Appreciation

I’m not a big thanksgiving guy but I do want to say that the biggest thing I’m grateful for this year is all of you. My antidepressant withdrawal doom spiral and ongoing recovery doesn’t take away from what happened earlier this year; I put out my first massively successful book, I got an audiobook contract, and I went from a d-lister to a much bigger name in the space after a long, long time struggling upstream to get there. None of that would’ve happened if not for you guys, my biggest supporters, giving me your reviews, spreading the word, and funding me here on Patreon. I can’t express how thankful I am for that no matter how I try.

As of now, I’m hopeful about my recovery for the first time in months. If you didn’t see me mention it I upped my antidepressant dosage like 3 days ago, and I’m starting to get moods feeling better than I’ve felt in years. I haven’t tried writing yet since upping it but we actually might be getting to the light at the end of the tunnel here. Just going to give it more time to stabilize first.

That and I want more time with my midlife crisis inspired Dragon Quest obsession. Almost done with the main story of 4 and I can’t wait for the postgame and especially to move onto 5, the most beloved one by Japan. I’ve always loved DQ but it’s turning into an autistic hyper-fixation.

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For real, though. Thank you for supporting me this year and thank you for being patient with me in the time since. It hasn’t been easy between my Aunt dying and suffering through the biggest self-induced mental health fuckup of my life, but I know things will be getting better from here. I’m never going to mess with my medication like this ever, ever again...

I can’t think of a good way to end this blog because my gummy just kicked in and I’m high as fuck right now so I’m just going to let you laugh at me while I say thanks again lmao