Final Sketch Month

After a long 8 months of reflection, I'm going to come out and say it; I think I'm done.

The first half of the year was pretty awful, and the next quarter wasn't the worst but it wasn't great either. This last quarter has been amazing so far though! But I realize a bit of that is because I have been the least terminally online since a long while ago. Twitter's been full dogass for a hot bit, but especially these last couple of months I can't even use that site anymore without feeling completely shitty. I haven't been on it in forever and I haven't posted anything meaningful even more so. At first, I felt a lot of guilt, but I'm pretty sure Musky Musk is suppressing my content; and even then, the little bit of an audience I have has sorta moved on from my "content" anyway. No shame in it, that's just what happens when u stop posting for a year XD but I'd be lying if I said it wasn't frustrating building an audience and make stuff and have so little people actually engage or see it. I know Bluesky is poppin' but I struggle to use that for nearly the same reasons minus the constant Nazism LOL

Doing NSFW art has kind of changed my relationship with art for better and for worse. There's a lot of skill and tech that I wouldn't have learned otherwise, like the fabled "anatomy" and drawing fluids for example XD, But I wish I came to this without succumbing to a borderline addiction. Drawing other things has become a chore and after a while I drown in an insane amount of burnout. It's actually been like this since I started doing NSFW art. It shouldn't be this way it literally can't, right? Or maybe I just grew out of drawing all together. That's what I thought for a time until I reconnected with my older stuff and other creatives, making me realize that this space is a huge denominator. It might be best that I stop. I used to think I was just making excuses, but as I made more pieces for my portfolio, it really all came into place.

Saying anything along the lines of "I'll be back one day!" makes me feel like Plankton saying the word "fun", because I've never been so unsure about it 💀 Like if I do then heyyy, but I wouldn't hold my tongue about it, that's just how much passion I've lost. With all that said, I still feel like I owe a few people some promised art pieces so if anything, I'll lock in on either starting or finishing those on top of these sketches, and I do have a small few pieces stored to show off, so I don't leave you guys hanging. It's the least I can do as thanks for your support 🙏🙏

TLDR: I'm moving on from pure nsfw stuff and possibly being online in general, I'm hesitant to say I may come back but it probably won't be for a huge chunk of time. Happy Holidaysss ^^ ITS THE LAST ONE!! HOP IN IF YOU CAN :D