GiuHellsing

Bye my love ;..;

Added 2018-03-21 03:18:07 +0000 UTC

Well, you have to figure out why I didn't show up here yesterday ...

Me and Astrid had a really bad day. She convulsed in my arms. I was able to help her at that moment, but all the rest of the night she screamed in pain.

A scream so loud that the neighbors got scared. I never thought it would be that fast, and I just wanted her to feel no pain. So I took her in the emergency, gave to her tooooons of love all night. While I was with her, she calmed down and slept. While I didn't, she screamed, didn't breathe, and all the other things you should imagine.

But we did euthanasia. She didn't deserve to suffer. Then it's fair.

My heart is shaken. I loved her very much, and somehow I had hopes. I spent what I could and couldn't do to try to help her. I really miss her.

I know it was a great time together. And life goes with it close to me, even if not physically. Now I'm going to focus on working, cosplays, to distract myself. I don't know how to handle it. My birthday is the 22nd and the only thing I think is that at least she's not suffering anymore.

I love you Astrid. SO MUCH.