WWYK 3.2

Whew, that one went by pretty fast I think. Really wiped out now, though. Would appreciate more feedback regarding Shizuka and such.

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Chapter 2 - Connecting and Reconnecting

The contrast in Shizuka’s physique was even more pronounced now that Nate was freely feeling her body up. Beneath her sweater, his hands ran along her noticeable tummy on the way to her tits. Everywhere he touched was unbelievably soft, but the biggest surprise of all was waiting for him right as he cupped each breast and groped.

Shizuka wasn’t wearing a bra, and Nate’s hands sunk into her flesh. She made a little noise that indicated pleasure, or so he hoped but allowed himself to savor the moment. They were bigger than Nicki’s, likely a pair of e-cups if he had to guess. Whereas Nicki’s were firm and bouncy despite their size, Shizuka’s hung lower and were more marshmallowy to the touch.

This information would help him a lot as a writer, and he was thankful for the opportunity to grope his second pair of tits- a feeling made all the better considering who they belonged to.

“You really did come prepared…”

“I didn’t see much point in putting on something that would only get in the way…”

“That confident I couldn’t resist temptation?” Nate intended to make good on the whole ‘venting his frustrations’ thing, so he punctuated his question with a rougher grope. His hands dug into her flesh harder than he meant to, causing Shizuka to squirm from the slight pain and press her ass down on his erection more firmly.

“I… I just wanted to be prepared…” Shizuka gasped. “God, this is different than I thought it would be…”

“In what way?”

“Many, but… mainly how good it feels when you’re rough with me like that…”

Nate caught a funny tone in her voice that perked his eyebrow. He needed to test something, so he circled his fingertips around the circumference of her breasts before roughly taking hold of them like they were two big udders and pulling. “Like this?”

Shizuka leaned back into him and uttered a whimper of confused delight. “Yes…”

“And this?” Nate changed tactics, taking her nipples between his fingers for the first time. Rather than giving them light affection or a delicate touch, he went for a half-serious twist and pinch. It earned him another cry, more ass-grinding, and an answer.

“Yessss, that too…” Shizuka’s voice was shaky as she further sank into Nate’s touch. “I had already gathered you had a sadistic streak, but I didn’t believe I would see it bubble up to the surface so soon…”

“Were you not just telling me to use your body like a stress toy and take out eight years of frustration on you? Because I’m pretty sure this is what you wanted.” Nate pinched again, this time harder.

“It is!” Shizuka actually jumped up from her seat slightly after that one, landing right back on his lap with decent force. “Ah, it… it really is, Nate…”

“I’m starting to think this was less about me taking out my frustrations and more about you wanting me to have an excuse to rough you up…”

Shizuka briefly looked over her shoulder, giving Nate a look at her flushed face, half-lidded green eyes, and lush, parted lips. “Do you… dislike this side of me that enjoys being bullied?”

On the contrary, Nate was scared of how much he loved it. His compulsion to follow his desires doubled down upon seeing the nigh-masochistic expression Shizuka wore, and he could only tell the truth.

“How could I?” Nate scoffed. “You better keep your voice down, though. We don’t want to wake up your boss and get you fired.”

“That won’t be an issue,” Shizuka looked away. “Not after what I put in her coffee.”

Nate stared at the girl on his lap for several seconds before asking, “Shizuka? Did you seriously drug your boss on the off chance that this happened? Please tell me you didn’t slip her a-”

“It was just one of my father’s sleeping pills…” Shizuka insisted.

“And that makes it better?”

Shizuka blinked. “Doesn’t it? It’s not like I do this all the ti-AHN!” Her body quivered and flinched as Nate clamped down on her nipples mid-sentence harder than any of the times he’d done before.

“Don’t drug your boss, you idiot!” Nate sighed in disbelief. “God, I can’t believe I even have to tell you that. You were always overly reliant on me, but to think you’ve fallen so low without my advice…”

“I’m sorry…” Shizuka sucked in air through her teeth as the pressure in her nipples translated to pleasure elsewhere in her body. “It’s true… I… I relied on you for so much, and my life has been catastrophically worse without you…”

Shizuka was unintentionally appealing to his resentful side that wanted nothing more than to hear how helpless she was without him, so with his interest spurred on, Nate leaned in and bit down on her earlobe after whispering, “Go on. Tell me more.”

Shivers surged down her spine, and her body shook like gelatin at his aggressive action. “N-No one is there for me to remind me about the important things I need to do anymore… no one makes sure I don’t trip over my own feet or keeps me from walking into walls when I’m not paying attention to my surroundings, and no one helps me when I get lost in unfamiliar areas, either, for that matter…”

“What about Nicki?”

“Nicki does help me with some things, yes, but…” Shizuka got quiet and nuzzled her ass back into his groin. “No one is as good at looking out for me as you are, Nate. Not even her. I’m a codependent person, and I wasn’t aware of how nice I had it until it was too late…”

This was precisely why Nate didn’t want to go down the ‘venting frustrations’ route because now he was getting overly into it. Petty feelings rose to the surface of his mind, and he couldn’t stop himself from expressing them. “Maybe you should’ve appreciated me more, then.”

Nate opened his mouth wide and bit down on her neck through her sweater’s collar, getting the loudest yelp out of her yet. He didn’t care if it woke up the librarian or nor. He really put some force into it and hoped it left a mark.

“Ah- I… I should’ve! I really should’ve, and I’m sorry I didn’t…!! I promise I will from now on, so please… ngh…!!” Shizuka cried, though in her voice was that same funny tone he had picked up on earlier.

This was going beyond the realm of her enjoying getting bullied, and Nate was starting to have a more overt grasp on her sexual proclivities. He had to say something about it.

“Shizuka, you wouldn’t happen to be a masochist, would you?”

“W-What…?”

“I’m asking if you don’t just like it when I’m rough, but if you enjoy the pain and humiliation that comes with being a submissive.”

“I’ve… always enjoyed such material when it crops up in your books, and I may have sought out other examples in pornography and hentai for my own enjoyment, but I’ve… I’ve never explicitly tested it on myself…”

Nate yanked her nipples away from her body and held them there without the intention of letting go. “Here’s a test, then. Thoughts?”

“Haaaa-” Shizuka cried and shut her eyes tight. Her voice got stuck in her throat thanks to the pain, and when it finally got out, her words were sloppy and rushed. “Yes… yesss, that’s ahhh- d-definitely d-doing something for me…”

“I figured as much,” Nate grinned and let go, giving her a moment’s reprieve. “How shameful.”

Shizuka gasped for air as the pain subsided, only to be hit with the aftershock and the subsequent stinging that radiated out from her nipples and neck. She mashed her thighs together and panted.

“I-I’m not ashamed of being who I am… and… and besides, you’re into girls like that. Masochistic women feature in your stories incredibly often, so it’s just another reason as to why we should be together…”

It felt great to hear her pleading with him like that, and her open admission of her submissive tendencies was music to Nate’s ears. He realized he had a lot of power over her, and Nate wanted to make the most of it to get her to say even more exciting things.

“Any specific examples from my books that you liked? Go on, tell me.” Nate used an authoritative voice and growled the command into her ear.

Shizuka loved how he ordered her around, and she had a compulsion to naturally follow everything he said unquestioningly, so it wasn’t long until singing like a bird.

“In Tales of Tails, I enjoyed the scene where the Chief forcefully tied up and blindfolded his new mates and roughly bred them to propagate their clan, especially the way you described him fucking them so hard it hurt and made them unable to walk afterward…”

Nate bucked his hips up into Shizuka and groaned to show his satisfaction. “Is that something you’d want me to do to you? The bondage? The blindfolding? The breeding?”

“I’m… ah… unsure about the breeding part on anything but a conceptual level, but I wouldn’t mind the rest so long as it was you…”

“Any other examples?” Nate’s right hand slid down from Shizuka’s breast, dipping past her skirt and invading the sensitive area he’d left behind. His middle fingertip brushed down her clit in time with another strategic pinch on her nipple, her body thanking him for the heavy petting by quickening her breath.

“Y-You’re putting me on the spot…” Shizuka whined, her hands seeking Nate’s to rest atop them and keep them where they were. “There are too many to choose from, and as good as my memory is, all this t-teasing is affecting my recollection and ability to multitask…”

“You’d better figure out two more examples if you don’t want me to leave you like this and go home.” Nate’s serious tone was convincing enough to persuade Shizuka into thinking this was a legitimate possibility, so she shut her eyes, bit her lower lip, and racked her brain for something to say.

“Yes, Nate… there was… um… ah, in Pecking Order, I brought myself to climax with great ease d-during the scene where Harvin commands Elya to punish Cieti with a strap-on, only to join in halfway and… ngh… I believe the way you put it was something along the lines of ‘savage both of her holes’…”

That one piqued Nate’s curiosity for obvious reasons. It also made his cock throb for equally obvious reasons. “Interesting. You wouldn’t happen to be-”

“I… I don’t know,” Shizuka cut him off. “It could have been the idea of the scene itself and not so much that there was another girl involved, or that could just as well have had something to do with it. Hard to say. It’s not something I care about enough to explore…”

“Either way, it’s exciting to think about. I think you’d look good shoved between me and Nicki, but I’m a little biased…”

“I would do it, Nate,” Shizuka gulped and squeezed his hands tighter. “If it made you happy, I’d do anything.”

Her loving words compelled Nate to give her some more service, so he did something new and pinched down on Shizuka’s clit using a medium amount of pressure. She predictably moaned at the overwhelming sensation, but the agony Shizuka experienced only stretched on as he didn’t stop and applied continual force on her sensitive pleasure button.

“You can make me happy by finishing up and giving me the last example, then. Unless you want this to stop?”

“N-No, don’t stop, please, don’t stop…” Shizuka was begging him over the simplest threat, and it was hard not to feel a rush of power at that. Her hips trembled from the painful pleasure of her pinched clit, and her neck fell back for a moment to rest on Nate’s shoulder. “Ah! I have it! T-There was the scene in Hucow Rancher Life where Beatrice had to undergo drastic physical therapy to improve her milk flow…!”

Nate was slightly stunned to hear that one, partially because he thought it hadn’t aged well and was a little too rough- even for him. “The part where Rancher John hung her wrists from the barn ceiling and smacked her tits raw with a riding crop?”

“Yes…” Shizuka admitted with a groan, knowing how lewd it made her sound. “I… mn… could physically feel each and every smack as I read the passage, each one making me wetter and wetter… it was all v-very confusing, especially to find out that you were excited by such degenerate activities…”

“By the sounds of things, you really don’t have the right to criticize me.” Nate let go of her clit, giving her a moment of peace to celebrate her having followed his command.

“I-I wasn’t criticizing you… only stating how surprising it was to discover that for as close as we were, I never truly knew you…”

“You weren’t a massive pervert behind the scenes, too?”

“Not at the time…” Shizuka’s meek voice squeaked out. “I wasn’t very conscious of sex in high school…”

“Yeah, I guess that tracks…” Nate sighed.

“I’m sorry I used to be so… naive, Nate, and I’m sorry I hurt you because of it. While I’m unfortunately still the same difficult person in many regards, at least I can say that’s one area where I’ve grown by leaps and bounds in the time we’ve been apart…” Shizuka looked over her shoulder, revealing the distant expression she wore. “I’m not as pretty or as sociable as Nicki, but I’m just as dedicated to helping you become a better writer and helping you live out your fantasies as she is. I am yours, in whatever sense you want that to mean.”

Nate didn’t know how he was supposed to take that. Despite her soft, flat voice, the emotion was evident, and Shizuka's sheer adoration for him threatened to overwhelm his heart. It made him experience a different sort of feeling than whenever Nicki expressed her love. Nicki’s was casual, comforting, and at times intense, whereas Shizuka’s was laser-focused and firm.

As an author of harem erotica, Nate often wrote and fantasized about how it felt to be loved in different ways by different women. Now he could add this topic to the growing list of things he’d actually experienced, and as the running theme dictated, it was more powerful than he’d dreamed. More addicting, too, and it was yet another reason he was scared of progressing too fast with Shizuka before he had time to properly process these feelings.

Nate’s libido had other plans, however. Unpacking all of this could come later. He suddenly grabbed Shizuka by her hair, pulling her neck back so he could look down on her in her sloppy yet adoring state.

“Are you really so desperate for my forgiveness?” He asked.

“I apologize if I’ve failed to make that as clear as possible, but yes…”

“No, you’ve made it pretty clear… it just feels like you might also have some ulterior motives on top of that.”

Shizuka gulped, and Nate saw the lump in her throat rise as she did. Despite what looked like hesitation, she owned up to it without further prodding. “The ulterior motive is not really all that shocking, I would think. I wanted this to happen… all of this. I wanted forgiveness and to fix our relationship, but I also hoped you would fuck me today. Does it make you happy to hear that?”

Nate considered the question. It did make him happy- overjoyed, even- though his doubts about what all of this would be like when it was over remained strong. Rather than expressing these thoughts, he gave Shizuka a stern answer that he expected a masochist like herself would appreciate.

“I guess. You should be thankful I’m even doing this with you at all, though.”

Shizuka’s emotionless exterior cracked long enough for Nate to see the corner of her lips lift up in an inappropriate grin. “I’m very thankful. Beyond thankful, even. It means the world to me that you would want to use my body in spite of everything.”

Her hushed, suggestive words practically screamed to Nate that it was okay to eat Shizuka alive and devour her, so he continued petting her pussy at a reasonable speed and mixing in playful pinches to her pretty pearl. “I could’ve been using it for years now if you hadn’t run from me…”

“I know,” Shizuka’s voice shook, as did her hips. “I know, and I’m sorry, Nate.”

“No. Not yet, you’re not. You’ll be really sorry after I’ve fucked you, and you’ve gotten a taste of what you’ve been missing out on.”

The very thought was so stimulating that Shizuka whined out loud and drifted off as she remembered how fast and hard Nicki was getting it in the sex tape. That would be her any minute now, she realized. Her whining increased in volume as he played with her slit, now reaching peaks that began to worry Nate.

“You’re getting too loud,” he warned. Then, he took his hand from her lower body and shoved the fingers he was using to poke, pinch, and prod at her into her mouth. “Nod if you understand.”

Shizuka nodded and made a slight gagging sound as Nate slid back his fingers. He was met with resistance on the way out. She sucked down on him, cleaning her pussy juice off his fingers, and breathed a sigh as they passed her lips.

“I can’t believe you,” Nate shook his head at her, adopting a serious tone again. “You expect me to believe you got this dirty just because you read all my books? I don’t buy it.”

“D-Don’t you remember what I said about rabbit holes…? Your books introduced me to concepts lewder than I knew existed, and I traveled down the erotic content pipeline to discover I had an affinity toward hentai manga and JAVs…”

“But you’re still ultimately blaming me for your perversion when it comes down to it?”

“No… but… it’s just a fact that I wouldn’t be like this if it weren’t for Nicki introducing me to your books. I didn’t use to touch myself, I rarely thought about sex, and…”

“It kind of feels like you’re trying to guilt me into taking responsibility.” Nate clicked his tongue.

“Again, no…” Shizuka made a noise implying she was disgruntled, and then frowned. “That’s what I’m trying to do… but… if you wanted to take responsibility, I’ve been… ah… ready to go for a while now…”

“Have you, now?”

She looked back at him, confused. “Yes? You’ve felt as much yourself, I-”

“Show me.”

“…What?”

“Stand up and show me how ready you are.”

Shizuka froze on the spot as her brain registered how to take Nate’s newest command. It took her a few seconds to parse it out, primarily because of how surprised she was, but she figured out what he might want before too long. She gulped at what she was about to do, but the nerves made her as excited as they did nervous.

Standing up from Nate’s lap, Shizuka bent forward slightly, reaching under her skirt using both hands. She found the edges of her panties, slowly peeled them down her thick thighs, and stepped out of them. Now holding a pair of panties she didn’t know what to do with, she cross-referenced her mental databank to recall that men happened to quite like used panties and silently tossed them over her shoulder for Nate to catch.

He caught them, but he was soon taken off guard by an even bigger surprise. Shizuka bent even more forward and raised her skirt, exposing her bare ass to Nate along with her dripping pussy. She was so beautiful that it almost beggared belief. Her ass was so fat and wide that it was a shame Nate couldn’t spank it as hard as he wanted to right then and there, and then there were her lower lips and pink petals just crying out for attention.

Everything he saw was perfect, and maintaining composure was a tall ask.

“T-There… I hope that’s proof enough that I’m ready for the next step, Nate…”

“I don’t know…” Nate tried to sound impassive and not like he’d been hypnotized by the combined sight and smell of feminine arousal. “Hard to tell like this. You should spread yourself out and really show me.”

Though Shizuka was a total masochist and enjoyed the humiliating sensation of showing herself to the man she loved for the first time, she was in an uphill battle with her anxiety every step of the way. Not that she could let him know that. She was trying to win him over, not scare him away with how high-maintenance she was.

It took a few seconds of fighting with her nerves before her desires won out against her fears. Shizuka wanted to show off for him, especially since Nate seemed to thoroughly enjoy what he saw. That alone was a vast enough boost to her confidence to get her to do just about anything.

Shizuka grabbed both her ass cheeks and looked over her shoulder to watch Nate react as she spread herself apart. He was transfixed, completely and utterly. She could feel his eyes staring at her tight, unused pussy and gouging into her exposed asshole, just as she could feel herself getting wetter for him the longer she stood there.

“How about now, Nate…?” Shizuka asked, her breath so steamy it was fogging up her glasses. “Can you see how wet I am after everything you’ve done to me? How ready I am for you to shove yourself inside like you’ve always wanted?”

“I sure can,” Nate idly nodded, still in awe but trying to remain dominant. “You shameless little librarian.”

“T-That’s me, I suppose…” Shizuka squeaked out an agreement. “Your shamelessly slutty librarian, ready and waiting…”

Nate couldn’t let her be the only one to show off. He saw how intently she was staring back at him and took advantage of the fact to unzip his fly and unbutton his jeans. Reaching into his underwear and opening up the hole in the front, he threaded his cock through it and sighed in contentment now that his length was free from its tight confinement.

Much better.

Shizuka’s eyes widened as big as her glasses. “Oh, dear. That’s… significantly larger than it looked on my phone...”

Nate smiled to hear it and started stroking his cock, enjoying the much-needed hands-on attention. “Don’t tell me you’re scared after how hard you pushed for this to happen. I thought you wanted to have sex with me?”

“I do. There’s nothing I want more in the entire world, but… will that huge thing really fit inside me?”

“Not at first.”

“Ah…” Shizuka gulped at the implication. They were going to have to make it fit, and it wasn’t going to be pretty. She’d read enough of his stories, consumed enough hentai, and watched enough JAVs to know this was where she was supposed to tell him to treat her gently- but those words didn’t pass her lips, and Shizuka didn’t intend to say them.

Shizuka was excited at the prospect of how rough this would be, and Nate knew it. She watched him stroke his cock repeatedly to the sight of her spread cheeks and pussy, made even more arousing by the fact that someone could’ve walked in and seen her since she was standing right there in the open.

“Geez, try not to look so excited…” Nate teased. A lot of his hesitation and doubts were long gone at this point, totally swept away by his libido. The only thing he cared about was getting a taste of the fruit dangling before him that he’d longed for since freshman year of high school.

“It’s not as if I can help it,” Shizuka pouted. “My body and mind are primed for you to take me, and the anticipation is making it so much worse than it needs to be. However we’re going to do this, just… please do it soon…”

Nate had half a mind to get started right then and there, but he shockingly still possessed enough foresight to ask, “What about birth control? Nicki and I don’t use- well, I guess you already know we don’t use condoms, and I didn’t bring any because I wasn’t expecting any of this to-”

“We’re good on that department…” Shizuka pronounced. Even if they weren’t, she was so aroused she probably would’ve lied about it just to get Nate’s fat cock inside her already. The tension was driving her mad.

“Alright,” Nate grabbed her by her belt, pulling her closer as he angled his cock upwards at just the right angle. “I’m really gonna do this.”

“So do it. Please. I don’t want to waste any more time.”

“I will. I’m just about to.”

“Nate…”

“Any second now…”

She caught on to his game and looked over her shoulder. “Is this really the time for that? Now? When we’re so close to the finish li-”

Nate pulled down on her belt like it was a handlebar. Shizuka didn’t have much strength to resist, but her arms quickly latched onto the chair’s to stop her from descending at full force. Her bare ass fell enough for his cock to sink straight inside her pussy up to the first two inches, shattering her barrier and forcing his way through.

“MN- O-Oh my god, I… I…” Shizuka’s jaw fell, her vision blurred, and her glasses fell off her nose. “It... hurts... it hurts so much...” For as serious as her words were, she announced them in a cold, detached manner.

“I hope it’s not too bad because you pushed me so far that I can’t stop myself even if I wanted to…” Nate growled out from the pleasure he felt from piercing the second pussy of his life.

It was too soon to compare with Nicki’s, but the ridiculous tightness alone, combined with the many years worth of unresolved sexual tension, threatened to make him shoot off a load much sooner than he would’ve liked if he didn’t focus.

“It’s… it’s fine… I know how this goes… it hurts until it doesn’t, so you just… mn… need to get me to the point where it stops hurting, and… and then everything will be alright… it’s not even that bad right now, anyway… in fact… it’s rather…”

“Seriously, Shizuka? Are you really that much of a masochist?” Nate looked at her with suspicion, and the neurotic girl became embarrassed at the suggestion.

To take some heat off of herself, Shizuka made the next move and raised her hips of her own volition, dropping them down the same length as before. Nate was so big that if she didn’t keep holding herself up, she would fall straight down, tearing her in half. Though she often made poor decisions, Shizuka was wise enough not to give in to the voice in her head telling her to do precisely that.

Nate let out a cute noise that she recognized from the video. He’d made lots of little moans like that for Nicki, only now they were happening because of her. Shizuka was proud of that little victory, but it wasn’t anywhere near enough.

“You can start moving any time now…” she suggested.

“I don’t know,” Nate observed how she hovered over him and bounced on his cock for the first time. A cruel idea came over him, and he knew it was too good to pass up. “You’re the one who was so desperate for us to rush past the part where we sort out all of our history, so if making things up to me is really that big of a deal to you, I think you should be doing most of the work.”

Shizuka looked back at him in disbelief and with a twinkle of masochistic glee in her eyes. “N-Nate, I can’t hold myself up like this for long… I’m weak, and my arms are flabby…”

“Yeah? Then I’d suggest you loosen yourself up enough so that it doesn’t hurt when they give out.” Nate bluffed.

He wouldn’t actually let Shizuka hurt herself if it came to that, and this gambit wasn’t even something he was sure he could keep up for all that long. The temptation to start fucking the shit out of her wasn’t something he could fight off forever. He just wanted to make things harder for her because he felt petty- something he might've recently picked up from Nicki.

But Shizuka didn’t know that.

She thought Nate was dead serious, and he felt her virgin pussy tighten around his first few inches like a vise in a mix of fear and sexual arousal. Shizuka went to work without another word, biting down on her lip.

She forced herself up and down on his cock, feeling it burrow a little deeper each time as her arms kept supporting her body weight without any help from Nate, who may as well have been a king relaxing on his throne for how little work he put in. The only ‘help’ he gave was tucking in the back of her skirt to her belt, which was purely so he could enjoy the show without it getting in the way.

It hurt immensely as she forcibly impaled herself, but Shizuka had settled into a steady rhythm back and forth, and it was getting easier with every stroke. She was constantly moaning, sighing, and vocalizing her pleasure, but Nate hadn’t made much noise after the initial insertion. That made her paranoid. She wasn’t going fast enough- wasn’t going deep enough.

He wasn’t bored, was he?

It didn’t help that his sex tape with Nicki was permanently burned onto Shizuka’s retinas. She’s seen her best friend's pussy swallow the whole damn hentai-sized cock like it was no big deal, and at a rapid pace, at that. Comparing herself to Nicki, who Shizuka suspected was so naturally skilled that she could probably out fuck a seasoned pornstar if it came down to it, was obviously unfair.

But if she didn’t pull through and start living up to the standards set by Nate’s impressive girlfriend, Shizuka figured she wouldn’t impress him enough to make him want to keep having sex with her after this. She was wrong, of course, but her mind always was her greatest enemy.

Shizuka gritted her teeth and went even harder. Her hips were bouncing. Her upper arms were burning. Sweat was pouring down her forehead, making her wild black bangs stick closely to her skin. She hadn’t put this much physical effort into anything since… ever, really. Being the Asperger’s girl got her excused from many PE classes while growing up, and her dietary choices in the last four years weren’t doing her any favors, either.

But her efforts were bearing fruit. Nate was panting, clearly enjoying her work to please him despite the persistent pain between her legs echoing out from every thrust. Shizuka Hasegawa felt proud of herself for the first time in a very long time.

“How is it, Nate? How... mn... how am I doing…?” She dared to ask.

“Not bad,” he tried to sound impartial if only to bully her a little more. “Still hanging in there?”

“I-I can keep going… I’m… ahh… not stopping until I’ve taken all of your cock. I can’t give up now.”

“Not gonna lie, It’s pretty cute to see how dedicated you are,” Nate smiled and gave her a few condescending pats on her ass cheek. “At this rate, you’ll reach the halfway point any second now. Keep it up.”

Shizuka blinked rapidly as she processed his words. Her eyes bulged, and her throat went dry. She had to have been fucking him for minutes, but… “I’m… I’m n-not even halfway there…?”

“Nope.”

Her confidence faded just as quickly as she’d earned it. Shizuka’s arms gave out next, meaning she was going to rip her pussy wide open for Nate the old-fashioned way- but her descent was stopped by Nate quickly wrapping his arms around her midsection and shifting his hips forward so that the back of her ass now rested comfortably on his pelvis.

She didn’t understand.

“Nate? What are you-”

“I wasn’t actually going to let you fall, dummy. That was just part of the play.”

“Oh. Oh, I see. Hm.” Shizuka felt a smile appearing on her face as relief washed over her. “Why tell me that, then? You know I have trouble telling when other people are serious or not…”

“Because watching you try your hardest to bottom out on my cock during your first time was one of the sexiest things I’ve ever fucking seen, Shizuka. That, and I knew it would excite you if I was a little mean.”

She paused to think about it before rationalizing that, yes, this indeed made sense. It also made her happy to see he’d been thinking about making her enjoy this as best she could, even if being out of the loop frustrated her.

“It… was rather exciting, I suppose…” Shizuka admitted. “So… what now?”

“Now is the part where I’m going to do exactly as you wanted and vent my frustrations. You’re loose enough now, so I can force myself the rest of the way there and get most of the rough stuff out of the way if I do it fast enough, I think…” Nate wasn’t totally confident but tried not to show it. He’d only taken one girl’s virginity, and Nicki had used a dildo before he was lucky enough to get his hands on her, so all of this was new territory for him.

“Very well. I shall entrust this matter to you, so… do what needs to be done.” Closing her eyes, Shizuka leaned back onto Nate’s chest. She prepared herself for what was coming next and placed her hands on the arms wrapped around her waist, clenching tight.

Nate was surprised at himself for holding back so long. He really did want to get straight to fucking her after all the build-up, but he was glad he’d restrained himself long enough to enjoy a bit more teasing. Shizuka was even cuter than he gave her credit for, and he had to give her props for that.

It was time to give the woman what she wished for.

Moving his hips for the first time, Nate dragged his cock out of his old crush and slid right back in with an upward thrust, putting moderate power behind it. She responded with a predictable soft moan and whimpering, but Nate was too focused on his pleasure to care. He was deep enough inside of Shizuka now to really develop an appreciation for how different women’s vaginas could be from one another.

Shizuka was a lot smoother inside than Nicki, which meant less friction, but she was also twice as soft. Nicki’s pussy was dangerous, but Shizuka’s was relaxing. It felt soothing just to sit there with his cock soaking within her body, or at least he figured it would once she’d loosened up some more. She was still suffocatingly tight, and Nate had a lot of work to do on that front before the fun could really begin.

He could feel her body thanking him for the pleasure, her tight tunnel clenching even tighter as if trying to keep him where he was for as long as possible, but Nate didn’t let that stop him. Working in and out in a steady rhythm, he started to fuck Shizuka with increasing intensity for the next few minutes. Nate buried his cock in her deeper and deeper, each thrust gaining precious purchase on the way to complete insertion.

While he still had mixed feelings about how their conversation went before their coupling, it was hard to think about anything other than how crazy it was to actually be having sex with the girl he longed for back in school.

His crush on Nicki was just that at the time- a crush- but he made an actual attempt with Shizuka. Lots of attempts, really, and now here she was. Reclining against his body. Panting. Moaning. Getting fucked by him as he tried to fit every last inch of his massive cock in her tight, virgin pussy.

Shizuka was enjoying every second of every thrust.

It hurt more than when she was setting the pace, but the excitement of it all kicked her overstimulated, masochistic brain into overdrive. She was stretched so wide- her labia straining from his girth- and somehow, some way, Nate always had more to give. Her moaning increased, as did his thrusting, matching the gradually more rapid pace.

After a certain point, Shizuka even started to unconsciously help Nate along. She was rolling her wide hips downward as he thrust up into her. Slowly, at first, and then not so slow. He got another inch in and then another.

How was it possible to feel so full? So complete? Being with Nate was better than she envisioned, and she wouldn’t give this up for anything in the world.

It only took a few more minutes of sex for her to feel his pelvis fully pressed against her own, and when his cockhead firmly pushed against her core for the first time, Shizuka let out the most resounding moan of her life.

“Aaaaaahhhhn…!!”

The noise reverberated through the silent library, causing two reactions from Nate. The first was to cover Shizuka’s mouth in a panic. The second was to throb like mad inside her and leak a steady stream of precum against her womb out of sheer arousal. He was an exhibitionist, plain and simple, and it was a big part of why Shizuka had such an easy time tempting him into fucking her.

Doing this was wrong on multiple levels, and that’s probably why it felt so damn good.

“You need to be way fucking quieter, damn it…” Nate leaned in and growled softly into her ear. “There’s no way your boss won’t wake up if you keep that up!”

After he lifted his hand enough to allow Shizuka to speak, she said, “You… you really think I have any… mn… control over that right now…? Nate, my mind is foggy. Everything is a blur. It’s hard enough to comprehend that I’m- ah- e-even here right now, let alone for me to control the volume of my voice… not when it all feels so good…”

Nate twitched inside her as he listened to her soft, dreamy voice sounding desperate and shameful. He wanted to take things further, but it would be a problem if they were discovered, so he offered the best solution he could think of.

“Am I going to have to keep your mouth shut until we’re done?”

Shizuka liked that idea, and her body showed it by clamping him tight from base to tip. “Seems like that m-might be the wisest course of-”

“Shizuka…?” An older woman’s voice called out from somewhere over their shoulders, followed by a drawn-out yawn. “Are you alright back there?”

Shizuka tightened down twice as tight. Nate throbbed and stifled a moan. She looked at him in terror, begging for instruction on what she should do, but Nate had nothing. He gestured for her to respond.

“Yes, sorry, Joanne… I’m… mn… helping out a visitor right now…” Shizuka looked back behind them to assess the damage, but her boss wasn’t actually at the entrance to the manga section and couldn’t see she that was sitting on the same lap as said visitor. "It's a friend of mine... s-someone I haven't seen in a while..."

Shizuka’s boss was quiet for a moment, and they became worried she was going to enter the room, but she spoke before long in a slow, sluggish voice punctuated by further yawns. “Is that so? Huh... you’ve never mentioned any other friends besides Nicki, Shizuka. Good for you.”

Before Shizuka could say something back, Nate’s cruelty kicked in again, and he started to churn his cock slowly inside of her in little circles. The sudden sensation of movement at such a scary time caused her to feel incredible pleasure. Shizuka shuddered, hoping to keep herself quiet as he teased her.

“T-Thank you… we were kind of in the m-middle of something so…”

“Ah, sorry…” Shizuka’s boss yawned yet again, her voice sluggish and slow. “I didn’t mean to interrupt. It’s embarrassing to say it, but I woke up from a little nap, and… I thought I heard a strange sound just now and wanted to make sure you were alright.”

Nate made things harder for Shizuka because he just couldn’t help himself. His hand reached under her skirt and started stroking Shizuka’s clit in time with his rotating hips. Shizuka whimpered and clamped down on his cock rapidly on and off as she fought her urge to cry out. Doing this kind of thing to Nicki would probably earn him a playful smack and an eventual form of payback, so it was nice to bully someone a little without fear of repercussions.

“A-Actually… I’m feeling a bit off today, too… I-I was hoping you wouldn’t mind if I went home after I’m done with my friend?”

“Hm, that’s no good. Maybe there’s something going around…?” Joanne pondered. “Might be best if we close up early, just in case… I’ve still got a few things to do, assuming I don’t… mn, pass out again first… so… feel free to leave as soon as you’re finished. Make sure to check your friend out if they need the help.”

“Will do… t-thanks a lot, Joanne…” Shizuka mumbled.

In the following silence, they heard Joanne’s footsteps recede into the distance. Once she was far away enough, they looked at each other again. Nate gave her a solemn stare that screamed, ‘I told you so’, while Shizuka met it head-on with a nervous gulp.

“I thought the sleeping pills were much stronger than that…” she said.

“You thought wrong.”

“Indeed, I did. They always knock my father out cold every night, though perhaps it’s the sake that does the bulk of the work…”

Nate blinked. “I am… very positive you’re not supposed to mix those.”

Shizuka shrugged as if she couldn’t care less, which Nate thought was fair given what he remembered about her strict family.

“At least you look pretty cute when you’re terrified,” Nate sighed. “Good to know.”

“I could’ve gotten in a lot of trouble back there,” Shizuka mumbled in embarrassment while fixing her glasses. “Why does that excite me so much…?”

“Because your brain is broken.”

“Ah, yes. That is… factually correct…” Shizuka nodded her head as if that made perfect sense.

“Still, I’m sorry if that was a bit much…” Nate felt a hint of guilt crop up.

“It’s fine… I’ve known Joanne since I was five. I doubt she would’ve outright fired me over my sudden development of a sex life, and… it’s not as if I didn’t enjoy the tense situation…”

“Trust me, I noticed. We should really wrap things up as quick as we can, though. Are you close?”

“Very,” Shizuka verified. “I suggest you cover my mouth and do what you need, as hard as you need to do it. I can take it by now.”

“As long as you’re sure…”

“I’m far from certain, but I’ll still end up enjoying it all the same if I happen to be proven wrong- albeit for different reasons. Finish me off, Nate. I want it inside me like you always do with Nicki.”

Shizuka was staring at him with pleading eyes and flushed cheeks, which was enough to send him back to action. He wasn’t far from climax, either, and he’d been hovering at that point ever since putting it in. Getting back to work, Nate’s hand covered her mouth entirely and picked up speed.

The difference between then and now was clear to Shizuka immediately after Nate started thrusting. Each movement now had a more savage force driving it, tearing into her tight hole one quick stroke at a time. She felt him passing through the entire length of her slippery sleeve from tip to base, reaming her with little regard for her pain tolerance- and Shizuka was totally into it.

Each second was a veritable wonderland of pain and pleasure that a masochist like herself would never again experience, so Shizuka was riding higher than high. Even when the pain finally started to lessen and became a distant second to her sexual ecstasy, it was hard to find anything to complain about.

She moaned into his hand, and Nate suspected she might’ve been screaming if he hadn’t gagged her. Tempting, but he wasn’t about to jeopardize her career more than he already had if he could help it.

That didn’t mean he was going to hold back, though. Tension was rising in his balls and pleasured cock as he plowed his old crush, their skin slapping against each other just quiet enough to not echo but loud enough for them both to hear it.

Nate was getting close, and he closed his eyes as he growled a warning. “I’m gonna do it any second now… I’m seriously gonna cum so fucking hard, Shizuka…”

Shizuka whimpered something in response that Nate assumed was meant to be her permission to do exactly that, so he focused even harder on getting himself off. As he did, his rampant thrusting ended up carrying Shizuka to the end before he’d gotten the chance. She howled into his hand, and Nate could feel her warm, wet pussy convulsing around every inch of his cock as an explosion of satisfaction ravaged her entire body.

Her climaxes weren’t as messy as Nicki’s, which was a blessing in disguise since getting her juices off the leather chair would’ve been a nightmare. Nate pounded Shizuka through her entire orgasm, not stopping for even a second thanks to how close he was to his own.

He gritted his teeth, his balls drew tightly back into his body, and he prepared to let go.

Nate grunted his release and unleashed a powerful blast of potent semen straight into Shizuka’s accommodating core. He didn’t stop at just one- his cock refusing to let up as stream after stream barreled out of his trembling urethra. He was pumping out years worth of unresolved sexual tension and flooding her pussy with all the awkward feelings and love he’d had for her for so long.

Shizuka couldn’t have been happier. She’d done it. She made Nate cum, and it judging from the way the heat erupted inside of her, it was a massive load.

Granted, she didn’t actually have much to do with his ejaculation, and she'd mostly just allowed him to do as he wished, but it was still a victory worth celebrating in her eyes. He must’ve felt really good with her body, and she smiled as soon as he lifted his hand from her mouth.

They sat in idle silence for the next few moments, each panting and gasping down any stray breath of air they could catch. Shizuka was leaking cum a river of steaming hot cum despite her still-plugged pussy, but Nate’s pants were catching the brunt of it.

That wasn’t ideal, but it was still better than the chair. Nate planned on going straight home, anyway, so it didn’t matter much to him if his jeans got dirty.

The longer the silence idled on, the more an uncomfortable feeling hung over Nate like a dark cloud. Many of his negative thoughts were returning, and he had his post-nut clarity to thank for that.

“Are you okay?” Nate shifted forward, fixing their awkward posture so that Shizuka was sitting on his lap again more normally.

“Never better…” Shizuka replied between deep breaths. “And what about you? Was it… good, Nate?”

“Well, yeah... I thought that part at the end where I was trying to seed and breed you like a wild animal spoke for itself?”

“Hm, I suppose it did…” Shizuka considered this, adding a soft chuckle. Her laughs rarely sounded natural, and more often than not, they were forced, but this one wasn’t. It was pretty cute, and Nate was glad that she was so happy despite his own personal reservations.

“I’m sorry that things got pretty out of hand there for a while…” Nate sighed, thinking back on what he’d done.

“You shouldn’t be. I gave my explicit consent for you to act as rough and sadistic as you wished, did I not? I don’t understand why you would be feeling… ah, wait a moment. I’ve read about this in my sexual research. Are you perhaps falling victim to the shame that commonly occurs after a male orgasm? I understand it’s my duty to comfort you if so, and though I have no experience in such matters, I-”

“It’s not just that. I just wish we had waited a little longer instead of rushing into things, that’s all.”

Shizuka got really quiet as the gears spun in her head. “But you went along with it?”

“Partially because you pushed me pretty hard for it. Not saying I'm blameless- obviously not, but-"

“...You were clearly enjoying yourself, though. Weren't you?”

"I was, yeah. I won’t try and pretend this wasn’t great, but…”

“Maybe we didn’t properly excise all of the tension? Yes, surely that must be it. If you would like to drive me to your house, we could continue until we’ve fully-”

“Having more sex won't help with what I’m feeling, Shizuka...”

A few moments passed as Shizuka thought in silence. She picked up on the social cues pointing out that he was somewhat unhappy with her, and more importantly, she realized that Nicki was right.

In her panic to keep Nate interested, she’d rushed him along a path he wasn’t comfortable with. He wasn’t without fault, but he was vulnerable today, and she’d unintentionally abused that, thinking it would make him happier in the long run.

“I…” she started to speak, but her voice cracked as she tried not to sob.

No. She wasn’t going to cry. Not in front of Nate. Shizuka successfully forced down the brunt of her emotions, regaining a measure of calmness as she tried again.

“I didn’t mean to upset you. I only wanted you to be happy, Nate. I thought that by giving myself to you, it would speed up our road to recovery and-”

“Shizuka, just quiet down for a second…” Nate insisted, causing her to do as he asked. “I wanted to say that I'm sorry I fucked this up on my end of things. I should’ve been stronger and resisted you so we could’ve done this the right way.”

“And… what exactly is the ‘right way’…?”

Nate hugged Shizuka from behind. He knew from experience that she was likely close to a panic attack, and he wanted to avoid that outcome as much as he could.

“It was a mistake to have sex today, but I don’t want you to think that means I didn’t like it. That I don’t still like you. Sex didn’t resolve any of the emotional issues on my end of things. I understand now what I came here for, and it was to reconnect with you. We skipped a lot more of that than I would’ve liked, so now I just feel… off.”

“I… see…” Shizuka quietly nodded her head. “So I made a mistake. Again. Like always.”

Shizuka was feeling the urge to fall back into old habits. Her arms itched, but she’d come a long way since high school. She needed to listen to the rest of what he had to say, and she wouldn’t ruin her chances by regressing.

Not here, and not now.

“No. We both made a mistake, but that doesn’t mean we can’t still fix it.”

“Please explain further. I am… currently in a precarious state of mind and need further information.”

“You’re not about to scratch yourself, are you?” Nate hugged her closer and frowned. He’d had to stop her a few times back in high school, so he was more familiar with Shizuka’s bad habit than he would’ve liked.

Still, Nate was grateful it stopped at only scratching. As far as tics go, Shizuka could’ve had a much, much worse one.

“No. I haven’t done that in…” Shizuka almost lied to impress him, but she once again forced herself to be honest as she melted into their hug. “Weeks. Not since my mother yelled last at me for forgetting to take the garbage out. It wasn’t just about the garbage, as the verbal lashing extended to… other facets of my life, but I digress... anyway... I’m trying to stress that it’s generally a much rarer event than it used to be.”

“Yeah?” He leaned his head against hers from behind. Nate actually smiled at the knowledge she’d made some progress on herself. “Good. I’m proud of you.”

Shizuka blushed and unintentionally nuzzled backward into his forehead. It was an awkward gesture, but Nate didn’t mind. “Your pride is appreciated, but not as much as telling me how we can fix the mess I’ve made would be.”

“First off, I think we need to digest what happened today before pushing for anything else. I’m… open to having a relationship with you, assuming Nicki’s still on board, but we have to actually talk about our past like adults before we can move on. I can’t just fuck away the years I spent being depressed about you, Shizuka. It still hurts, and we barely went over it.”

Shizuka closed her eyes and tried something usually quite difficult for her. She mentally put herself in Nate’s shoes, attempting to see where he came from. It didn’t always help. Her ability to understand others was tenuous at best, but with Nate, she could connect quickly enough and soon became sympathetic about why he felt this way.

“Shizuka?”

She shook herself back to reality. “Sorry. Lost in my thoughts. I’m ashamed I didn’t see any of this on my own, but… I think I have a better understanding of my mistakes now. If… if we really go ahead and do as you say, are you... um... are you serious...? About being open to the idea of beginning a romantic relationship with me, I mean. You’re not just saying that because you feel obligated now that we had sex, right?”

“Of course not,” Nate’s voice was firm. Authoritative. Calming. “We’re going to figure this out. Together.”

“…You promise?”

“Yeah. I promise.”

Shizuka turned around with his cock still inside of her and gave Nate a forward-facing hug, slamming his face into her chest. The quick glance he’d gotten at her face showed she was emotional and close to tears, but there was an unmistakable smile present- at least until his sight was swallowed by sweater puppies.

“Say it again.” Shizuka begged.

“I promise.” Nate hugged her back.

“One more time. Just so it really sinks in.”

“I promise that you and I are gonna figure this out together, Shizuka, and I won’t let what happened today get in the way of us sorting out our feelings.”

“Thank you, Nate…” Shizuka sighed, and a metric ton of worries fled her soul as she did.

She trusted Nate more than anyone- even Nicki. She had no reason to doubt him even for a second if he said they'd figure this out. The problem was as good as solved.

“Don't mention it,” Nate grabbed Shizuka by the shoulders and pried her off of him, which took a little more effort than he expected. She really didn’t want to let go. “Now, why don’t you put your panties back on, and I’ll drive you home?”

“Unnecessary. The panties were a gift.” Shizuka articulated coldly.

“If you don’t wear them out, my cum will fall out of you and onto the floor.”

Shizuka froze as her mind puzzled that fact out. She looked disgruntled upon realizing he was right. “Very well. Give me a moment, and we’ll be on our way.”

Shizuka sat up and finally dislodged Nate’s cock from her, feeling a profound emptiness in its absence. She wondered if she would ever get used to that, as her experience had been so life-changing it was hard to imagine there was a time when her tight little hole hadn't been stretched to maximum capacity. Cum trickled out of her as expected, but she put her panties back on to cover it up before any of it could leak onto the floor and make a mess.

Nate buckled back up and put his dick away. It was quiet and awkward between them now, but Shizuka soon discovered she had a problem. She couldn’t walk straight after what she’d just been through and lost balance quickly after trying to hobble after Nate.

“Need some help?” He offered his hand, which she took without a hint of hesitation.

“It would be greatly appreciated, yes… you seem to have done such a rough job down there that I’m unable to support myself without your assistance. Though, I suppose not much has changed on that front…” Shizuka took advantage of the opportunity to lock her arm around Nate’s, which made it much easier for her to walk.

Nate was worried that the head librarian would immediately piece together what happened between them as soon as she saw them exiting the building arm in arm, especially after she’d asked to go home early for the day, but he supposed they could just as easily brush it off as her having trouble walking due to a fever.

It turned out he didn’t need to worry so much, as the older woman was back where she was when he’d entered the building- facedown at the front desk, snoring loudly in a deep sleep. Her drool was seeping onto the counter.

“Seriously, though. Don’t ever slip your boss sleeping pills again.” Nate gave Shizuka a soft, comical bop on her forehead with the bottom of his fist.

“Duly noted and lesson learned,” Shizuka sighed. “If it helps-”

“I’m not taking ‘I did it for you’ as an acceptable excuse, Shizuka.”

“Hm. It was worth a shot...”

“Do something nice for her whenever your next shift is, too.” Nate insisted as they walked out the door. "Buy her a nice coffee, I don't know. Something."

“Okay. I have to say, though. It’s nice to have you point out my poor decisions again. Very nostalgic. Nicki usually just encourages me to be myself, even if there are many situations where I would’ve been better being anyone else…”

“At least you’re self-aware enough to know that in retrospect. You didn’t always reflect on your actions back in the day.” Nate gave her a soft smile. His praise meant the world to her, even if it wasn’t very high praise.

“That’s all your fault, you know. It took me accidentally hurting someone I loved to force me to grow up if only a little. I still make countless mistakes, but… I’d like to think something good came from our past…”

Nate wasn’t sure how to take that.

He was proud of her personal growth, but no one liked being a stepping stone. He decided to keep silent on the matter, knowing they would talk about ‘that whole affair’ in the near future and fully clear things up.

Shizuka and Nate entered his car at around 3:30 after she clocked out, and it was refreshing to have a passenger who didn’t complain about the patchwork nature of the old machine for once. Shizuka gave him directions to her house, and she wasn’t kidding when she said it wasn’t far from the library. It was only three blocks away, and Shizuka explained she typically walked to and from work every day. It was one of the main reasons she could even take the job since she was afraid of the idea of driving, and her parents had careers of their own to worry about.

The car ride was as short as it was awkward. Neither of them said anything on the way. Both parties were soaking in the enormous gravity of the crazy things they’d just done. It still didn’t feel real to Nate, whereas Shizuka felt the opposite. It was all too real, and her body wouldn’t stop reminding her of that fact between the womb full of cum, and the lingering pain of her stretched pussy.

Nate pulled up to a lovely, two-story house in an equally nice neighborhood. He thought it was cool that a few stone jizo statues were scattered along the side of the building where other families might’ve had garden gnomes or something equally as tacky. Shizuka’s father lived in Japan for most of his life, and to Nate’s understanding, the man brought a lot of his culture to America with him when he moved to be with his wife, a Japanese-American woman who was studying overseas when they first met.

“Nice place,” Nate felt the urge to comment.

“Thanks. I try not to leave my room.” Shizuka added

“Still…?” Nate frowned. “Did things never end up getting any better with your parents?”

Shizuka was quiet until she took a strand of her long, wild hair and began to play with it and curl it around her fingers. “Depends on what you mean by ‘better’. Did they stop endlessly harassing me for being born the way I was, or stop comparing me to my prodigious older sister? Yes, actually. I’m left to my own devices more often than not these days, aside from the typical passive-aggressive comments my mother spouts whenever I enter her field of vision.”

“Sounds like a vague step up from what things used to be like, at least… I feel like there’s a ‘but’ coming along, though.”

“Indeed there is. Things are tolerable now, but it’s not as if they ever developed a fondness toward me, and they’ve certainly never acknowledged how much their unrealistic expectations…” Shizuka blanked out, and her eyelids twitched a few times.

Nate quickly put his hand on her shoulder to ground her in reality, telling her, “Hey, hey… easy, there. It’s okay. We don’t have to talk about this if it’s upsetting you. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to bring you down or ruin your mood.”

Shizuka snapped to and was grateful for his calming touch. “Not your fault, Nate, but thank you… I appreciate your concern. When it comes down to it, things could be a lot worse. I have a stable job, which is more than they ever expected of me, and so long as I pay for my own food, I'm left well enough alone.”

“That sounds… um, I guess you could say it’s a definite improvement, but it’s not ideal. I really hope things get better for you. No one should have to live like that.”

Shizuka stared at him pointedly with a blank face as she unbuckled her seatbelt. “Nothing’s been confirmed as of yet, but I believe I have a few good reasons to be potentially optimistic about the future as of this afternoon. Assuming I didn’t misunderstand or misinterpret you, of course.”

Nate thought about that before nodding and giving her a soft, somewhat conflicted smile. “I said what I said. We’ll figure this out.”

“Okay. Good.” Shizuka tried to smile back, but it didn’t look natural. She was trying too hard, making it look crooked and weird. The effort was appreciated, at least. “I suppose I’ll hear from you soon?”

Shizuka was lingering in her seat, staring at him for an answer. She didn’t want to go, and Nate couldn’t blame her, but he needed time to think about all this before inviting her to his place. Still, Nate wanted to end things on an optimistic note, so he pulled out his phone.

Shizuka watched in confusion as Nate typed something out, only to nearly jump out of her seat in surprise when her phone vibrated in her skirt pocket. She looked at Nate, who was staring directly at her now, and then she took out the phone to check the most recent notification.

A single text from the man sitting beside her read, ‘Sooner than you think’.

Her mind was an incoherent jumble of thoughts and emotions as she read the line repeatedly, looking back up at Nate between every cursory scan. It took some courage, but she clicked on the message and thumbed a response.

‘Looking forward to it.’

No one said a word as Shizuka opened the car door and hobbled towards her house. She lingered at the front door after unlocking it, then, as if to make sure everything that had happened wasn’t a dream, Shizuka looked behind her. The clock hadn’t struck midnight yet, and Nate was still sitting in his car, just as she’d left him twenty-three seconds ago.

Good.

Shizuka gave him a little wave and retreated inside once he waved back, leaving Nate alone at the wheel. A few seconds passed before he let out a big sigh. A lot had happened in the last hour and a half, and he still wasn’t sure how to process it all. There was some good, some bad, and a lot of conflicting feelings in between.

Nate thought they’d managed to salvage a lot of it by the end, but he still wasn’t fully satisfied with the way his time with Shizuka went. Compared to bursting with new ideas after a new fuck and suck session with Nicki, he was quiet and contemplative as he drove home.

Speaking of Nicki, she'd have left for work by now, and he'd have the place to himself. That suited Nate just fine. He had a lot to think about. Some time to himself would probably do him some good.