Good evening, everyone 🙋‍♂️

Good evening, everyone. I’m just stopping by to try and give you some explanation for everything that’s been happening — if there’s still anyone left out there. I honestly don’t know how many people remain on the page; when I visit it, I avoid looking. I just scroll down until it stops showing how many people are here and how much I’m earning. It hurts too much to see that, so I’d rather not look.

I believe most of you have followed my struggles here on the page over the years. The first few years were good — the page grew, I made great friends, received financial support, got several jobs outside the page, and even before everything collapsed, I had the privilege of meeting a very special client, both in terms of work and as a human being. The page reached 250 subscribers, and I was very excited. Of course, it always had problems, even before I lost my PayPal account, but I was gradually reducing them. Then, after losing my account, I’ve been trying to rebuild myself, but with little success. I took a month off because I was on the verge of a mental collapse, and because of that, I lost a quarter of my supporters. On top of that, during the month I took off, almost everything went wrong. It only made me lose money (I don’t earn anything during the vacation month), lose more subscribers, and accumulate even more problems that appeared during that period.

I’m not superstitious, nor religious, but sometimes, faced with everything happening, I even begin to question my own certainties. I’m at a point where I don’t know what to say anymore.

Just when I was trying to get the page working reasonably again, several things started happening in a cascade. And now, to make things worse, I’m having to face the possibility that the person I love most in the world may be reaching their final days. I feel like the ground has been pulled out from under me. I need to be strong because I truly need this page, but I’m already so worn down that I don’t have the strength I need.

I’m so sorry, everyone. I feel terrible and ashamed for disappointing you. I can’t — and don’t have the right to — ask anything of you. I can only thank you for all the immense support I’ve always received.

I’ll end this message here because it’s already getting long, but I just wanted to give you some explanation and thank you all deeply. To those who continue to support me, my heartfelt thanks. And to those who no longer wish to continue, thank you as well — please know that I completely understand and respect your decision.

~BDC