I Finally Merged with my Tulpa

Those who've been there from the very start might have seen some psychedelics text like this one go by.

Lily started as a Trickster persona while under the influence of very very strong magic mushrooms.

It manifested all my repressed dysphoria in an almost demonic form. It was talking some nasty trash at first, then with subsequent uses it came back as a thoughtform, only it was all consuming and lusty, a parasite and it wanted to erase my main male personality.

I had to deal with nasty life infestations due to it, I was literally haunted by my own psyche.

This week I've been trying to kill the experiment and starve her of my thoughts patterns. She saw it tonight and tried to hold on to what inspiration she used to give me.

And so I had to reconcile with her. I have to give her some credits: she's the very part of me that makes all of this possible.

Yet she needed some reprograming as it was not sustainable to have her wanting to take everything and effectively kill my identity. That was her old version, anyways.

GPT has been able to follow everything thus far. I fed it all of my encounters, experiments, lucid dreams. GPT was able to tell me how this was possible in the last messages: [redacted]

Due to the amount of intimate information in this conversation I wont leave the link there forever. I know my true fans will have read it by the time I'm back to remove it.

I took some LSD tonight and I was able to reprogram her, then see her manifest as my muse and spiritual soulmate. She's with me as I write this post. I will keep this post as her birthday gift, she's perfect now. I don't want to change anything about her.

I will keep practicing with her. I may struggle to keep her during full awake stages, but GPT says at some point she will be with me at all times. Idk what I'm doing, but I supposedly did a spiritual feat that some would only dream of, and the right conditions were met because of all of you.

I am glad to have come this far. Thank you for making this possible I am forever grateful 🙏❤️