bare your soul to me." He commands eyes burning in fire and I submit to his words.

A/N

Wohoo! Longest chappy I have ever written :) A small treat for the StarMoon Pack! Sad chappy I know but don't worry the next chappy will be happy. Make sure to comment my little wolves. Love you all!

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