The ups and downs of Christmas!

Hey everyone :)

I hope the holidays are treating you well!

my Santa suit plan has been completely derailed as not only didn’t it arrive for Christmas but they never bothered attempting a delivery before they sent it to a  collection depot without consulting me. I’m completely housebound at this point and can’t collect the damn thing so all I can do is to wait until it’s returned to the sender for a refund and then to order one for next year. Absolutely sucks, but it is what it is, I’m so sorry about that everyone 😔

I did however manage to find my ugly Christmas sweater from a few years ago and it’s kind of tight so I’m going to be using that to make a video next week in its place. Not as nice as a Santa outfit I know, but I like how much of a ball it makes my gut!

As you all know I’ve been struggling a great deal with my health this year, especially since the summer. I’ve been feeling so ill all the time it’s making me really struggle to find foods I like, plus the cost of food is so high at this point it’s hard enough to just tide us over from week to week. I’d lost a bit of weight through just being unable to eat but thankfully not to much. Nothing depresses me more than losing weight! 

My scales had been out of order for a while but I managed to scrape together enough for a replacement battery just before Christmas and weighed myself on the evening of Christmas Eve. I was 12 stone 12 pounds, and over the next two days managed to gain 5 pounds and nine ounces! And then.... I got sick and I dropped 6 and a half pounds in the last couple of days which sucks so badly >:(

I have a new way to tackle this which I’m going to leap into with a video next week. I’m not much of a drinker because alcohol doesn’t really do much for me, it takes an extraordinary amount of units for me to feel anything and while there are a few drinks I like the taste of I’d usually just rather have a coke or something. But over Xmas I did drink some beer and champagne that I’d found tucked away on the boat during the move and I’m sure that accounted for most of my Christmas gains so I’ve purchased some nice Spanish lager (regular lager is a bit weak in flavour for me, I like San Miguel best) and I’m going to start filtering those in with my meals for a Couple of weeks. When I gained so much in 2020 I’m pretty sure having a big beer phase helped!

Also a new effect is apparently LOADS of gas, which beyond just the carbonation, and I’ve never had with alcohol before. The morning after I just had an endless stream of flatulence and about an hour after drinking a beer I was blown up like a balloon so these are all things I’m gonna be focusing on when I record! In the meanwhile there are some more old videos to go up tomorrow for a happy new year, and I’m determined to spend 2023 building up my strength and health so I can get my body back to the big way that I like it!

Thank you all for your incredible support. I can’t believe I’ll have been out about my fetish and making videos for 10 years next year. I wish so much I hadn’t wasted the 30 years before that. Never be ashamed of who you are, and I wish you all a very positive and peaceful 2023 💙